Depression. It's a silent killer.

[Wetkitty09]

My mind is a mess, it feels very hard to breathe

We’re here. Take a moment and only think about your breath. Feel the way your chest and belly expand and relax.
This helps me when my mind is not able to function properly.

 

[GoNorth2Camp]

It’s not a bad thing. It’s a milestone I didn’t think I would reach last year. And even though I still don’t know for sure whether I’ve beaten cancer, I’ve already won several battles along the way. The depression is an unpleasant side effect, this time caused more by Tamoxifen (anti-hormone therapy) than by anything else. On Monday I’ll start with antidepressants.

I wish you the best of luck, trying to stay strong is one of the hardest parts of dealing with cancer and its therapies. Antidepressants have their own challenges. They are one of those that you need to really think about and make sure you do a lot of follow through. I hope you heal well.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Have the best day you can.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wonderer67]

Btw.... I turned 50 today.....

Happy birthday to you!

 

[Wonderer67]

I haven’t been on this thread in a long time. But occasionally, I post some flowers to help cheer people up.

I hope this helps you whether times are good for you or whether you are struggling.

Stay strong and sharp.

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[MrPimms]

Btw.... I turned 50 today.....

Happy Birthday!

 

[Nightaelf]

My mind is a mess, it feels very hard to breathe

Sending you hugs and oxygen....

 

[Orwellian69]

Very up and down at the moment. Never quite level, which sucks.

 

[Wetkitty09]

The smoke in my area of WA state is thick and another fire has started this morning due to the storms. Not near me thankfully but definitely within 50 miles.
I hope the forecasted rains will knock the fires down and clear the air.
It’s hard to breathe and the atmosphere is depressing.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[write_or_wrong]

The smoke in my area of WA state is thick and another fire has started this morning due to the storms. Not near me thankfully but definitely within 50 miles.
I hope the forecasted rains will knock the fires down and clear the air.
It’s hard to breathe and the atmosphere is depressing.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

Wishing you and your beautiful state good luck.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Today I got a tattoo of a semi colon on my wrist. A permanent reminder that I choose to keep going.

Be safe out there
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

I hope today is the best it can be for you.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning. The days are cooling down and the river is getting too cold to swim in again. Fall is here. Time to get ready for winter. Where I live it’s a very important chore.
Have the best day you can.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wonderer67]

Today I got a tattoo of a semi colon on my wrist. A permanent reminder that I choose to keep going.

Be safe out there
Love you.

Love that, WK.

Keep on going… pushing forward.

(I have been thinking about doing something similar…)

 

[Nightaelf]

I stopped drinking when I began treatment for cancer. I’ve been sober for 415 days, and I come from a history of heavy alcoholism. Since I started on escitalopram, the antidepressant, my head feels strange and I’ve been hit with strong cravings for alcohol again. It makes me restless, and I find it really hard that the urge has come back this strongly. I’m trying to write it out and remind myself that I just need to push through, that this is part of the process right now. But at the moment it honestly feels like I’m climbing walls...

 

[LoveNotes4U]

I stopped drinking when I began treatment for cancer. I’ve been sober for 415 days, and I come from a history of heavy alcoholism. Since I started on escitalopram, the antidepressant, my head feels strange and I’ve been hit with strong cravings for alcohol again. It makes me restless, and I find it really hard that the urge has come back this strongly. I’m trying to write it out and remind myself that I just need to push through, that this is part of the process right now. But at the moment it honestly feels like I’m climbing walls...

Sobriety is everything! Please call your doctor and get something else. It's very normal to try a few different antidepressants before finding the one that works for you. ((Hugs))

 

[Nightaelf]

Sobriety is everything! Please call your doctor and get something else. It's very normal to try a few different antidepressants before finding the one that works for you. ((Hugs))

Thank you for your kind words. Unfortunately, I can’t take any other medication for now because of my cancer treatment. But I knew the first two weeks could be difficult. My brain just needs time to adjust. It simply helps to let people know every now and then when things aren’t going so well. But I made it through the night, and I don’t have any alcohol at home. Today I already feel a little better.

