Spenser's Irish Pub

[shadow_dreamer]

Originally posted by Spenser41
Wow... I really don't know what to say.
You know... it is times like this that I wish I had the gift of healing.
I see the suffering of so many. My ex's mom is dying of cancer, and looks like she will be gone soon. My mom has emphozema (sorry about the spelling) I have a friend who has gone blind, and I have a friend who has a brain tumor. I hate to see you going thru this but know that I thinking and praying for you.

Once again thank you Spencer for your kindness. There is too much suffering in this world and it seems to happen to those who are close to our hearts. It may seem cruel but I think it is an awakening for others to realize how precious life is and the people in them.

I lost my father to cancer when I was 21 and was not able to spend the last year of his life with him due to faults of my own and living in California. It's not easy to see or hear others suffering and yes I too wish I had the power to heal but we are not gifted with that unfortunately.

If we live our lives with love in our hearts and without grudges and hatred then our lives will be truly better. We must take time to not only show our love for others but say so even though some people have a difficult time or refuse to say how they feel, to say those three little words. One never knows if you'll get another chance to say it to that one person who means so much to you.

Take care everyone. Time to really shut down the pc...the lights are flickering and the thunder is rolling again and it's chilly. Going to lay down in a warm bed (although alone for now).

Aloha,
shadow (in soggy, dreary, rainy Hawaii)

 

[Spenser41]

Once again thank you Spencer for your kindness. There is too much suffering in this world and it seems to happen to those who are close to our hearts. It may seem cruel but I think it is an awakening for others to realize how precious life is and the people in them.

I lost my father to cancer when I was 21 and was not able to spend the last year of his life with him due to faults of my own and living in California. It's not easy to see or hear others suffering and yes I too wish I had the power to heal but we are not gifted with that unfortunately.

If we live our lives with love in our hearts and without grudges and hatred then our lives will be truly better. We must take time to not only show our love for others but say so even though some people have a difficult time or refuse to say how they feel, to say those three little words. One never knows if you'll get another chance to say it to that one person who means so much to you.

Take care everyone. Time to really shut down the pc...the lights are flickering and the thunder is rolling again and it's chilly. Going to lay down in a warm bed (although alone for now).

Aloha,
shadow (in soggy, dreary, rainy Hawaii)

No Shadow, I don't have the gift of healing... but I do have the gift of love... and you have lots of it from me to you...

BIG TIME LOVE COMING FROM KY TO HI TO SHADOW!

 

[~Dream~]

Thank you Dream. I'm sorry to hear about the suffering you and your loved ones are going through and your loss. It's true, life is short and we have to enjoy ourselves the best we can amd within limits of course.

I just made 47 on Sunday and my bf took me out to dinner the night before to celebrate. It was a beautiful dinner and he was very caring and concerned about my being out and about and sitting throughout the dinner that I put up a good farce (?) and eased his concerns a little so he could enjoy dinner with me.

But after dinner we had to rush to the hospital because my nieces 3 year old son had a seizure (his first ever) while at the airport seeing his cousin off. His poor mom, my niece didn't know what to do. Luckily there were two nurses and an EMT in the area and they rushed to help the baby and got an ambulance for them as well as helping with the 3 other kids my niece was watching at that time. Anyway, after almost 5 hours the baby was sent home and has been doing good. But that night really took its toll on me and I'm still paying the price although here I am stubborn as a mule (or worse if there's anything worse than a mule, lol) sitting at the computer. But my limit has passed and time to say aloha.

Guess we're both lucky to have bf's who are so caring and loving. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Take care,
shadow

Good Morning Shadow and ((Spenser))


Sorry to hear about Your niece's son sweety ,I hope he is doing better...and I want you to know that I strongly believe in the power of prayer and i appreciate yours and will be sending lots up for you as well...I totally agree with you about showing the love ,there is so many things I wish I had said to my gram before she passed away last year and I just never took the time ,ya know?? she raised me after my parents divorced when I was only 6 ,as my mom took my 2 younger bros with her to raise...I wish now i could've somehow thanked her for all the love and caring she put into raising me,I truly feel i am the caring woman I am today because of her...may God keep her in a special part of heaven always ...

Lifeis just way to short not to appreciate what we have right now,I wanna show more love to my kids ,my friends here at Lit and offline and also to my bf ,Dracoa,who has been like a rock for me...ppl at the PT dept say they always like my cheerful attitude when i come to get my therapy ,I tell them my sense of humor helps alot and the fact that you can ALWAYS always find someone who has it alot worse off than you do ...there are ppl who cant even walk at all or see ,or maybe have only 1 limb ,etc so I try to count my blessings and 1 Of them is getting to meet you ..have a great day and God bless you

 

[tonitits]

Good morning!

