Even More Random Thoughts

Dude, day shift crew at the local tit shack will do that thing muh fuckers like for a hundo.
 
A flower’s breath, it springs alive -
its petals spread and spent…
as open-legged it begs the hive,
submits with honeyed scent.

😬

Random enough?
 
We're over 2 weeks into the playoff and I still excited for every hockey game.
 
Over the last few days I've been thinking about confidence.

There are lots of times I wish I was more naturally self confident. I look at people who just exude total confidence and that seems very nice sometimes. Like it makes everything easy. I do notice that confident people often just believe their way of thinking and decisions are right because... of course they are! I thought it and I believe in myself and therefore I must be right! I'm jealous of how simple that must be to not second guess, over consider, or think about every possible reaction. I also see how confident people can just stampede through others' lives without really wondering about it.

I was talking with a friend here about how we often vent problems without checking in first on that person to make sure it's a good time for them to accept it. My natural reaction was to say "Bring it on! It's always a good time!" but on reflection, I'm not always in the place to be able to listen and be my best. As an example, I would love to support you through a career decision but I'm in the middle of a fight with my mom. No it's not a good time but thank you for asking!

I know these thoughts seems really disconnected but I think it's just acknowledging the impacts we have on other and approaching that with a little humility and less assumption. Confidence is great. I'm not bashing it at all but self-reflection is also great.

And this has been one truly random thought..... ::curtsies::
 
Over the last few days I've been thinking about confidence.

There are lots of times I wish I was more naturally self confident. I look at people who just exude total confidence and that seems very nice sometimes. Like it makes everything easy. I do notice that confident people often just believe their way of thinking and decisions are right because... of course they are! I thought it and I believe in myself and therefore I must be right! I'm jealous of how simple that must be to not second guess, over consider, or think about every possible reaction. I also see how confident people can just stampede through others' lives without really wondering about it.

I was talking with a friend here about how we often vent problems without checking in first on that person to make sure it's a good time for them to accept it. My natural reaction was to say "Bring it on! It's always a good time!" but on reflection, I'm not always in the place to be able to listen and be my best. As an example, I would love to support you through a career decision but I'm in the middle of a fight with my mom. No it's not a good time but thank you for asking!

I know these thoughts seems really disconnected but I think it's just acknowledging the impacts we have on other and approaching that with a little humility and less assumption. Confidence is great. I'm not bashing it at all but self-reflection is also great.

And this has been one truly random thought..... ::curtsies::
There are a lot of good thoughts here. I would simply say that you might be surprised how much self doubt, second guessing, imposter syndrome, and such run through these self confident people. I will offer that most people who know me "IRL" would lump me in that group. It's basically a requirement to even get started in my profession and in order to have the kind of success I've had over a 30 year (this week!) career, you have to keep it up.
But let me assure you, I - and many others - suffer from self doubt. Imposter syndrome. Overthinking.

I think you're right that people like me often stampede through others' lives. And I apologize. Please know that at times, we do indeed think about it (often afterword, with deep regret, which we share with no one except the whisky we drink...).

I've written and rewritten this post a bunch this morning. Probably 30 minutes or more. And yet, you might interpret the post as having a lot of confidence. Even here, even now, it's difficult for me to post about it. Although Lit is a place where I've tried to set that overconfidence stuff aside. Yet, I don't always.

I have paragraphs more I could write, but I think I've said enough? Too much?
 
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Dude its not that I am incapable of having a meaningful relationship its just you skanks will never fulfill my needs quite like that truck stop lot lizard did years ago.
 
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