Fuck It: Refux

[Justadesperatewifeandmom]

About eight months after joining Lit and two to three months after becoming friendly with people like Allia, Honey, Mustang Sally, and the other zaftig women of AmPics.

ok, yeah, that is a long time. I recall a bit of nervousness, but a picture was my 3rd post on lit, on my 3rd day here (it took me 3 days to give up and get out of my box). I think my nervousness may have been more stranger in a strange land type. Like is it appropriate, am I saying the wrong thing to strangers etc. I had forgotten I was an exhibitionist, but clearly not really if we are talking 3 posts compared to 8 months from someone who really wasn't an exhibitionist.

 

[Saltfountain]

Once upon a time, I looked up from my desk and saw a man who had my heart pounding. Not his looks - though the uniform looked good on him - but his demeanor. The new guy. Months of watching him enter the building, passing my desk, seeing him in the work area was intriguing. One day, I had to coordinate some upcoming plans and asked what he'd done over the weekend and he closed his office door, made sure I consented to hearing about it, and told me about a dungeon in the city.

After that, we talked regularly. Eventually, we started a dynamic. It was so natural to submit. I knew I was kinky, but the power exchange was everything I didn't know I needed. Throw in a leash and a collar like he did and *faints*.

Why does recounting that time have my heart pounding?

That's fucking awesome! And it's hot reading it too

 

[Justadesperatewifeandmom]

Zaftig?

chunky, curvy, full figured, plus sized....pick your adjective

 

[AngelicaS1780]

Zaftig?

From the article linked below...

"By most contemporary definitions, zaftig means voluptuous or sexily curvaceous à la Marilyn Monroe or the commanding office manager Joan Harris on Mad Men."

https://forum.literotica.com/threads/zaftig.1482338/ (AmPics thread)

https://momentmag.com/jewish-word-zaftig/ (If you're a word nerd like me, this is an interesting article.)

 

[Saltfountain]

ok, yeah, that is a long time. I recall a bit of nervousness, but a picture was my 3rd post on lit, on my 3rd day here (it took me 3 days to give up and get out of my box). I think my nervousness may have been more stranger in a strange land type. Like is it appropriate, am I saying the wrong thing to strangers etc. I had forgotten I was an exhibitionist, but clearly not really if we are talking 3 posts compared to 8 months from someone who really wasn't an exhibitionist.

You got your box out after 3 days? Good work

 

[Lindi37]

Once upon a time, I looked up from my desk and saw a man who had my heart pounding. Not his looks - though the uniform looked good on him - but his demeanor. The new guy. Months of watching him enter the building, passing my desk, seeing him in the work area was intriguing. One day, I had to coordinate some upcoming plans and asked what he'd done over the weekend and he closed his office door, made sure I consented to hearing about it, and told me about a dungeon in the city.

After that, we talked regularly. Eventually, we started a dynamic. It was so natural to submit. I knew I was kinky, but the power exchange was everything I didn't know I needed. Throw in a leash and a collar like he did and *faints*.

Why does recounting that time have my heart pounding?

Oh
My
God

 

[Saltfountain]

Once upon a time, I looked up from my desk and saw a man who had my heart pounding. Not his looks - though the uniform looked good on him - but his demeanor. The new guy. Months of watching him enter the building, passing my desk, seeing him in the work area was intriguing. One day, I had to coordinate some upcoming plans and asked what he'd done over the weekend and he closed his office door, made sure I consented to hearing about it, and told me about a dungeon in the city.

After that, we talked regularly. Eventually, we started a dynamic. It was so natural to submit. I knew I was kinky, but the power exchange was everything I didn't know I needed. Throw in a leash and a collar like he did and *faints*.

Why does recounting that time have my heart pounding?

So how did you feel as he was telling you? Was it a sploosh moment?

 

[Justadesperatewifeandmom]

You got your box out after 3 days? Good work

hahaha. only because I accepted there would always be things in my box. It is no longer full as there is no limit, but my box is never empty

 

[Saltfountain]

hahaha. only because I accepted there would always be things in my box. It is no longer full as there is no limit, but my box is never empty

Box is a euphemism

 

[Lindi37]

Is being someone's sub what you thought it would be? Has it changed your understanding of being a sub?

It is more gentle, less controlling, more loving, less demanding. He holds power that he knows he could use at any moment yet choses not to. That in itself is hot as fuck. Strangely it’s felt like I’ve been more me since meeting him than I’ve ever been.

 

[Saltfountain]

Strangely it’s felt like I’ve been more me since meeting him than I’ve ever been.

In what way?

 

[barefootgirl69]

So how did you feel as he was telling you? Was it a sploosh moment?