(((((((((((Spenser)))))))))))))) ((((((((((((Shadow))))))))))))

 

[Spenser41]

Morning Ladies

(hehehe sounds like Charlie)

How are you all today? AC went out at the house and it has been hotter then hades here. I know I have sweated off a few pds. Luckly a cool front came thru last night and we went from being 95 in the day to 75. YEA!

Still have not heard offically from the job. They had to do drug and background check. Supposed to get a offer letter for the job but it has not yet arrived. Supposed to start work on the 16th and they said the letter should be to me two weeks before that.
So, kind of holding my breath here. If I do not get it by Monday, I will fire an email to the hiring dept.

Found out from my one of my daugters (the one that got married) that her grandma (ex's mom) is getting worst and not expected to last much longer. Seems the treatment was working for awhile but since the main tumor is on her brain stem, it is not shrinking any more but starting to grow back.

Nothing else to report. Just sitting here in cut offs with the fans blowing trying to stay cool until they come and fix this thing.
I know exciting visual huh? LOL

Speaking of visuals, I do not mind sharing my real picture with anyone that wants to see it. Just don't want to post it on Lit for ALL to see it. Who knows who lurks on here? LOL... if you all would like to get it just PM me with an email address and I will fire it off to you. And speaking of pictures, Dream, yours have gotten better. I am not sure what you have done differently but your hair is different and so is your body. But just wanted to say.. thanks for sharing those on your thread. I love to see the female form. God knew what he was doing when he made woman... what a sight to behold. No wonder Adam said when he saw Eve...... WOO MAN! (hehehe - just a cute little joke a remember) But think about it. All he has seen is animals.. and then here is this thing... like him but.. with better parts! I bet it was something like that! LOL I think women's bodies are lovely to look at. No matter the size or the shape and for Dream to do that, it takes guts. I thought about posting me but... LOL yea right... seen one cock you seen them all. (ok well not all... some are like REALLY BIG!) I have to look down and tell him.. that is ok buddy... we may not be as big but we know how to give pleasure right? (I think I see him smile form time to time. Well I know he gets all chocked up because a few tears are shed.)

Ok this is just getting silly... and I will blame it in on the heat...

LOL Later folks

 

[Woodmiester]

shadow .... sorry to hear the injections didn't for you. It did for me, for about 16 months which was fantastic but as I said it's been awhile so I deal with it daily. As for the slow pace, I can understand very well. Back in 90 I was vacationing on the kona coast of hawaii and developed a killer migraine and landed up at the hospital in hilo and they wanted to try all kinds of strange things but wouldn't give me the 100mg of demoral (sp) and 25mg of fenigrin (sp) I said would work, thought I was looking for a buzz, yet afterwards they gave me an Rx for talwin (sp) damn spelling, anyway seemed a little off but least the remainder of the trip was super. Hope you find some relief soon.

Spencer that cold front you got played hell in southern ohio yesterday but least it did cool down

Have a good one folks

 

[Spenser41]

HEY WOODY

Where are you? I am near Portsmouth OH. So Yea I know all about that storm! Sounds like you are a neighbor!

 

[Woodmiester]

I'm up near WPAFB but was visiting near there yesterday in the peebles area more or less

 

[Spenser41]

I'm up near WPAFB but was visiting near there yesterday in the peebles area more or less

My father was in the AF and was last stationed at WPAFB and leaves not to far from there as well.

Yes our family is from the Dayton area. Well Dad's side of the family that is.

So... next time when you are down this way, let me know and I will try to meet ya.

 

[Spenser41]

YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

I got my letter and I start working on the 16th!
Man so glad to have a full time job again.

 

[~Dream~]

Re: YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

I got my letter and I start working on the 16th!
Man so glad to have a full time job again.

Congrats on Your job sweety and thanks for all the awesome compliments ,I really havent done anything different with my hair or Body as a matter of fact I have gotten Bigger in all the WRONG places ...however I Do enjoy taking pics and esp with my man,it makes me feel sexy ,I am happy you enjoy them and I disagree with ya about the if ya seen 1 penis ,you have seen em all ,cause I have seen alot and I dont care what ANY woman says ,it's NOT the Quantity ,Its the QUALITY....altho its always Nice to have Both ...and its all about the pleasure ,,that's Right ..do take care and stay cool ( picturing you in front of your fan)

 

[Woodmiester]

Re: YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

I got my letter and I start working on the 16th!
Man so glad to have a full time job again.

