What are your darkest fears?

[Soulfiregirl]

Re: Darkest fear

My darkest fear is to be strung along for months and months lie upon lie like a tower and then meet up to find out that the "Dom" is in all actuality a serial Killer or disturbed individual , and lose my life in what I thought was a carefully planned relationship..Oh...Wait.....I've faced up to that one already...Damn...Well it was still very very scary of course, It was hindsight, found out years later after he'd been caught. Smarts kept me from being a smooshed subbie in a barrel on a farm in Nebraska with a bludgeon hole from a hammer in my skull....

Never can be too careful.

I have that fear too since I'm new to this world. Glad he got caught though. Lot of scary people out there unfortunately.

 

[SexxyDevil69]

I'm a Sub and my biggest fear is being alone/unloved and it came from my childhood and seems to be something silly to be afriad of because i know that i have many that love me but for some odd reason i just cant get over that fear. any farther questions just ask

 

[norseprince]

Once my former Mistress/wife and her girlfriends where shaving my pubic area with a straight-edge razor, when She suddenly held my balls, looked me straight in the eyes, and told me very seriously that She was going to take them. She said they were her's anyway. She was probably playing with me, but feminization and forced bi were very new to me. Her gf's also looked so serious. Honestly, it felt so good that She owned them that much, but scared me terribly. i cried and begged. Finally She said that i could keep them attached for now. i had so many nightmares about that afterward.

 

[tealsphynx]

I'm still to new to decide where I stand on the D/s or switch bit...buut I do have a strange fear.
I'm afraid of eels....but not sharks. I like to skin dive and my favorite place is called Sharks Cove and is rumored to be infested with sharks. I used to also swim in Pearl Harbor (Coast Guard has chased me down a couple times for this). Where I used to swim was actually a protected shark breeding ground for hammerheads and black tips. I can swim in water filled with sharks and feel completely safe, but the moment I see an eels head sticking out of the rocks I'm off to a new part of the reef! Eels are territorial bastards with pointy shredding teeth! I'm also afraid of Baracudas again, the pointy shredding teeth thing, but they also attack reeeaaallllly fast at anything shiney, so I don't even wear a dive watch!
Black widows too. Spiders in general, but if you want to see me freak out alot over a little thing watch me run across a black widow. My answer is normally a can of Easy Off...Lye is wonderful stuff that eats up anything that it touches that has protien in it!
Lastly: Heights, hate 'em and love 'em at the same time, it's a bit of a thrill to stand completely scared stiff looking over a ledge!

 

[sphynx's dragon]

i've posted this once but it disappered so if it reappers sorry...

i've yet to discover a physical fear. i've been shot, stabbed, stepped on by a bull(twice), flipped cars, even had one catch on fire, and various other sundry life and limb threatening experiences, but none of them every really frightened me. NOT to say i don't have fear. i fear betrayal. the betrayal of my heart and my love. <shrug> i've never found anything that can cause my pain and damage than that.

 

[Marquis]

i've posted this once but it disappered so if it reappers sorry...

i've yet to discover a physical fear. i've been shot, stabbed, stepped on by a bull(twice), flipped cars, even had one catch on fire, and various other sundry life and limb threatening experiences, but none of them every really frightened me. NOT to say i don't have fear. i fear betrayal. the betrayal of my heart and my love. <shrug> i've never found anything that can cause my pain and damage than that.

I have a hard time imagining anyone not being afraid while being trampled on by a bull, but I admire your list of experiences nonetheless.

 

[sincerely_helene]

The new quote feature is begging for a dividing line to seperate it from the message portain. I thought you were going all soft on us for a second there, Marquis.

 

[Marquis]

The new quote feature is begging for a dividing line to seperate it from the message portain. I thought you were going all soft on us for a second there, Marquis.

I don't know what you're talking about, but don't worry I get hard again very quickly.

 

[sincerely_helene]

I don't know what you're talking about, but don't worry I get hard again very quickly.

Must just be the "skin" I've chosen. (And yes, im well aware of the double entrendre in that one, too.)

 

[Marquis]

Must just be the "skin" I've chosen. (And yes, im well aware of the double entrendre in that one, too.)

Just keep setting 'em up and I'll just keep knocking 'em down.

 

[sphynx's dragon]

believe it or not you don't really have time to scared when you're getting stepped on. it generally also hurts too much to be frightened. no room left in your mind for that..

 

[arctic-stranger]

believe it or not you don't really have time to scared when you're getting stepped on. it generally also hurts too much to be frightened. no room left in your mind for that..

You DO have time to be scared when a kid is pointing a machine gun at you....even if he is in a uniform, and you know it was just a money clip that set off all the alarms, but let me tell you, all your spanish goes down the drain, and when there are THREE of them, plan on dry cleaning your trousers afterwards.......

