The Let's Help Each other Get Healthier Thread!!!
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Thank you all. 
gracie...the honesty is a huge part of it for me, and you are exactly right...binge, purge, lie, guilt....wash, rinse repeat...
mwy...Thanks for the article. i'll read it all the way through when i have more time.
gracie...the honesty is a huge part of it for me, and you are exactly right...binge, purge, lie, guilt....wash, rinse repeat...
mwy...Thanks for the article. i'll read it all the way through when i have more time.
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HottieMama said:Bump...and a short update...
Weigh-in was this morning...i'm down one more lb to 187. UGH...really NOT happy with that, however i think i need to stop focusing on the "goal" for the time being and really work on eating healthier/better/appropriately. i really need to get "honest" about some things and begin dealing with them correctly. i want to be thin...i want to be beautiful...sexy...etc...etc...but i can't do that at the expense of my own health.
Ugh.
Congratulations, nikki-girl, a pound is a pound...
You'll get to your goal exactly how you're doing it: one pound at a time.
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Other than my walks I've been BAD lately. I've felt bad and part of care taking ME is to take it easy on myself.
So I've done less exercise.
In addition, my sinuses are in a "YOU ARE VERY HUNGRY" mode right now.
However, last night for the first time in far too long, I did do my floor exercises. It's too late to really help me out at the beach this year but I feel good about it.
So I've done less exercise.
In addition, my sinuses are in a "YOU ARE VERY HUNGRY" mode right now.
However, last night for the first time in far too long, I did do my floor exercises. It's too late to really help me out at the beach this year but I feel good about it.
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i forced myself to go to the gym today even though i was sore from dance yesturday. now my shoulder is acting up again (i have chronic shoulder issues that act up from time to time) and my knee (old dance injury) just "popped". it didnt dislocate or pop out of the socket, just cracked painfully and now hurts to bend a bit. i dont know how to explain it better then that. i have it wrapped up in an ace bandage now for support and it should be fine in a few hours. thats usually what happens anyway.
and my body is f*cking sore all over.
i forced myself to go to the gym today even though i was sore from dance yesturday. now my shoulder is acting up again (i have chronic shoulder issues that act up from time to time) and my knee (old dance injury) just "popped". it didnt dislocate or pop out of the socket, just cracked painfully and now hurts to bend a bit. i dont know how to explain it better then that. i have it wrapped up in an ace bandage now for support and it should be fine in a few hours. thats usually what happens anyway.
and my body is f*cking sore all over.
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FurryFury said:
honestly, its my own damn fualt, i just needed to rant
i push myself too hard
oh, tommorrows class is going to be hell
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HottieMama said:Thank you all.
gracie...the honesty is a huge part of it for me, and you are exactly right...binge, purge, lie, guilt....wash, rinse repeat...
mwy...Thanks for the article. i'll read it all the way through when i have more time.
Of course I'm exactly right. I keep telling you people that I'm always right!
A know it all? Moi?
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I'm not eating so well today. It hurst like a son of a bitch to swallow. But I have drank two slimfasts, and ate some of the overcooked potatoe's K made for dinner. I think that's the only time in my life I was relieved to see overcooked potatoes.
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Keep trying....
Well, he cooked, you ate... both are good things regardless of the final result you both tried. Sorry it is so hard and hurts, but good for you that you for trying.
Thank you for the support of HM's post. It was a really difficult one for her to write.
LC
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Well, he cooked, you ate... both are good things regardless of the final result you both tried. Sorry it is so hard and hurts, but good for you that you for trying.
Thank you for the support of HM's post. It was a really difficult one for her to write.
LC
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Lamont Cranston said:
I know. I'm a pretty private person, myself. I can understand how difficult it is to share stuff like that with a group, and I really am glad she did. Shared it, that is. This is the get healthier thread, ya know? And admitting your problems is the first step toward getting healthy.
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graceanne said:
Amen -- and again, Thank You!
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OH I haven't been around here in awhile. HottieMama. I can totally relate. I find it to be especially difficult dieting while under so much stress. The compulsions and anxiety all come back, it's rough, it really is. Well, good luck to you!
HottieMama. I can totally relate. I find it to be especially difficult dieting while under so much stress. The compulsions and anxiety all come back, it's rough, it really is. Well, good luck to you! 