Congrates and next time I get down I'll get word to ya, might even be this weekend or durring the week

 

[tonitits]

Spenser congratulations on the new job. Hope it works out for you.

Shadow keeping you in my thoughts and prayers and hope that soon you will be pain free.

Hope everyone has a great weekend.

 

[shadow_dreamer]

Originally posted by ~Dream~
Good Morning Shadow and ((Spenser))


Sorry to hear about Your niece's son sweety ,I hope he is doing better...and I want you to know that I strongly believe in the power of prayer and i appreciate yours and will be sending lots up for you as well...I totally agree with you about showing the love ,there is so many things I wish I had said to my gram before she passed away last year and I just never took the time ,ya know?? she raised me after my parents divorced when I was only 6 ,as my mom took my 2 younger bros with her to raise...I wish now i could've somehow thanked her for all the love and caring she put into raising me,I truly feel i am the caring woman I am today because of her...may God keep her in a special part of heaven always ...

Lifeis just way to short not to appreciate what we have right now,I wanna show more love to my kids ,my friends here at Lit and offline and also to my bf ,Dracoa,who has been like a rock for me...ppl at the PT dept say they always like my cheerful attitude when i come to get my therapy ,I tell them my sense of humor helps alot and the fact that you can ALWAYS always find someone who has it alot worse off than you do ...there are ppl who cant even walk at all or see ,or maybe have only 1 limb ,etc so I try to count my blessings and 1 Of them is getting to meet you ..have a great day and God bless you

Your gram's knows what's in your heart and is looking down at you and is always nearby whenever you need her. That's the way I began looking at life years after dealing with the loss of my father to cancer (who never smoked in his life but worked at the shipyards). Then many years later I learned that we may lose our loved ones physically but they will always be the memories and the lessons taught to us (although some of us takes a long time to learn through our mistakes, like me ).

I've been having a difficult time dealing with my situation and not knowing what the future is going to bring, if I'll be able to return to work or not. I know I will never be the same person before all of this began, and I'm definitely not getting any younger but I'll be damed if I'm going to give up.

I'm just taking one day at a time and trying to do my best without overdoing things (which is my problem). My doc discovered some other problems but it's understandable with my physical inability to move around much so I'm on more meds which my bf is giving me grief about. He can't stand seeing me take so many pills and knows how allergic I can be (its a trial and error when it comes to meds for me and how I react which makes it dangerous).

Without my bf and my family/friends/loved ones here I don't know where I'd be. I find peace here and find it easy to talk (vent) too. My bf knows I'm not one to talk much especially with things going on in my head and heart at times so he's glad I've found a place I can turn to knowing I'm not alone in this world. He tries his best but knows when I put up my "wall" there's no way of opening me up until I'm ready.

Ah enough soap box...sorry folks...the heat and humidity is torture. We're expecting another bout of rain from the remnants of another fizzled out storm (I calll it a depressed depression which the folks at the National Weather Service cracks up laughing when they hear me say that). Will be paroled from house arrest today; my sister's coming by to take me out for a bit and spend time with her before I go into the hospital next week friday.

Take care all!
shadow

 

[shadow_dreamer]

(((HUGS TO: Spencer, Toni, Dream & Woodmiester!!!!)))


(shadow's version of doing the hula for y'all)

 

[shadow_dreamer]

Originally posted by Woodmiester
shadow .... sorry to hear the injections didn't for you. It did for me, for about 16 months which was fantastic but as I said it's been awhile so I deal with it daily. As for the slow pace, I can understand very well. Back in 90 I was vacationing on the kona coast of hawaii and developed a killer migraine and landed up at the hospital in hilo and they wanted to try all kinds of strange things but wouldn't give me the 100mg of demoral (sp) and 25mg of fenigrin (sp) I said would work, thought I was looking for a buzz, yet afterwards they gave me an Rx for talwin (sp) damn spelling, anyway seemed a little off but least the remainder of the trip was super. Hope you find some relief soon.

Spencer that cold front you got played hell in southern ohio yesterday but least it did cool down

Have a good one folks

Thanks Wood...my relief will be happening next Friday (well at least I hope it will). Thanks for your support as well as everyone else here!

aloha,
shadow

 

[catsr2wild]

Re: YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

I got my letter and I start working on the 16th!
Man so glad to have a full time job again.

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((congrats hon))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))


SHadow, I will keep you in my thoughts as well, my hubby suffers from back problems and is in fact disabled from it...but you have my thoughts and prayers....

