Rambling Rosie's Retreat

[EnglishM41]

So I've been reluctant to post because the last thing I want is to turn this place into Rosie's Doom and Gloom Thread.

However I am struggling.
I've been ignoring it for a while, or not acknowledging how bad I've been feeling. Hoping it would just be a temporary thing. It doesn't seem to be which is unfortunate.

I've made an appointment to see someone about it, get some coping strategies or therapy or something and I'm still not ready to be back here as much just yet.

I had thought about leaving, struggled with not knowing how I fit in or if anyone would even notice that I wasn't here but that's the negativity talking.

I love being here. I'm proud of how far I've come since I joined and of the things I've learned about myself. I don't want to leave. I know I have friends who value me as I do them.

I'm sharing today because I feel that being fully honest about my thoughts and experiences can only be positive. I know there are some of you reading this who will also struggle and I want you to know you are also valued and wanted.

I am here but on battery saver mode. I will try and reply to comments and PMs but it might take longer than usual.

Sending love to you all.
Rosie

Don't worry Rosie

Think we all have feelings like this, you are doing the right thing about speaking about it, getting it out in open helps to deal with it all.
You will not always feel like this, it comes and goes.
Doing well , hang onto the positive things in life that you love and enjoy and it will help you get through this difficult stage.
Speaking to to someone like your Doctor is good too, helps you get your mind round things like I am not the only one who feels like this and realising life is not as bad as it seems.

the nature walks too definitely help.

Take care and speak soon

Love EM

 

[caitiff1969]

So I've been reluctant to post because the last thing I want is to turn this place into Rosie's Doom and Gloom Thread.

However I am struggling.
I've been ignoring it for a while, or not acknowledging how bad I've been feeling. Hoping it would just be a temporary thing. It doesn't seem to be which is unfortunate.

I've made an appointment to see someone about it, get some coping strategies or therapy or something and I'm still not ready to be back here as much just yet.

I had thought about leaving, struggled with not knowing how I fit in or if anyone would even notice that I wasn't here but that's the negativity talking.

I love being here. I'm proud of how far I've come since I joined and of the things I've learned about myself. I don't want to leave. I know I have friends who value me as I do them.

I'm sharing today because I feel that being fully honest about my thoughts and experiences can only be positive. I know there are some of you reading this who will also struggle and I want you to know you are also valued and wanted.

I am here but on battery saver mode. I will try and reply to comments and PMs but it might take longer than usual.

Sending love to you all.
Rosie

I'm so sorry that you are fighting through this. Just know that almost all of us (if not all of us) are here for you.
Offering hugs if, and whenever, you may want or need them.

 

[LupineOne]

So I've been reluctant to post because the last thing I want is to turn this place into Rosie's Doom and Gloom Thread.

However I am struggling.
I've been ignoring it for a while, or not acknowledging how bad I've been feeling. Hoping it would just be a temporary thing. It doesn't seem to be which is unfortunate.

I've made an appointment to see someone about it, get some coping strategies or therapy or something and I'm still not ready to be back here as much just yet.

I had thought about leaving, struggled with not knowing how I fit in or if anyone would even notice that I wasn't here but that's the negativity talking.

I love being here. I'm proud of how far I've come since I joined and of the things I've learned about myself. I don't want to leave. I know I have friends who value me as I do them.

I'm sharing today because I feel that being fully honest about my thoughts and experiences can only be positive. I know there are some of you reading this who will also struggle and I want you to know you are also valued and wanted.

I am here but on battery saver mode. I will try and reply to comments and PMs but it might take longer than usual.

Sending love to you all.
Rosie

Thank you for opening up to us. It’s not easy being honest with yourself, and I’m sorry you’re going through a tough period right now.
For what it’s worth, we’re all here for you

 

[Hurricane78]

We all need to be good to ourselves

 

[RosewoodTulip]

You’re such a beautiful person inside and out Rosie Posey. I adore you and hate that you have anything other than perfect days filled with sunshine and rainbows (obviously unattainable but a girl can dream right?!).
Much love and booby hugs to you

Love and booby hugs
What more could I ask for?

Hi Rosie,

First of all, I'm very sorry to hear that you've been struggling... and I hope you're feeling much better very soon.

But I just wanted to express my appreciation for the strength, truth and beauty of what you've written here. I think that the wisdom of this sentence is inspiring: "I'm sharing today because I feel that being fully honest about my thoughts and experiences can only be positive." Wonderful. Thank you so much for sharing like this! And the thoughtfulness of this next sentence perfectly complements the wisdom of the previous one: "I know there are some of you reading this who will also struggle and I want you to know you are also valued and wanted." Thank you for this kindness!

