Depression. Anxiety. Panic Attacks. etc

[bertrande]

Mia,

Hello there. Always a pleasure seeing you.

I'm not sure if it was the SJW or what, but almost as soon as I started taking it I started to feel even more down. However all the people here said give it time and it will start working, so I'm sticking with it. Going to give it a couple months before I decide one way or the other. So I'm still taking it day by day. Some better than others. Some like today are worst of all. Got even more bad news today that someone very very close to me needs emergency surgery tomorrow morning, so I'm absolutely worried sick about that. I'm sure it will all be okay, but hell you can't help but worry ya know?

Thanks for checking in with me. I hope all is well with you and all your family.

Tap

You and yours are in my thoughts honey

 

[Tap-Out]

You and yours are in my thoughts honey

Thank you so very very much for your well wishes. It means so much to me.

Everything went great today. The surgery went perfect with nothing unusual happening, and no complications. We're not sure if the problem is 100% fixed but we're all hopeful.

Thank you very much once again.

 

[bertrande]

Thank you so very very much for your well wishes. It means so much to me.

Everything went great today. The surgery went perfect with nothing unusual happening, and no complications. We're not sure if the problem is 100% fixed but we're all hopeful.

Thank you very much once again.

Am so glad to hear things went well. Keep me posted - pm me if you need to.

 

[MercyMia]

Mia,

Hello there. Always a pleasure seeing you.

I'm not sure if it was the SJW or what, but almost as soon as I started taking it I started to feel even more down. However all the people here said give it time and it will start working, so I'm sticking with it. Going to give it a couple months before I decide one way or the other. So I'm still taking it day by day. Some better than others. Some like today are worst of all. Got even more bad news today that someone very very close to me needs emergency surgery tomorrow morning, so I'm absolutely worried sick about that. I'm sure it will all be okay, but hell you can't help but worry ya know?

Thanks for checking in with me. I hope all is well with you and all your family.

Tap

Hi Tap-Out,

There are some things in life that we have no control over, like your friend's emergency surgery. You can just hope for the best and pray (if you're a praying man) and be there to give her/him support when they come out of surgery. If they're far away, maybe you can call after a couple of days, even if it's to say nothing much other than that you really care.

I can't remember the story exactly but you know the one about the old man who lost his wife and so he was depressed and all he did was sit around on his porch, rocking back and forth. One day the next door neighbor's kid went over and sat on his lap and just rocked with him. When the kid went home, his mom asked what he did that whole time and the kid said, "Nothing, I just helped him be sad." Sometimes that's how I feel about my depressed husband and other friends who have problems. I know I can't really help so I try to keep them company...

You take care, sweet guy.


Mia

 

[Tap-Out]

Am so glad to hear things went well. Keep me posted - pm me if you need to.

Thank you once again for your kindness and support. It truly does mean a lot to me.

 

[Tap-Out]

Hi Tap-Out,

There are some things in life that we have no control over, like your friend's emergency surgery. You can just hope for the best and pray (if you're a praying man) and be there to give her/him support when they come out of surgery. If they're far away, maybe you can call after a couple of days, even if it's to say nothing much other than that you really care.

I can't remember the story exactly but you know the one about the old man who lost his wife and so he was depressed and all he did was sit around on his porch, rocking back and forth. One day the next door neighbor's kid went over and sat on his lap and just rocked with him. When the kid went home, his mom asked what he did that whole time and the kid said, "Nothing, I just helped him be sad." Sometimes that's how I feel about my depressed husband and other friends who have problems. I know I can't really help so I try to keep them company...

You take care, sweet guy.


Mia

Mia,

Thank you for this. However it was a little more than my best friend, it was my step mum, whom I actuially call mum she's that close and special to me. And you can bet I was right there to meet her as she got out of surgery. I'm not a praying man, as I don't believe in God, however my mum and dad are so I got a few prayers sent their way from some close friends. I was so scared that I was calling in all favours and not wanting to take any chances.

Thank you for keeping me company. Now that that scary episode is all over with I can go back to fighting my own deamons. Your support and friendship I value very much. You have no idea how something simple like keeping a person company can help. Thank you for being there for me.