Hello everyone else...I have been around just mostly lurking though...

 

[shadow_dreamer]

Re: Re: YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

Originally posted by ~Dream~
Congrats on Your job sweety and thanks for all the awesome compliments ,I really havent done anything different with my hair or Body as a matter of fact I have gotten Bigger in all the WRONG places ...however I Do enjoy taking pics and esp with my man,it makes me feel sexy ,I am happy you enjoy them and I disagree with ya about the if ya seen 1 penis ,you have seen em all ,cause I have seen alot and I dont care what ANY woman says ,it's NOT the Quantity ,Its the QUALITY....altho its always Nice to have Both ...and its all about the pleasure ,,that's Right ..do take care and stay cool ( picturing you in front of your fan)

Hi Dream,

Seems I've got the same thing as you...I've gotten bigger in the wrong places too (as well as the right place as my bf shyly puts it at times hmmm maybe that's why my back hurts more, lol.

Gee wish I could share some pics I've taken but my bf doesn't want to share them. Awwww....

Yup I agree 1000%...it's not the size that matters it's how you use it and let your SO enjoy and have fun with it

Strange we humans are...there are some women who feel their boobs (to put it nicely, lol) aren't big enough and men who think their penis isn't big enough either.

It's a conspiracy for us to spend money, to go along with the Madison Avenue mentality! Grrrr....like my bf and I say "love me for who I am and not what I have...if you can't then it's a personal problem...yours!" Don't get me wrong, if you choose to enhance your body and it makes you feel good then go for it but that's not me. We've got 14 yr. old girls here getting boob jobs with their parents approval

Must be my meds making me vent so much today aside from this heat! Need an AC or find a cool store and have a shaved ice (snow cone as its known on the mainland).

aloha!

 

[shadow_dreamer]

Re: Re: YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

Originally posted by catsr2wild
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((congrats hon))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))


SHadow, I will keep you in my thoughts as well, my hubby suffers from back problems and is in fact disabled from it...but you have my thoughts and prayers....

Hello everyone else...I have been around just mostly lurking though...

((((((((Thanks cats!))))))))

Doc says I may have to think about retiring after surgery...hmmm

 

[catsr2wild]

Re: Re: Re: YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

Hi Dream,

Seems I've got the same thing as you...I've gotten bigger in the wrong places too (as well as the right place as my bf shyly puts it at times hmmm maybe that's why my back hurts more, lol.

Gee wish I could share some pics I've taken but my bf doesn't want to share them. Awwww....

Yup I agree 1000%...it's not the size that matters it's how you use it and let your SO enjoy and have fun with it

Strange we humans are...there are some women who feel their boobs (to put it nicely, lol) aren't big enough and men who think their penis isn't big enough either.

It's a conspiracy for us to spend money, to go along with the Madison Avenue mentality! Grrrr....like my bf and I say "love me for who I am and not what I have...if you can't then it's a personal problem...yours!" Don't get me wrong, if you choose to enhance your body and it makes you feel good then go for it but that's not me. We've got 14 yr. old girls here getting boob jobs with their parents approval

Must be my meds making me vent so much today aside from this heat! Need an AC or find a cool store and have a shaved ice (snow cone as its known on the mainland).

aloha!

Vent away...I agree it is silly for young gils to be doing such things when they haven't even finished developing yet....so sad

 

[catsr2wild]

Re: Re: Re: YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

((((((((Thanks cats!))))))))

Doc says I may have to think about retiring after surgery...hmmm

Retiring doesn't mean the end of the world Shadow...my hubby has a very active life and lots of interests and he has a wheelchair part of the time...don't get too discouraged....and yes I know easier said than done...

 

[Spenser41]

I have been thinkig....

there have been a lot of things going on with my life and as I have seen from this tread and from other threads, there are a lot of people that are going through difficult times. In the past few months I have 2 friends die, my ex's mom is dying of cancer, and the more I think about it, there are other people who are hurting on this board. I have decided to kill this thread and I am starting a new one. However I am not sure where to start it. It really is not about the playground nor is it about anything except the GB area. However there seems to be a lot of anti-GB vs PG people.
What I want this tread to be is a place for people to find encouragement and support and love and prayer. I know this is a sex site but you know... life is much more then sex. When reality hits you in the face, you really do not need someone telling you about sex or thinking about sex... you just want to know someone is there for you.
So, that is why I want to start this new thread. To be honest it seems I tend to end up encouraging or giving advice more then I do anything else on here. I was listening to this speaker this weekend and she said something and just kind of hit me in the face... she said, life is too short to just drift through life. Each one of us has been given a gift and what we should be doing is looking for a place for us to give that gift to others.
So I started thinking and the more I thought about it, the more I thought this is what I want to do. Now if you have suggestions as to where to place this, I will create it as I have a name already in mind and I will set it up. Then I want this thread to die and all of us to start posting on the new one.
I look forward to your thoughts and suggestions...

