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The reason I believe I should travel more often is because I feel miserable here where I live, but when I was on my vacation, it was so relaxing and my mind wasn't set on the bad shit about this town. I have lots of bad memories of this town. Lots of rejection too.
Don't get me wrong, I'll more than likely be getting the same crap elsewhere, but at least I can start over. We were all talking on the vacation and my grandma says my brother and I have chips on our shoulders we need to get rid of. I think my chip is that I'm so miserable out here and tired of hearing about things that just end up making me jealous.
I want to be happy. Although, I've been told the whole "fuck everything" attitude will not always work. My plan to make myself happy is basically use that kind of attitude, but at the same time, not be an emotionless bastard. It's supposedly a good thing that I express my feelings, so... I guess I should always be that kind of great guy I am and also I can work on not letting things get to me so much.
I mean, as soon as we set foot on the Darke County (county where I live) ground, I realized I wasn't happy. I think if I could take up traveling, I can get away from the past much easily and just be more happy.
Don't get me wrong, I'll more than likely be getting the same crap elsewhere, but at least I can start over. We were all talking on the vacation and my grandma says my brother and I have chips on our shoulders we need to get rid of. I think my chip is that I'm so miserable out here and tired of hearing about things that just end up making me jealous.
I want to be happy. Although, I've been told the whole "fuck everything" attitude will not always work. My plan to make myself happy is basically use that kind of attitude, but at the same time, not be an emotionless bastard. It's supposedly a good thing that I express my feelings, so... I guess I should always be that kind of great guy I am and also I can work on not letting things get to me so much.
I mean, as soon as we set foot on the Darke County (county where I live) ground, I realized I wasn't happy. I think if I could take up traveling, I can get away from the past much easily and just be more happy.
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well do start to travel. what it really does is it makes you feel better because you do something for yourself, and you also learn to appreciate home once you see what life is like in other places. and it builts self confidence and all that. and it is just interesting. and it isn't as difficult as most people think. a lot of people tell me how they have no time/money/whatever - well i think it is courage more than anything. at least for those of us who are from rich western countries with quite strong currencies and with a passport that lets us easily enter most of the world, traveling really is easy.
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I'm a firm believer that the grass isn't always greener on the other side...there's a good chance it's not even grass in the first place. I moved around a lot as a kid, and sometimes I wonder what it would be like to have roots firmly planted someplace. You know...have the same friends you did when you were in kindergarden. But that wasn't meant to be my life, and I truly wouldn't change a thing about my childhood. Sometimes I think you just gotta be happy with what you got and stop asking 'what if?'
Anyway...I've been away for awhile...but I'm back now. I've missed you all
Anyway...I've been away for awhile...but I'm back now. I've missed you all
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hi!
well i don't mean that it is better elsewhere, but traveling ,and esp. doing so on your own is a great experience and helps you learning more about yourself. and as i said, makes you appreciate things back home at times, too...
ah well, i did live in the same place all my childhood, and still there were times i didn't have any friends at all.
well i don't mean that it is better elsewhere, but traveling ,and esp. doing so on your own is a great experience and helps you learning more about yourself. and as i said, makes you appreciate things back home at times, too...
ah well, i did live in the same place all my childhood, and still there were times i didn't have any friends at all.
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Yeah, I think traveling will help me a LOT in finding out about myself. Grandma says my brother and I have chips on our shoulders and we need to get rid of them. I believe my biggest chip is all the bad memories growing up where I currently live. Trying to make friends, trying to find relationships other than friendship, etc.
Understandably, things take time, but the question always remains for me is "How much time do I have?" I mean... my dad passed away at 41. If it is true that my brother and I genetically have the same condition he did, then it's possible I could go earlier. I'm not worried about it or anything because then I wouldn't be doing what I was hoping to be doing and that is changing my perspective on life.
I had something else I wanted to say here, but it completely eluded my mind... Hopefully it'll come back later.
Understandably, things take time, but the question always remains for me is "How much time do I have?" I mean... my dad passed away at 41. If it is true that my brother and I genetically have the same condition he did, then it's possible I could go earlier. I'm not worried about it or anything because then I wouldn't be doing what I was hoping to be doing and that is changing my perspective on life.
I had something else I wanted to say here, but it completely eluded my mind... Hopefully it'll come back later.
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Hmm... something came to me earlier before I got home. It doesn't have to do with last night's post. Anyhow, I saw a girl I knew from high school that I had been trying to hook up with for a while as I was walking out the door. We waved at each other. She was with a guy. Goes to show how much BULLSHIT girls are. She should still be in college from what I remember. She told me she didn't want a b/f, especially since she was going to college and that she wouldn't want a b/f while she was in college.
Anyhow, what came to me was that I think the REAL reason I want to have the attitude of "don't give a shit" is because I'm tired of the feelings, the pain, and the demons that continue to mess with me. I'm told it's a good thing I express my feelings and that I shouldn't stop doing that. I don't know what to do anymore. Except for what I WANT to do.
Anyhow, I'm just ranting and whining. I'll shut up now.
Anyhow, what came to me was that I think the REAL reason I want to have the attitude of "don't give a shit" is because I'm tired of the feelings, the pain, and the demons that continue to mess with me. I'm told it's a good thing I express my feelings and that I shouldn't stop doing that. I don't know what to do anymore. Except for what I WANT to do.
Anyhow, I'm just ranting and whining. I'll shut up now.