I'm also impressed and inspired by your proactive approach to your struggles... acknowledging them, talking about them, and making arrangements to see someone. For years I lived with someone who struggled, but was resistant to taking any of those necessary steps... and if I step back further in time, there was a long period where I neglected those opportunities to help myself when I needed it, as well. So I'm massively appreciative of your refreshing and honest approach! I'm sure that it will lead to that which you seek...

When I first read that you had thought about leaving Lit, my mind immediately went to 'oh no, it won't be the same without Rosie here'... but then I admonished myself for being so selfish. (How shitty of me to take your beautiful heartfelt post and make it about how I felt affected. I can be a real dick sometimes... lol. Internally.) But I thought that I would include my selfish thought, in the hopes of soothing your concern whether "anyone would even notice that I wasn't here". I can definitely say that many would miss you here... and I know I would. You were one of the first people to be really nice and welcoming to me when I joined, and I still marvel at your kind and thoughtful contributions whenever I see you throw your brilliant two-cents into someone's thread. Luv discovering some new words from you! And you bring a bright light to this place with your whole pleasant vibe.

I could go on and on... perhaps I already have (lol). But I can really relate to some of your fears or insecurities (where or if I fit in, for one example), as well as feeling the joy of many of your significant triumphs: "I'm proud of how far I've come since I joined and of the things I've learned about myself." I luv that previous sentence, and I just had to quote you! I also appreciate how respectfully you treat people here, and the support that you lend. Thanks for everything, Rosie. I know that I'm all over the place with this response (whoops), but you wrote a very heartfelt and thought-provoking original post... for which I thank you. Hope you're feeling better soon!

Thank you for once again being so thoughtful and kind. I also see how respectful and thoughtful you are in your responses to others and it's such a lovely thing

I’ve been feeling the same lately. Thank you for your boldness and courage to post your feelings, they let me know that I’m not the only one feeling this way.

I'm so sorry that you have been. Please reach out if you need to

Don't worry Rosie

Think we all have feelings like this, you are doing the right thing about speaking about it, getting it out in open helps to deal with it all.
You will not always feel like this, it comes and goes.
Doing well , hang onto the positive things in life that you love and enjoy and it will help you get through this difficult stage.
Speaking to to someone like your Doctor is good too, helps you get your mind round things like I am not the only one who feels like this and realising life is not as bad as it seems.

the nature walks too definitely help.

Take care and speak soon

Love EM

Thank you. That's what I've been trying to do, getting fresh air, seeing friends, being quiet and mindful.
This time I know I'll get better. I don't often feel like that and it's very comforting.
Thank you

I'm so sorry that you are fighting through this. Just know that almost all of us (if not all of us) are here for you.
Offering hugs if, and whenever, you may want or need them.

Thank you. That's very kind. I want this thread to be somewhere that anyone can come to if they feel lost or not themselves. The outpouring of support I've received has been wonderful

Thank you for opening up to us. It’s not easy being honest with yourself, and I’m sorry you’re going through a tough period right now.
For what it’s worth, we’re all here for you

Thank you sweet Wolfie

We all need to be good to ourselves

This is very true. It's so easy for me to put my needs on the back burner while I try and fix everything else but it's important to remember that I can't pour from an empty jug. I need to look after myself too and having such wonderful friends, old and new, definitely helps with that

 

[RosewoodTulip]

So let's think positive.
That seems to be the key to getting out of a slump.

It's very easy to dwell on the dark negative thoughts that seem so loud but those thoughts are not true. It's our fears and insecurities that cloud our experiences.

I would like anyone that wants to join in to share something positive here. It could be a funny anecdote, a nice memory, a favourite piece of art, a meme or a gif. A song or a fact. Anything that has made you smile lately.

To start off mine is listening to my son and my sister chat and share jokes every evening. He takes after her more than anyone else in my family, including myself, and listening to their crazy shared brain humour is wonderful

 

[Saltfountain]

I've had a shower, put some dry shorts on and feel positively human again

 

[Saltfountain]

I appreciate just how bad/niche that last post somds...

 

[RosewoodTulip]

I've had a shower, put some dry shorts on and feel positively human again

Nah after a long day I bet that feels great

 

[WriterLust94]

So let's think positive.
That seems to be the key to getting out of a slump.

It's very easy to dwell on the dark negative thoughts that seem so loud but those thoughts are not true. It's our fears and insecurities that cloud our experiences.

I would like anyone that wants to join in to share something positive here. It could be a funny anecdote, a nice memory, a favourite piece of art, a meme or a gif. A song or a fact. Anything that has made you smile lately.

