🍆❤️‍🩹🍆 Dicknations for Sassy! Updates & Get Well Wang 🍆❤️‍🩹🍆

[SassySheDevil]

Heyyyy they look great on you! Pretty socks for a pretty girl, and with good vibes in every stitch too. I so hope that today is going well. That you are one of the lucky ones. That by this time next year, we can all look back and say, sheesh, what a crazy time this was.

Oh and, fuck you cancer!

It wasn't too bad of a day was a little long. Most of the chemo drugs I didn't really feel any side effects too. There was one that definitely gave me some stomach cramps and like having a harder time regulating my temperature. The steroid definitely made my blood sugar jump up and I will have to keep a very close eye on that. Luckily I will only have to take the steroid for 4 days total each treatment. They will give me the IV version on the day of treatment and then the next 3 days I will take pills. Hopefully if my side effects don't end up being too severe they will be able to lessen the amount. But my diabetic nurse calls me tomorrow to help me figure out the best way to keep it from going too high. But we definitely knew that having steroids in my system would make my numbers Jump Around quite a bit. I guess I will see how the next few days go. But luckily no reactions to the meds themselves. No allergic reactions.

 

[hotoldrguy]

It wasn't too bad of a day was a little long. Most of the chemo drugs I didn't really feel any side effects too. There was one that definitely gave me some stomach cramps and like having a harder time regulating my temperature. The steroid definitely made my blood sugar jump up and I will have to keep a very close eye on that. Luckily I will only have to take the steroid for 4 days total each treatment. They will give me the IV version on the day of treatment and then the next 3 days I will take pills. Hopefully if my side effects don't end up being too severe they will be able to lessen the amount. But my diabetic nurse calls me tomorrow to help me figure out the best way to keep it from going too high. But we definitely knew that having steroids in my system would make my numbers Jump Around quite a bit. I guess I will see how the next few days go. But luckily no reactions to the meds themselves. No allergic reactions.

Glad to hear there were no reactions.

 

[AWonkyDonkey]

It wasn't too bad of a day was a little long. Most of the chemo drugs I didn't really feel any side effects too. There was one that definitely gave me some stomach cramps and like having a harder time regulating my temperature. The steroid definitely made my blood sugar jump up and I will have to keep a very close eye on that. Luckily I will only have to take the steroid for 4 days total each treatment. They will give me the IV version on the day of treatment and then the next 3 days I will take pills. Hopefully if my side effects don't end up being too severe they will be able to lessen the amount. But my diabetic nurse calls me tomorrow to help me figure out the best way to keep it from going too high. But we definitely knew that having steroids in my system would make my numbers Jump Around quite a bit. I guess I will see how the next few days go. But luckily no reactions to the meds themselves. No allergic reactions.

Let's just hope the steroids don't make you grow a handlebar moustache and muscles that wouldn't look out of place at a Mr. Olympia contest.

Hopefully you're having a comfortable night and that your flat backside has successfully reinflated itself!

 

[lakesailer_mi]

It wasn't too bad of a day was a little long. Most of the chemo drugs I didn't really feel any side effects too. There was one that definitely gave me some stomach cramps and like having a harder time regulating my temperature. The steroid definitely made my blood sugar jump up and I will have to keep a very close eye on that. Luckily I will only have to take the steroid for 4 days total each treatment. They will give me the IV version on the day of treatment and then the next 3 days I will take pills. Hopefully if my side effects don't end up being too severe they will be able to lessen the amount. But my diabetic nurse calls me tomorrow to help me figure out the best way to keep it from going too high. But we definitely knew that having steroids in my system would make my numbers Jump Around quite a bit. I guess I will see how the next few days go. But luckily no reactions to the meds themselves. No allergic reactions.

This is hopeful! I'm so glad to read this. Low side effects is nice. No allergic reaction is awesome!
You'll figure out how to manage the blood sugar.

 

[AveryElle]

Thank you everyone. Well. I decided to try and prepare a little for the hair loss. I haven't had short hair since high school. I cried when I explained why I was cutting it, I cried as I watched it fall on the floor. I cried when the hair stylist said it was on her, and to make sure to come back when I was ready to shave it as she would do it for free. Then I cried some more when I got home. But this morning when I got up and did it myself. I felt better about it. Nothing will prepare me for being bald, but this is a baby step towards that.
I am nervous and scared for tomorrow, but I am packed. Might run down and get a couple more things to keep me occupied tomorrow. It'll be a little over 6 hours. My poor daughter plans to stay with me.

