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Dear Thinking of Starting That Thread,
STOP!!
Dear X:
I am so over this passive aggressive bullshit you pull whenever someone disagrees with you. This "you don't love me", "I never do anything right", "I'll just get out of your life" routine has MORE than run it's course. We're family and I do love you, but I don't particularly LIKE you when pull this shit. You need to get over yourself and grow up.
Dear Bill,
No one knows why you did what you did.
I know you didn't do it maliciously because you didn't have a mean bone in your body.
I know how hard you fought to beat it.
I know how one mis-step can ruin your entire life.
I know no mother should EVER find her child like that.
I know 2 children who will never forgive you for making the choice to leave them--even if you had the best intentions.
I wish you had reached out to somebody.
I wish you had taken into consideration what this would do to every one left behind.
I wish you were still making beautiful art, and riding your bike around.
I hope you have finally found peace.
M
Dear Minxy,
Many Hugs.
M
Dear Minx,
Thinking about you.
Sweet Minxy,
Ah, shit.
So very hard to understand and get one's head around, being left with the broken pieces.
Hang in there kiddo, big hugs at ya.
E
Thank you all.I'm very sorry for your loss.
Dear K (stbxw),
I love you. I'm not in love with you, or even in a decent like with you at the moment, but I will always love you. I wish you could understand what love is about. I know the family dynamic you grew up in was seriously fucked up and you have issues with both your father and your mother. I know you were denied the childhood you deserved, and I know you received constant criticism that you didn't deserve. I know that the way your daughter treats you is abusive, and I have no idea how a parent can ever work through that sort of pain. I know that you've worked so hard all your adult life to overcome the serve depression you have to deal with daily. You are an amazingly intelligent and lovable woman. I know that somewhere inside you is the little girl that my little boy so dearly loves.
But I have to put up and protect my boundaries to protect myself. I let you deal with your mother and your daughter without interference as you requested. I bit my tongue so many times and shoved my feelings down to try to respect your decisions regarding your kid. But I can't do that anymore. I won't do that anymore. Nor will I let you criticize me the way your parents criticized you growing up. I told you several times that you had turned into your mother. It's like the stress of dealing with your kid's abusing you regressed you and you became the mother/wife that you had watched your mom be.
I deserve better! I deserve much better! You deserve much better! But the only person who can heal you is you. The only person who can help you find happiness is you. I wish you could see yourself through my eyes and my heart so that you might have a clue on how to love yourself.
A little more than a year ago you moved out of our house both to be nearer to your daughter and because (as you said) you couldn't live there anymore. I was ready to move with you and take a different job, but you refused and insisted I stay where I was. I helped you in pretty much every way you asked me to help, and while some of the time you would show your appreciation, increasingly you did not. Instead, you would lash out at me (you called it venting) for things I had no control over. When you asked for my help with something, I was wrong whether I did it exactly as you wanted or if I did it as I saw proper. After a couple of visits you told me I couldn't stay at your apartment when I came to visit. You told others that you thought we were headed for divorce. I guess you were right.
I am done with this. I am done being a paycheck and occasional sex toy for you. I am done listening to you agonize over your selfish bitch of a daughter. She's a grown woman now who has to live or die based on her own actions and no one else's! I called her a spoiled princess less than a year into our marriage and you get bent out of shape, yet earlier this year you admitted that both you and your mother now agree she's a spoiled rotten bitch (your words!) Cut her loose somehow! Move on with your life! You're living in the past of your childhood, your teen years, and your first marriage. You're still living with the first year and a half of our marriage where your kid got sick. You can't heal someone else not even your daughter!
I don't see us ever being able to live as husband and wife again. I've had since last July to mourn the loss of our marriage, and my loss of my friend, my lover and my wife. But when our anniversary came around this year it all came flooding back, at least the good stuff did. I miss the good stuff. I miss the woman I met and fell in love with. You say she's dead and gone, but I know in every fiber of my being that the inner little girl that my inner little boy loves so dearly is still there. I hope with all my heart she finds healing, health and happiness. I hope with all my heart that you find healing, health and happiness.
I love you, K. I always will.