To start off mine is listening to my son and my sister chat and share jokes every evening. He takes after her more than anyone else in my family, including myself, and listening to their crazy shared brain humour is wonderful

I have two days off coming soon, combined with three days off around them so I get a good block of time off to just rest, spend time with people I care about and be me

I appreciate just how bad/niche that last post somds...

Not at all, I've known people who have struggled just to get out of bed some days, so never diminish doing that plus doing that after a long day can feel therapeutic

 

[RosewoodTulip]

I have two days off coming soon, combined with three days off around them so I get a good block of time off to just rest, spend time with people I care about and be me

That sounds wonderful. Time to catch up with yourself and your loved ones

 

[HoneyMeadows]

I know I've said it elsewhere, but speaking with my friends daily really puts a smile on my face. I have a lunch date and a mardy-arse whom I really value opinions from, so I'm always talking to them

 

[LupineOne]

So let's think positive.
That seems to be the key to getting out of a slump.

It's very easy to dwell on the dark negative thoughts that seem so loud but those thoughts are not true. It's our fears and insecurities that cloud our experiences.

I would like anyone that wants to join in to share something positive here. It could be a funny anecdote, a nice memory, a favourite piece of art, a meme or a gif. A song or a fact. Anything that has made you smile lately.

To start off mine is listening to my son and my sister chat and share jokes every evening. He takes after her more than anyone else in my family, including myself, and listening to their crazy shared brain humour is wonderful

The latest episode of my current show made me grin like the village idiot, so there’s that

 

[RosewoodTulip]

I know I've said it elsewhere, but speaking with my friends daily really puts a smile on my face. I have a lunch date and a mardy-arse whom I really value opinions from, so I'm always talking to them

Good friends are the best. Even the mardy arsed ones

 

[RosewoodTulip]

The latest episode of my current show made me grin like the village idiot, so there’s that

Oh what are you watching?

 

[LupineOne]

Oh what are you watching?

Ahsoka

 

[RosewoodTulip]

Ahsoka

I should have guessed
I'm not there yet. Need to watch Rebels first. I know I can probably watch without knowing the whole back story but dammit I'm invested now

 

[Radiantcurves87]

Ahsoka

I have to catch up on that show, thanks for the reminder.

 

[Wriggle]

Good news everybody - I'm getting a £1500 bonus at the end of the month


& for the rest of the world good news-
Some scientists have sussed out how to make electricity form E-coli

 

[MedicalMuse]

So I've been reluctant to post because the last thing I want is to turn this place into Rosie's Doom and Gloom Thread.

However I am struggling.
I've been ignoring it for a while, or not acknowledging how bad I've been feeling. Hoping it would just be a temporary thing. It doesn't seem to be which is unfortunate.

I've made an appointment to see someone about it, get some coping strategies or therapy or something and I'm still not ready to be back here as much just yet.

I had thought about leaving, struggled with not knowing how I fit in or if anyone would even notice that I wasn't here but that's the negativity talking.

I love being here. I'm proud of how far I've come since I joined and of the things I've learned about myself. I don't want to leave. I know I have friends who value me as I do them.

I'm sharing today because I feel that being fully honest about my thoughts and experiences can only be positive. I know there are some of you reading this who will also struggle and I want you to know you are also valued and wanted.

I am here but on battery saver mode. I will try and reply to comments and PMs but it might take longer than usual.

Sending love to you all.
Rosie

I love that you’re here. I also LOVE that you’re asking for help and doing what you need to do for you. You are a stellar human and deserve happiness and to carve out space for you that is Rosie shaped. We’ll be here when you have time.

 

[RosewoodTulip]

Good news everybody - I'm getting a £1500 bonus at the end of the month


& for the rest of the world good news-
Some scientists have sussed out how to make electricity form E-coli

Both great news.
Hope you do something fun with your bonus

 

[RosewoodTulip]

I love that you’re here. I also LOVE that you’re asking for help and doing what you need to do for you. You are a stellar human and deserve happiness and to carve out space for you that is Rosie shaped. We’ll be here when you have time.

Thank you. It really means a lot coming from someone as kind as yourself

 

[barefootgirl69]

I was able to find something at the store that my mom has been wanting. It made me happy to surprise her with it.

 

[Wriggle]

Both great news.
Hope you do something fun with your bonus

I'm blowing the lot on my addiction - holidays.
So spending money for a trip to Portugal in October and paying off some of next year's Andorra holiday.

 

[RosewoodTulip]

I was able to find something at the store that my mom has been wanting. It made me happy to surprise her with it.

Oh that's so great
Getting to do something nice for those who matter the most to us is really rewarding