The hair part is very hard. People say things like, "it's just hair, it will grow back," but nothing is as clear to everyone that you're "sick" like the hair loss. For me, it was losing my eyelashes and eyebrows. I felt on display, and people minimized it. Everything will grow back. But Sassy - it sucks and caring about your hair, or your skin, or eyebrows, and crying for the loss of control over that is HEALTHY - you are mourning your identity. It is trauma.

I slept most of chemo because the drugs hit you so hard, but I remember being so proud of myself every time that I was there and I was doing this and I had so many reasons to stay alive - I am so proud of you for advocating for yourself and diving in. You are amazing and I am so, so sorry you're in this very shitty club. Cancer is horrible, but you have so much support here with you along the way.

 

[Deprived_in_AZ]

It wasn't too bad of a day was a little long. Most of the chemo drugs I didn't really feel any side effects too. There was one that definitely gave me some stomach cramps and like having a harder time regulating my temperature. The steroid definitely made my blood sugar jump up and I will have to keep a very close eye on that. Luckily I will only have to take the steroid for 4 days total each treatment. They will give me the IV version on the day of treatment and then the next 3 days I will take pills. Hopefully if my side effects don't end up being too severe they will be able to lessen the amount. But my diabetic nurse calls me tomorrow to help me figure out the best way to keep it from going too high. But we definitely knew that having steroids in my system would make my numbers Jump Around quite a bit. I guess I will see how the next few days go. But luckily no reactions to the meds themselves. No allergic reactions.

All in all I’d say that’s a good outcome for now. I hope you had a quiet night and are feeling well this morning.

 

[Deprived_in_AZ]

The hair part is very hard. People say things like, "it's just hair, it will grow back," but nothing is as clear to everyone that you're "sick" like the hair loss. For me, it was losing my eyelashes and eyebrows. I felt on display, and people minimized it. Everything will grow back. But Sassy - it sucks and caring about your hair, or your skin, or eyebrows, and crying for the loss of control over that is HEALTHY - you are mourning your identify. It is trauma.

I slept most of chemo because the drugs hit you so hard, but I remember being so proud of myself every time that I was there and I was doing this and I had so many reasons to stay alive - I am so proud of you for advocating for yourself and diving in. You are amazing and I am so, so sorry you're in this very shitty club. Cancer is horrible, but you have so much support here with you along the way.

I think the problem is that those of us who have not had to endure it ourselves often struggle for things to say. We want to support and show love, so we say things like “it’ll grow back” and “you’ll be fine”, in an effort to comfort… not realizing that they are wrong and maybe downright stupid. Thank you for sharing your own experience and feelings. I am so sorry that you have to deal with this horrible disease too.

 

[AngelicaS1780]

It wasn't too bad of a day was a little long. Most of the chemo drugs I didn't really feel any side effects too. There was one that definitely gave me some stomach cramps and like having a harder time regulating my temperature. The steroid definitely made my blood sugar jump up and I will have to keep a very close eye on that. Luckily I will only have to take the steroid for 4 days total each treatment. They will give me the IV version on the day of treatment and then the next 3 days I will take pills. Hopefully if my side effects don't end up being too severe they will be able to lessen the amount. But my diabetic nurse calls me tomorrow to help me figure out the best way to keep it from going too high. But we definitely knew that having steroids in my system would make my numbers Jump Around quite a bit. I guess I will see how the next few days go. But luckily no reactions to the meds themselves. No allergic reactions.

I'm glad that the first session went pretty smoothly. Thinking of you, beautiful.

 

[AveryElle]

I think the problem is that those of us who have not had to endure it ourselves often struggle for things to say. We want to support and show love, so we say things like “it’ll grow back” and “you’ll be fine”, in an effort to comfort… not realizing that they are wrong and maybe downright stupid. Thank you for sharing your own experience and feelings. I am so sorry that you have to deal with this horrible disease too.

absolutely - it is so hard to know what to say.
Simply saying, "I'm sorry you're likely going to lose your hair, that's must be so difficult" is enough.

