Oh So Vanilla

[likemags]

I have met a few new people in this town that I moved into 4 years ago. A few are worth considering as romantic potential. But I so want, no - make that need, BDSM in my life that I would rather live alone then go through all the education and discovery of a new partner only to see them go.

I gota have it - or have nothing at all aside from my camera and Lit.

i have to tell you that at some point of time in your life you would feel that you are all alone without any patner to trust... better find a person with a kind heart... god bless...

 

[SummerMorning]

Normally I read through a thread before responding, but this one hit too close to home.

I haven't had the pleasure of being in a 100%, full time D/s relationship, but I've come pretty close. I've had a handful of Doms, I can count them on one hand, all of which I feel like I've come closer to them than I have anyone else... and I never even had sex with them.

Right now I'm in a vanilla relationship. We tried the Dom/sub thing, but now he is claiming he "loves me too much to dominate me" when he knows in his heart that how to show his love for me IS to dominate me, not take something away that I hold so dearly. I miss it. I miss it terribly.

I have cravings all the time that I can't normally satisfy myself... okay, almost never myself. The only porn I download/buy is BDSM, the only fantasies I have are BDSM related, and the only thoughts I have sexually are even still rough and fierce. I love my baby to death, I really do, but it's so damn hard sometimes.

Yea, it is. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't.

I hope I stay friends with my new ex. :I