 

[tonitits]

I totally agree with you Spenser than when you are going through a rough time or life seems to just keep kicking you to the curb, the last thing that you want to hear about or talk about is sex. Not that having someone hold you and comfort you is not a good way to get your mind off it for a bit. I don't really know where would be a good spot. I hardly ever go over to the GB, simply because the few times I have wandered over there they have their little cliques, I guess we all do, but everyone in the PG seems to welcome others, and the threads move so fast you have to be online at the same time, etc.. Alot of them seem so rude and have a dislike for anyone who visits the playground. It also seems to be highly political and I don't care to get into all that. They do not seem to want these long lasting threads like we do.
I love and welcome somewhere that I can go to encourage someone and offer a shoulder, etc...it helps take my mind off what I am going through. But I also want to be able to feel free to post what I am going through and not worry that someone is going to make some snide remark or say why don't you just get over it and get a life. Yeah, I know I need to get a life. But actually I think, even with the struggles and heartaches, I have a pretty good life with my son. It may not be exciting like some. I may not be a party girl, but I am always here for my friends and my son and the rest of my family. I think it is a great idea so just let me know what you decide to do. You know I am backing you and supporting you.

((((((((((Spenser))))))))))

 

[Spenser41]

The New Thread

Well Toni voiced what I have been feeling and I really do feel this is what I am supposed to do.

So... Starting tonight I have created a new thread called "Sheltering Tree"
There is a reason for this name...
I came across a song done by the group - NewSong. They are the same group who did "Christmas Shoes."
Here are the lyrics that sum up what I want from this thread.

"It has been said a friend is like a mighty sheltering tree
A place of refude we can run when trouble come for you and me. Someone who we can count on through the thick and thin.
When the storms of life are blowing there is nothing like a friend."

The reason for this thread is that I want this place to be a place of refuge. For people to come to for words of encouragement, support and prayers. I want eveyone to feel welcome here and that this will be a place that you know when things are hard and difficult for you, you know you can come here for that support.
Some would say that this is dumb because this is just the internet. Yet I would disagree. I feel the sometimes people will turn to folks on line because they know there is safety there and that is what I hope this place will be for you. A place of safety, support, encouragement and a refuge in the storms of life. Just know that in this thread you will find some sheltering trees. And I want you to know that for everyone who comes here to share their heart ... that I will be praying for each and everyone of you each and everyday.
And if there is something that you do not feel completely open to post in the room, then PLEASE feel free to send me a pm and I will keep it between the two of us.
So feel free to post, to share and to encourage and to be a sheltering tree in someones life.

 

[~Dream~]

Re: The New Thread

Well Toni voiced what I have been feeling and I really do feel this is what I am supposed to do.

So... Starting tonight I have created a new thread called "Sheltering Tree"
There is a reason for this name...
I came across a song done by the group - NewSong. They are the same group who did "Christmas Shoes."
Here are the lyrics that sum up what I want from this thread.

"It has been said a friend is like a mighty sheltering tree
A place of refude we can run when trouble come for you and me. Someone who we can count on through the thick and thin.
When the storms of life are blowing there is nothing like a friend."

The reason for this thread is that I want this place to be a place of refuge. For people to come to for words of encouragement, support and prayers. I want eveyone to feel welcome here and that this will be a place that you know when things are hard and difficult for you, you know you can come here for that support.
Some would say that this is dumb because this is just the internet. Yet I would disagree. I feel the sometimes people will turn to folks on line because they know there is safety there and that is what I hope this place will be for you. A place of safety, support, encouragement and a refuge in the storms of life. Just know that in this thread you will find some sheltering trees. And I want you to know that for everyone who comes here to share their heart ... that I will be praying for each and everyone of you each and everyday.
And if there is something that you do not feel completely open to post in the room, then PLEASE feel free to send me a pm and I will keep it between the two of us.
So feel free to post, to share and to encourage and to be a sheltering tree in someones life.

and May GOD bless you for your kind heart and thoughts Spenser,we need more men like You in this world and that's for sure..I am awake at a very strange hour but perhaps I was meant to read this ...I'll be answering your pm soon hun