I absolutely know that no one means to minimize the trauma. And I know that I certainly don't think anyone is stupid. I know before I was diagnosed, I would say things like that, or call someone a "warrior". Showing up to support your friend/loved one is the most important thing! I'm sorry if I came across thinking any support was stupid, but I also do hope to help others become better support systems if they're open to it.

 

[SassySheDevil]

Let's just hope the steroids don't make you grow a handlebar moustache and muscles that wouldn't look out of place at a Mr. Olympia contest.

Hopefully you're having a comfortable night and that your flat backside has successfully reinflated itself!

Hell. I'm tired of lugging around my big dick. I'm hoping for a smaller penis!!

This is hopeful! I'm so glad to read this. Low side effects is nice. No allergic reaction is awesome!
You'll figure out how to manage the blood sugar.

Considering it is only day 2. I know there is plenty to come. But yes. At least the no allergic reaction is a good thing.

The hair part is very hard. People say things like, "it's just hair, it will grow back," but nothing is as clear to everyone that you're "sick" like the hair loss. For me, it was losing my eyelashes and eyebrows. I felt on display, and people minimized it. Everything will grow back. But Sassy - it sucks and caring about your hair, or your skin, or eyebrows, and crying for the loss of control over that is HEALTHY - you are mourning your identity. It is trauma.

I slept most of chemo because the drugs hit you so hard, but I remember being so proud of myself every time that I was there and I was doing this and I had so many reasons to stay alive - I am so proud of you for advocating for yourself and diving in. You are amazing and I am so, so sorry you're in this very shitty club. Cancer is horrible, but you have so much support here with you along the way.

The hair. While it was emotionally wrecking to cut my hair. This is why I've had fun frying it with fun hair colors. I know it will grow back, but it doesn't make it any less painful. So. Depending on which kind of day you catch me on. Those comments could make me cry or make me agree. But I agree with Dee. Prior to having cancer of my own. I never knew the right words to stay and now I just tell most that all you have to say is "I don't know what to say, or the right words. But I'm here if you ever need to talk or vent. But I can also usually tell who sincerely means that vs those saying it because they don't know what to say.
The way I left it on Facebook the other day was simply "I need to unplug for a big. Please let me process everything hitting me at once, and let me grieve the old me"

My frustration often comes from having a hard time unplugging because of notifications. I literally have to go through and turn them all off because my phone also doubles as my diabetes reader. I cannot shut that off, so it does have to come with me everywhere.
Luckily my best friend from high school came over Sunday and we got a chance to both cry and vent to one another. It was such an amazing lift of stress.

 

[SassySheDevil]

As for day 2.
Woke up this morning nauseas at 6 and took some medicine. Took some more at 8 am. Found out those mess with my blood sugars a little also.
Diabetes nurse called at 10. We came up with some new numbers of insulin to try.
Anti crap myself meds at 11am.
Then repeat all 6 hours later. Besides this ^ one. That one is so glamorous, it has to be repeated until I don't feel like I'm going to crap myself.

Felt the cold sensitivity in my mouth (eating a popsicle) and then in my hands just running cold water on them. That hurts.

Mostly though. I've been able to stay on top of the yuck with keeping up with the meds.

 

[HeavyBalls]

Keep on fighting the good fight.

Got your back.

 

[SassySheDevil]

6 or so days into this and I just feel yuck. I've lost more weight which I expected. It's hard not to jump for joy when I see my scale putting me in the 120+ area now. I just dropped to 128#
My stomach is mostly the angry part. Pain has come back to my incision so that is hard. I will call on Monday to find out about managing that. I have so many meds on board now I had to get a book to keep track as the slight little bit of Chemo brain is already hitting. I will say with the weight loss my body gets sore easier. I'm boney and my hips do not enjoy me laying on my side. In the bathtub. My ass hates the bottom of the tub. I have to put down a washcloth.
Even being overweight. I loved having a big ass. Sadly. That is gone. But I officially weigh less now than I did when I got married.

