am i being slowly turned into a submissive or is it just my imagination maybe?

[SweetErika]

You said your relationship has been off and on for the past couple of years. Why is that?

I'm wondering if perceived instability or insecurity with the relationship in general could be a source of your conflicting feelings and hesitancy. And/Or maybe there are some unresolved issues that are impacting the way this has been playing out so far? For example, if you two have had problems with communication or trust in the past, that could be one explanation for the lack of communication on this, her actions, your conflict, etc.

 

[tollboothjack]

I think Im ready to admit the truth Ive been so scared of. Whoever made the comment about "social acceptability" and such partly hit the nail on the head. That was a factor at work, as was my own aprehensiveness, as I am new to the whole D/s relationship dynamic, so im uneasy in a way.

The truth Im ready to admit is this-
While in a way, I am insanely jealous of my gf's lover(s), I get off on it in a way I cannot express. I did speak with her, and now are at the understanding that yes indeed she knew that she was turning me on with this degree of humiliation and her having other lovers. The whole thing works well because I get off on it soooooooo much, and she is unwilling to stop sleeping with her boyfriends.

As for why we've been off and on for years, there was an element of jealousy on my part at times. She has always had a hearty sexual appetite, and simply loves sex and loves men. It used to burn me up, but now, not so much. I'm not trying to make myself believe its ok, because it is. My own jealousy is a turn on, knowing she needs other guys. It's different, but I like it.

 

[BiBunny]

I think Im ready to admit the truth Ive been so scared of. Whoever made the comment about "social acceptability" and such partly hit the nail on the head. That was a factor at work, as was my own aprehensiveness, as I am new to the whole D/s relationship dynamic, so im uneasy in a way.

The truth Im ready to admit is this-
While in a way, I am insanely jealous of my gf's lover(s), I get off on it in a way I cannot express. I did speak with her, and now are at the understanding that yes indeed she knew that she was turning me on with this degree of humiliation and her having other lovers. The whole thing works well because I get off on it soooooooo much, and she is unwilling to stop sleeping with her boyfriends.

As for why we've been off and on for years, there was an element of jealousy on my part at times. She has always had a hearty sexual appetite, and simply loves sex and loves men. It used to burn me up, but now, not so much. I'm not trying to make myself believe its ok, because it is. My own jealousy is a turn on, knowing she needs other guys. It's different, but I like it.

As long as you and she have an agreement and both of you are getting off on it, the hell with what anyone else thinks.