Tap

 

[velcroktty]

Late last year I was diagnosed to have a rather severe anxiety disorder mixed with a mild patterns of obsessive-compulsive behavior along with bipolar tendenancies.
Dr. prescribed Paxil, which at first did seem to help somewhat. The initial dosage was doubled over time and that's when things took a turn for the worse. I became suicidal, going so far as to have had the tree picked out I planned to crash my car into. Deciding that it wouldn't be right to total the car and not leave it to be something of value that could be sold if the etra cash was needed, I changed my plan to a quiet overdose and resorted to gathering up all the assorted prescription pills I was able to "steal" out of containers found in friends medicine cabinents.
I don't know exactly what made me realize something was wrong with my plans to kill myself, but thankfully I somehow knew the Paxil was not working right to make me go from bad to even worse. I quit taking the Paxil and I quit having thoughts of suicide.
I have been pretty much doing ok dealing with my issues on my own. I find it best if I don't listen to the news. I have found several people I know who share similiar mental conditions and we talk each other thru the rough times and are there for each other so when we have a problem, we can talk to someone who knows where we are coming from rather than trying to discuss things with a person who has no idea what is going on inside that "crazy" mind of our. Book learned, clinical therapists and mental health professionals mean well but unless they have had personal firsthand experience in actually having the disorders themselves and therefore having the insight to understand my view point, seeking help from them is speaking two completely diffrent foreign languages.
Just as an added FYI, Paxil I am sure probably does help a lot of people. However, you may have seen Brooke Shields talking about her problems with becomming suicidal while taking Paxil, I 2nd her thoughts there and I can also relate a case of my next door neighbor having problem on Paxil. She actually tried killing herself 10 times while taking it. She slit her wrists twice,, jumped out of a moving car, shot off her finger, threw herself down the stairs 3 times, tried to overdose on sleeping pills, locked herself in the garage, started up the car and locked herself in it, and tried to drown herself by swimming further out into the lake than she had the strength left to swim back to shore. She hasn't tried to harm herself once in the 6 months since she's quit taking the Paxil.
It's not easy living with a mental disorder nor is it easy to admit you have mental problems. It is comforting to know that, even if I am "crazy", at least I am not the only "nut" in the crowd.

 

[Ibsen]

Hi.

I bought a new jacket 2 day ago, wich I, at first, really wasnt sure if I liked it, but now, I really do. Thig is, that my brother also seems to, and my mum stopped him from trying it on whilst I was out taking a jog yesterday. I went totally paranoid and now I cant leave it when he´s home I know it is sick, but still, he has used my clothes before, so... (I have actually seen him wearing my pants while skating. Sure, many years ago, but still)

It is nothing compared to your problems, but I really think I have demens or something, or something.I mean, I cant relax when people are around me all the time, maybe one reason whhy I need to move. Oh, speaking of that! On wednsday this week I apparently have a booked meeting with some social brass or something. At 18:00 I shall be there. I look forward to it with excitement.

I think this apatic situation truly makes me mad.

 

[Shotokan07]

Hey all.

I've been thinking if anyone has a tune or a magic pill where I can fall asleep and escape reality for oh, a decade or two? School is so frustratiing with keeping up with work and having my raging hormores depressing me when I sight a girl.

How's everyone?

 

[Ibsen]

I am half half actually. I still want to speed up time for lets say 8 months or so, and the other stuff I wrote. But other then that, I am pretty good. Exceåt that I really dont want to be infected with some cold-virus, as my stupid classmate have as he is too stupid to go home and be sick. (He really wants to see a football game between norway-sweden today, so he is in school anyway... A**hole...)

 

[Ibsen]

Bump.

 

[Ladybird]

Tis a great thread Quoll... I thank you for starting it.

My story... diagnosed bipolar several years ago, managed to get on top of it and discard all anti-depressants, although I still take lithium as a safeguard.

Two weeks ago we found out my mother had cancer and only a couple of months to live. Today we found out my daughters unborn child is most likely Downs Syndrome.

Terrible news for my loved ones, and I'll give all that I have to help them thru.

But a prayer for me please. I'm so afraid of slipping back into the dark hole, and not being able to find my way out.

Loving them as I do, it's so hard to watch and not be able to do anything real for them.

So hard.

 

[Quoll]

Tis a great thread Quoll... I thank you for starting it.

My story... diagnosed bipolar several years ago, managed to get on top of it and discard all anti-depressants, although I still take lithium as a safeguard.

Two weeks ago we found out my mother had cancer and only a couple of months to live. Today we found out my daughters unborn child is most likely Downs Syndrome.

Terrible news for my loved ones, and I'll give all that I have to help them thru.

But a prayer for me please. I'm so afraid of slipping back into the dark hole, and not being able to find my way out.

Loving them as I do, it's so hard to watch and not be able to do anything real for them.

So hard.

LB
The love and care you give to all who cross your path is very real and does more than you can ever know.
The love and care you give your family is all anyone could ask.
You and your mother and daughter and her child will always be in our thoughts.
As I have learnt there are many hands here to help keep you from the darkness, please don't hesitate to lean on your friends here.

 

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[Quoll]

I have to go to a wedding today, so not looking forward to this, especially the fact that over half the people there will know me and I wont have a clue who most of them are. Time to paste on the smile and make like I am having a good time. At least I'll have the littlest quoll to use as an excuse for being distracted, unless of course he finds friends there .