 

[Hil_the_thrill]

I'm a sub.

My eal fear is one of these times, I'm gonna have a hook up (my BF is quite open to letting me play around...as I am with him), or with a guy hes promised me to & having them take me, bundle me up & leave the country & I have no way to get away or contact people. I know my BF would be torn to shreds, as well as I would be.

Weird part is it excites me some to, the idea of it, being a persons personal slave for life. Being sold from person to person on the black market. But it also scares me far beyong the excitement level.

Anyways, yeah, thats pretty much the only fear I have.

Besides bugs or being shot.

 

[Kirabeth]

Bi, Switch


I have several fears I think that all stem from the same cause.

I fear the dark and sleep with the bathroom light on and a flashlight.

I don't know that I actually fear crowds but I tend to shy away from them. If we go out to eat and pull int he parking lot and the place is packed I leave and find a differnt less crowded place to eat.

I think my biggest fear is that something would happen to one of my children. I was molested as a child and so it tends to make me very over protected of them and it drives them nuts.

Heights, bugs, blood and rats are also things I fear. I don't have a fear of vomit but if I see it I in turn upchuck, but thats just me.

 

[Marquis]

I think my biggest fear is that something would happen to one of my children. I was molested as a child and so it tends to make me very over protected of them and it drives them nuts.

My mom was molested and was very overprotective of me. Be careful with this one, you don't want a Marquis as a teenager, trust me.

 

[incubus'_sub]

LOL Marquis. My guess is that the dark persona developed much earlier than your teen years. Puberty perhaps defined the direction & action, but the thoughts have always been there. You & Incubus_Dark are two of a kind. His parents are still in awe of him.

 

[Louis Brown]

Answering the question

DOM, very much so.

Fear? What is it truly? The inability to face ones self, the inability to face the world, who truly knows? But as I have traveled down th road of life and I meet maturity, I would have to say my greatest fear is not living long enough to find the true idenity of the being that lives inside of me. Each day a new part of the puzzle is found but not necessarily put into it's proper place. Fear...no not really...more of a longing...a trip were fear must be put aside.

 

[sunfox]

You & Incubus_Dark are two of a kind. His parents are still in awe of him.

Slightly offtopic, but I pity any children whose parents aren't in constant awe of them as people.

If the day ever comes when I'm not in utter amazement that this person came from imperfect me, it'll be after I'm dead.

 

[Kirabeth]

My mom was molested and was very overprotective of me. Be careful with this one, you don't want a Marquis as a teenager, trust me.

sorry that your mom went through this I know how hard it was for me to deal with it and my heart always goes out to others who have also been through it.

But I am sure you were not so bad as a teenager.

 

[Marquis]

DOM, very much so.

Fear? What is it truly? The inability to face ones self, the inability to face the world, who truly knows? But as I have traveled down th road of life and I meet maturity, I would have to say my greatest fear is not living long enough to find the true idenity of the being that lives inside of me. Each day a new part of the puzzle is found but not necessarily put into it's proper place. Fear...no not really...more of a longing...a trip were fear must be put aside.

Nice first post man.

 

[Marquis]

sorry that your mom went through this I know how hard it was for me to deal with it and my heart always goes out to others who have also been through it.

But I am sure you were not so bad as a teenager.

I wasn't a crackhead, but I wanted a lot more freedom than my mom was willing to offer me and we fought about it constantly.

 

[bridgeburner]

Did I mention Zombies?

Zombies go on the list.

Still, I love the scary films -- can't stay away-- and Night of the Living Dead is one of my top five. Of course at 35 years old I still occasionally wake up with the firey adrenaline rush of flight or fight from a nightmare absolutely convinced that Zombies are about to eat me.

There, that's my irrational fear, but it seems pretty damn real at 3am.


-B

 

[chagrin]

It took me years to discover why I never fitted vanilla relationships. It took three years to find, love and then lose the hope of a permanent future with my first Dominant.

Although I am grateful for the love I have known, my biggest fear is that I will spend the rest of my life alone because I refuse to settle.

 

[Louis Brown]

Fear?

Thanks Marquis, I shall endeavor to stay on par with the rest of you. That being said, let me offer a quote from the Aneid, written by Virgil.

The gates of hell are open night and day; Smooth the descent, and easy is the way:
But to return, and view the cheerful skies, In this the task a mighty labor lies.

 

[John Doe]

I am an interested outside observer you might say. Though I am interested in both dominating and submitting, giving and recieving pain, I am more interested in dominating and giving. So I guess you could say I sadistic Dom tendencies.

My darkest fear is that the universe and everyone and everything in it are merely figments of some bein'g dream and that when that entity wajes up, we will all cease to exist...

That, and needles, spiders and heights, in that order. All of which are irrational even in my opinion, except perhaps for heights. I honestly believe most people are too careless around heights.