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I hate people who bitch about how terrible their lives are and then do absolutely nothing to change the terrible. But, if I'm being entirely honest with myself, that's what I've been doing for years and years and years, though the only person I've ever really complained to was Kitty. Can I ramble for a while please? I thought about making my own thread, but I didn't want to call that much attention to myself. I'm afraid this is going to sound enough like one of our infrequent visitors over here in the Pervs' Corner as it is.
I've alluded to my social anxiety on Lit several times. What I've never done is really talk about how deeply it runs.
When I was a freshman, back in early 2003, I wrecked my car. It was raining; I hydroplaned and landed in a ditch. My car, which I love passionately (don't worry, she was fixed, and I'm still driving around in this same car) wasn't drivable. It was pouring down rain, storming. I stood on the side of the road, talking to the police officer who filled out the accident report, and watched the wrecker take my car away. Then, I watched the officer drive away. I was abandoned to the mercies of bystanders on the side of the main drag through this town. A nice guy about my age had stopped right after I wrecked. As I stood there on the side of the road in the storm with no transportation of any sort, said nice guy asked me if I had anybody I could call, any friends or a boyfriend in town, while I waited for my mother to drive the hour and a half it'd take her to get from my hometown to where I go to school. I thought for a moment and shook my head no. It dawned on me then how alone I was--I was a second-semester freshman then, had been there since August 2002, and I didn't have a single, solitary friend in that town. It was sobering, to say the least.
I muddled my way through the rest of my freshman year. My roommate that year had been in a sorority, and I decided that summer that I was going to go through recruitment the following Fall. My old roommate had made a number of friends, and it looked like a lot of fun. When school started back, I put on my best clothes and went through recruitment. The first two days are open rounds; everybody goes to every sorority. The second two days are invitational. I was certainly out of my comfort zone, but I did the best I could to be friendly and likable, even though I was scared to death. I had my favorites picked, and I was pretty confident in my chances after the open days ended. It must have been a false sense of confidence, however, because I didn't receive the first invitation back for the third or fourth days of invitational rounds. I cried for days because I'd put myself through so much just to put myself out there in hopes that these girls would like me, and it had all been for naught.
It all worked out, though. The sorority I liked the most called me a few days after recruitment officially ended. Seems they had actually invited me to their events, but there had been some kind of mix-up with the Greek Life office, and they wanted me. Well, that was their story, anyway, and it made me feel better, true or not. I ended up pledging that sorority and eventually being initiated. Even so, in a situation where you should have built-in friends, I can count on one hand the number of people I can consider my friends. I just don't make friends easily because talking to people I don't know intimidates the living hell out of me.
I'm a second-year grad student now. I should graduate this summer. I have two people in the entire town I can really consider friends. (Kitty is one.) I've been here six years. It shouldn't still be this way, should it?
I have a hard time going to class because it scares me to death. I have a hard time getting anything done because the thought of having to interact with people I don't know beyond, "Hi, how are you?" terrifies me more than anything I can think of. I need a job, but even though I'm often the most qualified candidate for the jobs I interview for, I always interview so badly that I'm never called back. I know my fears are irrational, but they're crippling nonetheless.
So I finally decided that I'm tired of letting this rule my life. I know I need help. I've needed help for a long time, but the very thing I need help for is what prevents me from getting help. If you're afraid to talk to people, you're not about to spill your guts to a mental health professional.
But I'm sick of it. Kitty and I talked for a long time, and she called the mental health clinic in town for me. I have an appointment two weeks from Monday. The idea of opening up to a complete stranger about this terrifies me. I dread it already. But anything's better than the way I feel right now. I know if I don't do something, my whole life will be just like this forever. I don't think I can stand that.
In other health news, Kitty and I have joined Curves. We go five times a week, and I love it. We try to do some other activity three times a week (when our schedules will allow). I want to start law school next Fall. I do not want to be the fat, unfriendly girl nobody even remembers. I want to be the thin, outgoing girl everyone loves.