 

[Ibsen]

I have a new project: To manage to get myself into Berkeley University and major in paleontology and minor in economy. I am not sure if it is possible, but I will *try* to get a schollarship that pay the entire thing for me, as I dont have the slightest chance to pay for the party myself.

 

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[Quoll]

quoll,

I'm curious as to how things turned out?

Well... the wedding itself was quite good, the bridal party arrived on Harleys, the theme was casual, and I was stunningly overdressed in black pants and white shirt.
Ok to cut a long story short, I bailed after 3 hours, I just couldn't cope with the thought of being there for more than 6 hours, fortunately it was only five minutes from home. Oh yeah and the littlest Quoll ditched me almost straight away.

 

[Ibsen]

Well... the wedding itself was quite good, the bridal party arrived on Harleys, the theme was casual, and I was stunningly overdressed in black pants and white shirt.
Ok to cut a long story short, I bailed after 3 hours, I just couldn't cope with the thought of being there for more than 6 hours, fortunately it was only five minutes from home. Oh yeah and the littlest Quoll ditched me almost straight away.

Atleast you showed up and stayed over half the time, thats always something to be happy for.

 

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[Ibsen]

Yesterday, I got this twiches in my right eye-lid. kinda spooky. It is twiching from time to tnmie today too. Is this a sign that I am over-tensed? My right shoulder is also really stiff.

I got a chemistry test in some minutes. Wish me luck!

 

[Quoll]

Yesterday, I got this twiches in my right eye-lid. kinda spooky. It is twiching from time to tnmie today too. Is this a sign that I am over-tensed? My right shoulder is also really stiff.

I got a chemistry test in some minutes. Wish me luck!

Hope you did ok in the chem test.
Not so sure about the twitching, I think that's something we all have at certain times, although I cant recall it happening at times when I am particularly stressed, and there have been plenty of them.
Your shoulder stiffness could well be a result of tension though. Neck, back and shoulder pain are fairly common when we are stressed, we automatically tense up, often without realising it until things start to hurt.
This is a good time to take a few slow deep breaths and try to relax your body when you exhale, it's not much but it can help, as well as making you aware of just how tense you were.

 

[Quoll]

Anyone who has had anything to do with depression will have heard the oft repeated saying about getting out and doing stuff. Anyone who has depression will know just how damned hard that is.
I have been out and doing stuff for a couple of weeks now, I wont say it has lifted my depression, but if being to tired to be stressed helps then it is working.
Now is when most of the helpful advice givers will say "See it works, you just need to get out there".
I was discussing this with my nephew who, although not saying that he has depression, has an uncanny understanding nonetheless.
So why were both of us out there doing stuff, absolutely buggered and actually feeling pretty good about it?
It was for someone else and out of our hands, it was something we just had to do, we were helping out our family.
That seemed to be something we had both done on other occassions, just gone and helped out when there was no choice, at least not in our minds.

That seems to be the big problem with the get out and do stuff theory, if either of us had had to do this for ourselves I don't think we could have, the drive or motivation or self worth or whatever it is, it's just not there when it's for you.
When a friend or family member is in need we seem to be able to do something and then we get the benefit of being out and about, weird and bloody annoying.
And so ends my thought for the day.

 

[MercyMia]

Hi quoll,

It's a good thing that you have family that needs you. Sounds like your doing a good turn for someone else benefitted you.

Not depressed myself but anxious today. It's tough when my husband is away on business trips. When he gets back, there's this readjustment period (can vary in length from half an hour up to a week) between us, tryiing to get used to being physically together again.

I'm trying the slow deep breath method of relaxation and am going for a half hour walk in a bit.

Cheers to everyone and hugs to people who need more than just cheers.
Mia

 

[Ibsen]

I havent got the result back on the chem test, but it felt like it went pretty well. I got a G minimum, probably a VG*.

The tensions are still there, and I am getting sick of it all again. This friday, I learned that my dad probably gonna rweport my mum to the police, when she "forced" my brother to come home with her. It is her weekend to have my brother, and my dad is in another town visiting her new gf:s son. And guess who is hearing the entire story from her? Yep, me.

This is really bad for my ability to start and maintain a relationship with a girl.


About girls, I thik I am in love.... Love

Sure, an old pic, but still. There is a few asian girls I know, all equally beutifull. The one I have closest to is a girl in school that reads ther nurse-program, and another that lives in a city some miles from me, who studies to be a priest.

Oh.... I get all warm and fuzzy when I think about it.

I dont really know why I am so fond of asian girls actually, but who cares, really, when it is an entire continent of them?