 

[hotoldrguy]

6 or so days into this and I just feel yuck. I've lost more weight which I expected. It's hard not to jump for joy when I see my scale putting me in the 120+ area now. I just dropped to 128#
My stomach is mostly the angry part. Pain has come back to my incision so that is hard. I will call on Monday to find out about managing that. I have so many meds on board now I had to get a book to keep track as the slight little bit of Chemo brain is already hitting. I will say with the weight loss my body gets sore easier. I'm boney and my hips do not enjoy me laying on my side. In the bathtub. My ass hates the bottom of the tub. I have to put down a washcloth.
Even being overweight. I loved having a big ass. Sadly. That is gone. But I officially weigh less now than I did when I got married.

WOW! That is such a huge amount of weight to lose. I am sorry to hear you are having the pain.

 

[SassySheDevil]

WOW! That is such a huge amount of weight to lose. I am sorry to hear you are having the pain.

Thank you.

 

[ccs29745]

6 or so days into this and I just feel yuck. I've lost more weight which I expected. It's hard not to jump for joy when I see my scale putting me in the 120+ area now. I just dropped to 128#
My stomach is mostly the angry part. Pain has come back to my incision so that is hard. I will call on Monday to find out about managing that. I have so many meds on board now I had to get a book to keep track as the slight little bit of Chemo brain is already hitting. I will say with the weight loss my body gets sore easier. I'm boney and my hips do not enjoy me laying on my side. In the bathtub. My ass hates the bottom of the tub. I have to put down a washcloth.
Even being overweight. I loved having a big ass. Sadly. That is gone. But I officially weigh less now than I did when I got married.

Big ass, little ass, no ass, long hair, no hair, we still love you sassy, never forget that. I think it's safe to say we're here for you if you ever need anything or just want to vent.

 

[ToPleaseHim]

@SassySheDevil I’ve stayed out of the thread and haven’t wanted to be intrusive. I’ve just read through it now and wanted to reach out to say I admire your strength and your perseverance and your openness about your fight. I’m so happy you have a crowd here supporting you and sending love. Please know that I’m sending the same and my best wishes for all of the best for you.

 

[hotwords229_A]

Big ass, little ass, no ass, long hair, no hair, we still love you sassy, never forget that. I think it's safe to say we're here for you if you ever need anything or just want to vent.

I can’t say it any better than that!

 

[SassySheDevil]

Big ass, little ass, no ass, long hair, no hair, we still love you sassy, never forget that. I think it's safe to say we're here for you if you ever need anything or just want to vent.

I can’t say it any better than that!

Thank you, Gentlemen!! Very much appreciated!!

@SassySheDevil I’ve stayed out of the thread and haven’t wanted to be intrusive. I’ve just read through it now and wanted to reach out to say I admire your strength and your perseverance and your openness about your fight. I’m so happy you have a crowd here supporting you and sending love. Please know that I’m sending the same and my best wishes for all of the best for you.

Thank you TPH. I do appreciate that.

 

[AmberLGreen]

Hell. I'm tired of lugging around my big dick. I'm hoping for a smaller penis!!

Big or small, don’t feel shy about lugging it into my inbox

 

[Dribble]

Even when I am not posting...I am still here

 

[talikat]

Big ass, little ass, no ass, long hair, no hair, we still love you sassy, never forget that. I think it's safe to say we're here for you if you ever need anything or just want to vent.

^^^^ this!!

 

[Joxlrg]

Sassy I just watched an episode of naked and afraid where an ICU nurse from Seattle made it through the challenge
And I thought of you and the wonderful people that have your back!!!

 

[Endless_Night]

6 or so days into this and I just feel yuck. I've lost more weight which I expected. It's hard not to jump for joy when I see my scale putting me in the 120+ area now. I just dropped to 128#
My stomach is mostly the angry part. Pain has come back to my incision so that is hard. I will call on Monday to find out about managing that. I have so many meds on board now I had to get a book to keep track as the slight little bit of Chemo brain is already hitting. I will say with the weight loss my body gets sore easier. I'm boney and my hips do not enjoy me laying on my side. In the bathtub. My ass hates the bottom of the tub. I have to put down a washcloth.
Even being overweight. I loved having a big ass. Sadly. That is gone. But I officially weigh less now than I did when I got married.

If the weight loss is a win, Booyah.

As for the rest, enjoy your body no matter what. You've made it through surgery and the first part of chemo. Hang in there, Sassy.

 

[pantyboidoe]

^^^^ this!!

3rd-ed. You're amazing, Sassy! I cannot imagine everything you have been through but you're always in my thoughts and wishing all good things.