As far as other issues go, I've decided that I'm tired of fighting this fight with B. If we're meant to be together like I believe we are, we will be, no matter what. Right now, fixing everything that's wrong with "us" can't even be on my priority list. I have to fix me before I can even think about fixing us. I haven't even been able to tell him about all these developments in my life because he's always so busy. I can't tell if he's truly busy, or if he's just avoiding me. It doesn't matter, though. It either will be, or it won't be, and there's no sense in me driving myself crazy over it. I'll always love him, always be there to support him, but I'm done with chasing him. If he wants me and what we have, he knows how and where to find me. (And I strongly suspect that he is reading this thread.) If we do end up together for all time, this will do nothing but make "us" stronger because I'll be a submissive for him if I have all my own issues ironed out. If not, having something to concentrate on other than him will be a welcome distraction.
I'm sorry for the novel, everyone. I've just had a lot on my mind lately, and no one to really confide in. Thanks for listening.
I've alluded to my social anxiety on Lit several times. What I've never done is really talk about how deeply it runs.
When I was a freshman, back in early 2003, I wrecked my car. It was raining; I hydroplaned and landed in a ditch. My car, which I love passionately (don't worry, she was fixed, and I'm still driving around in this same car) wasn't drivable. It was pouring down rain, storming. I stood on the side of the road, talking to the police officer who filled out the accident report, and watched the wrecker take my car away. Then, I watched the officer drive away. I was abandoned to the mercies of bystanders on the side of the main drag through this town. A nice guy about my age had stopped right after I wrecked. As I stood there on the side of the road in the storm with no transportation of any sort, said nice guy asked me if I had anybody I could call, any friends or a boyfriend in town, while I waited for my mother to drive the hour and a half it'd take her to get from my hometown to where I go to school. I thought for a moment and shook my head no. It dawned on me then how alone I was--I was a second-semester freshman then, had been there since August 2002, and I didn't have a single, solitary friend in that town. It was sobering, to say the least.
I muddled my way through the rest of my freshman year. My roommate that year had been in a sorority, and I decided that summer that I was going to go through recruitment the following Fall. My old roommate had made a number of friends, and it looked like a lot of fun. When school started back, I put on my best clothes and went through recruitment. The first two days are open rounds; everybody goes to every sorority. The second two days are invitational. I was certainly out of my comfort zone, but I did the best I could to be friendly and likable, even though I was scared to death. I had my favorites picked, and I was pretty confident in my chances after the open days ended. It must have been a false sense of confidence, however, because I didn't receive the first invitation back for the third or fourth days of invitational rounds. I cried for days because I'd put myself through so much just to put myself out there in hopes that these girls would like me, and it had all been for naught.
It all worked out, though. The sorority I liked the most called me a few days after recruitment officially ended. Seems they had actually invited me to their events, but there had been some kind of mix-up with the Greek Life office, and they wanted me. Well, that was their story, anyway, and it made me feel better, true or not. I ended up pledging that sorority and eventually being initiated. Even so, in a situation where you should have built-in friends, I can count on one hand the number of people I can consider my friends. I just don't make friends easily because talking to people I don't know intimidates the living hell out of me.
I'm a second-year grad student now. I should graduate this summer. I have two people in the entire town I can really consider friends. (Kitty is one.) I've been here six years. It shouldn't still be this way, should it?
I have a hard time going to class because it scares me to death. I have a hard time getting anything done because the thought of having to interact with people I don't know beyond, "Hi, how are you?" terrifies me more than anything I can think of. I need a job, but even though I'm often the most qualified candidate for the jobs I interview for, I always interview so badly that I'm never called back. I know my fears are irrational, but they're crippling nonetheless.
So I finally decided that I'm tired of letting this rule my life. I know I need help. I've needed help for a long time, but the very thing I need help for is what prevents me from getting help. If you're afraid to talk to people, you're not about to spill your guts to a mental health professional.
But I'm sick of it. Kitty and I talked for a long time, and she called the mental health clinic in town for me. I have an appointment two weeks from Monday. The idea of opening up to a complete stranger about this terrifies me. I dread it already. But anything's better than the way I feel right now. I know if I don't do something, my whole life will be just like this forever. I don't think I can stand that.
In other health news, Kitty and I have joined Curves. We go five times a week, and I love it. We try to do some other activity three times a week (when our schedules will allow). I want to start law school next Fall. I do not want to be the fat, unfriendly girl nobody even remembers. I want to be the thin, outgoing girl everyone loves.