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Munachi said:
She was rather close to him... practically arm in arm. Oh wells... I don't care anymore. I'm tired of having feelings. They do nothing but cause me pain.
If having feelings is a good thing, then I don't know what to do.
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Hey guys! Been awhile since I posted. Been working hard with kids at my summer camp. I forgot how fun it is to be with kids. I also got some bad news that my grandmother died. I'm doing already Just keep my family in your prayers.
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Well... I been checking the forums for the past so and so days and nothing new has happened?
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My Own Way said:
I couldn't help, but get to my naughty side with this comment.
It's a shame I'll never know if the ass is always better on the other side. I need to get some ass first.
I missed you too, MyOwn.
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Hey guys. Work and death in the family has kept me away from my computer. It is also too damn hot to have a computer on in NYC. So I see nothing big has been happening.
for Muna so that she feels better.
for Muna so that she feels better.
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Shucks... he beat me to the roses. Hmm...
Well... can't hurt to give more.
and here's something else:
Well... can't hurt to give more.
and here's something else:
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Well I've been hiding out for awhile. Ok...not really. My life is just so totally boring these days that I have nothing exciting to say. I did meet a guy a few weeks ago. Turns out he was a real psycho though. We went on two very platonic dates and he seemed to think it was ok to call me several times a day and write me an email asking me if I ever had a three-some or had sex with a female. Actually freaked me out to be honest considering I wasn't at all sexually....or intellectually for that matter....attracted to this man....sigh....seriously....where have all the NORMAL men gone? Present company excluded...I know you're all normal.
Anyway...just been hanging around, working on my tan. I need to start working out again...but I think I'm gonna continue to be lazy for a few more weeks till school starts...then maybe I'll work out some sort of routine.
Hope all is wel with all of you.... 's
Anyway...just been hanging around, working on my tan. I need to start working out again...but I think I'm gonna continue to be lazy for a few more weeks till school starts...then maybe I'll work out some sort of routine.
Hope all is wel with all of you....
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Actually, no I haven't been feeling well lately. I've got a cold. Been this way for about 2 days now.
At least you met somebody and had a few dates, MyOwn. Every girl I meet and get to know a bit usually only find me likeable as a friend. True, it's a good thing to have friends, but that's all I will ever be to anybody.
What's even worse is, I'm a great guy, but apparently I'm not good enough to get the hook up. I've been told by a few people I shouldn't feel this way, but I do.
Sorry, I don't mean to be a downer. It's this damn cold that's making me lousy.
At least you met somebody and had a few dates, MyOwn. Every girl I meet and get to know a bit usually only find me likeable as a friend. True, it's a good thing to have friends, but that's all I will ever be to anybody.
What's even worse is, I'm a great guy, but apparently I'm not good enough to get the hook up. I've been told by a few people I shouldn't feel this way, but I do.
Sorry, I don't mean to be a downer. It's this damn cold that's making me lousy.
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Munachi said:
I guess you should be happy you've got feelings for somebody else and it doesn't look like they reject you. Sure, the long distance thing could be a bitch.
Anyhow, update for today, I feel a bit better than the last two days. I still have a slight cough and well... I guess it's bronchitis cause I remember it from before, but I still gotta clear my nose and throat the disgusting way.
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hi! glad you are better...
well there won't be a long distance thing. i did this for over three years - and then the distance was at first berlin - prague, and then berlin - new york... that was enough... berlin - peru would be too much of distance... this will last as long as i am here, i hope, but not longer...
well there won't be a long distance thing. i did this for over three years - and then the distance was at first berlin - prague, and then berlin - new york... that was enough... berlin - peru would be too much of distance... this will last as long as i am here, i hope, but not longer...
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This forum has definitely gone dead.
Anyhows, I've been w/out a car for like a week, maybe 2. I haven't kept track at the time, but anyways, I now finally have a new car!
I just picked up a 1995 Ford Thunderbird today. It's a sweet ride.
Maybe I'll get ladies now. I just hope they won't be seeing me because of the car though. I'd be pissed. I will try to have a picture up so everybody can see it.
Anyhows, I've been w/out a car for like a week, maybe 2. I haven't kept track at the time, but anyways, I now finally have a new car!
I just picked up a 1995 Ford Thunderbird today. It's a sweet ride.
Maybe I'll get ladies now. I just hope they won't be seeing me because of the car though. I'd be pissed. I will try to have a picture up so everybody can see it.
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Not dead persay...perhaps just on pause for the summer.
Anyway...trust me HC...you don't want a girl who's gonna like you only for the car...and if that's the sort of girl you were looking for you woulda bought a beemer. Keep looking, she's out there somewhere.
As for me, summer classes are over and I'm officially beyond bored. Beyond Beyond bored. I'm giving serious thought to taking up knitting or something just to help with the bordom...and if you knew me...you'd know I'm not exactly the knitting type. I tried it when I was younger...I ended up with some really funky looking scarfs.
Anyway...trust me HC...you don't want a girl who's gonna like you only for the car...and if that's the sort of girl you were looking for you woulda bought a beemer. Keep looking, she's out there somewhere.
As for me, summer classes are over and I'm officially beyond bored. Beyond Beyond bored. I'm giving serious thought to taking up knitting or something just to help with the bordom...and if you knew me...you'd know I'm not exactly the knitting type. I tried it when I was younger...I ended up with some really funky looking scarfs.