Intrigued? Like I needed to know about it. There's a place where people get together and do things?!. I'm interested! I knew what I wanted before I left his office. I wanted him to tie me up (something I loved already) and do whatever he wanted. Now, I know about limits and safe words, but right then I was only thinking about having him over and getting fuc... to know him better.

 

[AngelicaS1780]

My tummy is mine although I can share that privately. Its the part of my body I hate the most and no amount of clever poses and good lighting can hide it. I don't know if I could ever share it in public

I feel similarly about my belly. I am tempted to revive the old The Real Chubby Tummies of Lit thread, as I found it... empowering perhaps... to see women not hiding their tummies. I posted a few in there.

https://forum.literotica.com/threads/the-real-chubby-tummies-of-lit.1433250/

 

[Lindi37]

In what way?

Parts of who I am make more sense in a sub context. Turns out I’ve always been a brat but didnt have the knowledge or people in my life to give me the words.

 

[Saltfountain]

Parts of who I am make more sense in a sub context. Turns out I’ve always been a brat but didnt have the knowledge or people in my life to give me the words.

You must be the only person not to realise then...

 

[Lindi37]

You must be the only person not to realise then...

Now that I know, it makes sense
Fucking smart arse

 

[Saltfountain]

Now that I know, it makes sense

So have you found it liberating? When I was told I was autistic it was like a light being turned on and I was "so that's why I do that shit!"

I always thought it was just me failing to cope with life...

 

[Lindi37]

So have you found it liberating? When I was told I was autistic it was like a light being turned on and I was "so that's why I do that shit!"

I always thought it was just me failing to cope with life...

Yes! Same with the ADHD. It’s not defining but it explains why I am a certain way, and why I seem to get attracted to certain types of people. Like I’m drawn to them. It’s only happened a few times but sweet Jesus

 

[RosewoodTulip]

I feel similarly about my belly. I am tempted to revive the old The Real Chubby Tummies of Lit thread, as I found it... empowering perhaps... to see women not hiding their tummies. I posted a few in there.

https://forum.literotica.com/threads/the-real-chubby-tummies-of-lit.1433250/

Thank you so much for this

 

[Saltfountain]

Yes! Same with the ADHD. It’s not defining but it explains why I am a certain way, and why I seem to get attracted to certain types of people. Like I’m drawn to them. It’s only happened a few times but sweet Jesus

Thank you. I didn't mean to pry so much

 

[Lindi37]

Thank you. I didn't mean to pry so much

Meh, I’m curious too. I get it

 

[AngelicaS1780]

Thank you so much for this

I'm a bit embarrassed because I usually don't poof pics, but I deleted the last pic I posted there after just 30 minutes or so. Between the time I started posting pics and the time of that pic, I lost 60 lbs and got in better shape. The annoying thing is that I think my belly actually looks worse now than when I was heavier. I think Tan mentioned something like this happening with his recent weight loss.

ETA: Sorry... no need for frowns. It's just annoying, but I know that I'm healthier. You can see muscles trying to be there. They're just covered with some jiggly-ness.

 

[AngelicaS1780]

Intrigued? Like I needed to know about it. There's a place where people get together and do things?!. I'm interested! I knew what I wanted before I left his office. I wanted him to tie me up (something I loved already) and do whatever he wanted. Now, I know about limits and safe words, but right then I was only thinking about having him over and getting fuc... to know him better.

Speaking of that kind of place... I really want to go to one someday. I'm in a very big city, so I know they have them here, but I don't know anyone to go with. Definitely *not* the husband's thing. But still a big time Fuck It list item.

 

[MrsPassion]

So are there kinks people didn't think they'd enjoy which kinda snuck up on them by surprise?
For me it's definitely sadism. I never imagined how turned on I'd be by finding someone who wanted me to push them to their absolute limits.
By default I'm a caregiver. I still can't bodyshame, no matter how much she might want it

For me, Masochism was the one that surprised me. For a multitude of reasons, 1) I am actually pain adverse in day to day life and would have never thought pain in an erotic scenario would be something I enjoyed 2) the level of pain that I find enjoyable while I don’t personally think is on the more intense end of the spectrum, I have come to realize is measurably more than other masochists I know from conversations around our limits and sensations that we find enjoyable.

 

[Saltfountain]

For me, Masochism was the one that surprised me. For a multitude of reasons, 1) I am actually pain adverse in day to day life and would have never thought pain in an erotic scenario would be something I enjoyed 2) the level of pain that I find enjoyable while I don’t personally think is on the more intense end of the spectrum, I have come to realize is measurably more than other masochists I know from conversations around our limits and sensations that we find enjoyable.

Thank you!
How did you find you got off on pain in the first place?