As far as other issues go, I've decided that I'm tired of fighting this fight with B. If we're meant to be together like I believe we are, we will be, no matter what. Right now, fixing everything that's wrong with "us" can't even be on my priority list. I have to fix me before I can even think about fixing us. I haven't even been able to tell him about all these developments in my life because he's always so busy. I can't tell if he's truly busy, or if he's just avoiding me. It doesn't matter, though. It either will be, or it won't be, and there's no sense in me driving myself crazy over it. I'll always love him, always be there to support him, but I'm done with chasing him. If he wants me and what we have, he knows how and where to find me. (And I strongly suspect that he is reading this thread.) If we do end up together for all time, this will do nothing but make "us" stronger because I'll be a submissive for him if I have all my own issues ironed out. If not, having something to concentrate on other than him will be a welcome distraction.
I'm sorry for the novel, everyone. I've just had a lot on my mind lately, and no one to really confide in. Thanks for listening.
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oh bunny, you have so much going on.
im glad that you are dealing with your anxiety, curves is a fun place, and you and B have been through a lot, consider this just one more bump. you can deal with and get past this. youve done it in the past. right now focus on taking care of you. the rest will follow.
im glad that you are dealing with your anxiety, curves is a fun place, and you and B have been through a lot, consider this just one more bump. you can deal with and get past this. youve done it in the past. right now focus on taking care of you. the rest will follow.
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(((((Bunny))))) And i hate cheesy cyber hugs too but you are too far away to give you a real one...
You can get through this and it will get better. i hope you get a good counselor that is gentle and effective with you.
Good for you for going to the gym and working out. If nothing else, exercise might help your frame of mind a bit.
As for your issues with B, i sincerely hope they all work out in a way that is healthy and peaceful for you. i hate to see you constantly on an emotional rollercoaster. (My perception...)
You can get through this and it will get better. i hope you get a good counselor that is gentle and effective with you.
Good for you for going to the gym and working out. If nothing else, exercise might help your frame of mind a bit.
As for your issues with B, i sincerely hope they all work out in a way that is healthy and peaceful for you. i hate to see you constantly on an emotional rollercoaster. (My perception...)
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just got back from my dance class. i had my knewe wrapped up in an ace bandage the whole time for support. my teacher said im doing well, but i feel like im struggling.
the hardest part was struggling in front of the others in the class. i went through a whole range of emotions from hating my body to feeling awkward and like everyone was watching me. i was nervous being in a dance studio would bring up some body image issues. im not sure how to deal with it though other then to force myself to go back to the class (which i enjoy overall) and nt hide under a rock somewhere.
the hardest part was struggling in front of the others in the class. i went through a whole range of emotions from hating my body to feeling awkward and like everyone was watching me. i was nervous being in a dance studio would bring up some body image issues. im not sure how to deal with it though other then to force myself to go back to the class (which i enjoy overall) and nt hide under a rock somewhere.
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BB. *hugs*
Out of curiousity sake, it just sounds to me like you're shy. Their's nothing in the world wrong with being shy. And their's nothing in the world wrong with only have a couple of close friends. Heck, I'm not shy and I only have a couple of close friends, and most of them I met online.
Out of curiousity sake, it just sounds to me like you're shy. Their's nothing in the world wrong with being shy. And their's nothing in the world wrong with only have a couple of close friends. Heck, I'm not shy and I only have a couple of close friends, and most of them I met online.
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BiBunny,
Anxiety can be really crippling, I know. Good for you for being so brave and facing your fears.
I've got a phobia of water, so I joined the crew team. Now I had a great time, but there were days where I hyperventilated. It was still worth all those times I wanted to crawl inside my skin.
Stay strong, and best wishes,
-R
Anxiety can be really crippling, I know. Good for you for being so brave and facing your fears.
I've got a phobia of water, so I joined the crew team. Now I had a great time, but there were days where I hyperventilated.
It was still worth all those times I wanted to crawl inside my skin.Stay strong, and best wishes,
-R
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ok, so i may have overdone it. im not gonna go to the gym today becuase i hurt so badly from forcing myself through activity after activity four days in a row that i cant climb stairs, let alone go running. i need a few days to recoup.
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How are you feeling
Hope the meds are working and your throat is feeling better.
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Hope the meds are working and your throat is feeling better.