 

[LoveNotes4U]

Thank you for your kind words. Unfortunately, I can’t take any other medication for now because of my cancer treatment. But I knew the first two weeks could be difficult. My brain just needs time to adjust. It simply helps to let people know every now and then when things aren’t going so well. But I made it through the night, and I don’t have any alcohol at home. Today I already feel a little better.

I'm glad your provider informed you of the 'adjustment period', so many of them don't seem to.
My husband was sober; I know about getting through the today, this hour, the next minute. Feel free to pm me for encouragement or getting through the next minute, hour, day.

 

[Wetkitty09]

I’m so happy to see people stepping up and being supportive here. Thank you.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Nightaelf]

I'm glad your provider informed you of the 'adjustment period', so many of them don't seem to.
My husband was sober; I know about getting through the today, this hour, the next minute. Feel free to pm me for encouragement or getting through the next minute, hour, day. I'm new to the forum (I have an older account also--too identifiable for posting) and I'm often awake in overnight. GMT -5.

Thank you! I keep that in mind.

 

[Nightaelf]

I’m so happy to see people stepping up and being supportive here. Thank you.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

Yes, it warms my heart....

 

[Wonderer67]

I stopped drinking when I began treatment for cancer. I’ve been sober for 415 days, and I come from a history of heavy alcoholism. Since I started on escitalopram, the antidepressant, my head feels strange and I’ve been hit with strong cravings for alcohol again. It makes me restless, and I find it really hard that the urge has come back this strongly. I’m trying to write it out and remind myself that I just need to push through, that this is part of the process right now. But at the moment it honestly feels like I’m climbing walls...

Keep on going nightaelf.

I’m sorry your meds are messing w your sobriety. If you need help - let us know.

Keep at it.

 

[Nightaelf]

I'm glad your provider informed you of the 'adjustment period', so many of them don't seem to.
My husband was sober; I know about getting through the today, this hour, the next minute. Feel free to pm me for encouragement or getting through the next minute, hour, day. I'm new to the forum (I have an older account also--too identifiable for posting) and I'm often awake in overnight. GMT -5.

418 days sober
saved € 2687,41 ($2956)
Didn't drink 4778 drinks
Didn't drink 597 L (158 gallons)

 

[Glamguy7]

Depression!! The quiet epidemic that eats one slowly from within leaving no traces of its destruction. I sometimes feel that most people are not even aware that they are "Depressed". I went through it for 3-5 years, after the breakdown of a deep loving relationship I was in. Days and nights would whizz of like crazy, what felt like days, turned into months and years passed by! Self criticism and mistaken guilt can eat away the soul like termites do to wood. It was not until I turned 41, that sanity set in & realization dawned on me. By the Grace of God & Kudos to the genuine care and love I received from some very special souls I met here on LIT, I was raised from the deep pit of darkness to a place of self acceptance, self love and caring. I received warmth, the nurturing embrace of caring words and genuine emotions, and even the joys of sensual love without which the simple joys of life might have been lost. In that journey I also realized that "Loneliness" is the worst of it all. Without genuine human connections, humanity would be lost! The world we live in today might be seeped in all the comforts of life,& Technology to boot it all but the "humane spark" is what truly brings light to a thousand hearts. To all those who are silent bearers of the flame of genuine company & caring, I bow to thee. It is beautiful when the community comes together to support each other beyond boundaries and creed. May this post light a flame in the heart of anybody out there, who feels lonely or is passing through anguish. You are not alone!! You matter. You only have to reach out and express it out. Help comes from unknown sources. Kindness exists. Love exists. Hope exists. I have walked that path and know that there is light at the other side of the tunnel. I can give you company, even for a brief time, just don't bow out or yield yet!!!

 

[razor33a]

Doing some Swedish Death Cleaning. Sister clued me in, didn't know it was a thing.