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I don't know the details ...it happened on the road...I just kept thinking something had happened...I knew he wldn't do that to me....
Now I have lost my son and Charles too...very hard to go on....
his landlord found my email on a picture in his room and wrote to me..
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momma.. this is devastating news..
but a couple of bright spots for u to cling to...
He did not dump you and you were the woman in his life till the end..
he was silly not to leave a way for news to get to you as he should have known how much u'd worry.. but we men are not exactly the brightest bulbs in the box in the sentiment department...
And the second comforting thought is that even tho this is the last news you'd want to hear, you have closure and finality rather than live in a vaccuum..
You need to go on for your son and charles both are immortalized in your memories and they live on in that dimension in this world through your mind and heart...
and if any soul needs to reside, what better nest that the loving and caring heart that nests beneath your bosom...
I know the coming days will be very depressing and extremely sad and living alone is not going to help...
Can you stay with your daughter or some friend so that comonay can distract you while you broken heart heals..
I am stunned and shocked at this tragedy and have to stop here.. for I can't see the screen...
will be back.. hugggggggggggs
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That's the one thing I have to remember that I was his love till the end...I knew him so well I cldn't believe he would ever do that to me....
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Yes momma.. and he lived in the arms of an angel on earth..
I think, you spoiled him so much.. he will be telling the angles that his heaven was actually on earth.. and he'll simply hang around and hover around you..
So since he is most likely to flit around feeling frustrated that you can't feel or see him right next to you.. try not to upset him by crying your eyes out...
In fact, once you get some coffee down.. give him a earful for leaving you high and dry.. and when u curl up in bed.. make sure you leave some space for him to slip in.. for. from now.. he ain't going anywhere far from you..
We love you momma and this is a very sad day for the kitchen...
huggggs
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My favorite show was Ghost when her lover kept coming back to her and watching over her...I have always made room for him at nite and tucked him in beside me and prayed every nite to know what had happened but never did I expect this...and all this time I was upset because I didn't hear from him...but in my heart I was afraid something had happened to him....
Yes very sad day and will be for a long time I know
Yes very sad day and will be for a long time I know
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My favorite show was Ghost when her lover kept coming back to her and watching over her...I have always made room for him at nite and tucked him in beside me and prayed every nite to know what had happened but never did I expect this...and all this time I was upset because I didn't hear from him...but in my heart I was afraid something had happened to him....
Yes very sad day and will be for a long time I know
Sad that Patrick too died recently.. and is probably replaying his role among his fans..
I just sent a whole set of the North South collection thru Amazon to a online friend as a birthday present as she was his fan and wanted his movies.. added ONE LAST DANCE and GHOST to the set as well...
Yes, none of us will forget how much and what he meant to you and how happy you were when he came visiting...
Winter came to the kitchen too soon this year..
hugs and love
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I was a big fan of his too and loved his movies and his dancing...
Charles said that God thought we should be happy and we were if only for 6 yrs...he figured our time would be short together because I was older..little did we know.....he also said that he knew one day one of us would go and leave the other ...but why him ...he was the one true love of my life I will keep him close in my heart forever
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I was a big fan of his too and loved his movies and his dancing...
Charles said that God thought we should be happy and we were if only for 6 yrs...he figured our time would be short together because I was older..little did we know.....he also said that he knew one day one of us would go and leave the other ...but why him ...he was the one true love of my life I will keep him close in my heart forever
Some questions just have no answers momma..
They get dissolved in a flood of tears...
Maybe by keeping his visits far apart, fate was preparing you to pretend he is merely away at work...
So many of us cling to pretense and some can be on this earth and yet be as good as gone..
And some like charles can be gone and yet feel like they have never left..
gonna hold you for as long as you want bug to be here..
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Well fate has a cruel way of preparing me ....but I know our visits meant so much to both of us....and I know how he loved me...I just regret writing a few saracastic little emails when I didn't hear from him....I feel terrible now....
Thanks God for friends like you Bug...it's helped a lot trying to get over the shock....it just doesn't seem real......I was married for 49 years but loved my short time with him more than all the married years....so I hope I gave him something to always remember too and I know I did...God brought us together and now he has taken him away from me......but he will always be with me in my heart
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Well fate has a cruel way of preparing me ....but I know our visits meant so much to both of us....and I know how he loved me...I just regret writing a few saracastic little emails when I didn't hear from him....I feel terrible now....
Thanks God for friends like you Bug...it's helped a lot trying to get over the shock....it just doesn't seem real......I was married for 49 years but loved my short time with him more than all the married years....so I hope I gave him something to always remember too and I know I did...God brought us together and now he has taken him away from me......but he will always be with me in my heart
Bug lives a living death everyday.. bug drinks pain with tears unshed...
Bug is not equipped to share a happiness he does not have..
But Bug can sit and sense pain and I hurt for you momma.. I hate to see u hammered by fate when u r still coping with one loss..
But you had and still have his love.. for it was you who occupied his heart and life to the end...
he is a very fortunate man to be loved by our Rose
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Thanks Bug...that's the one thing I know ...he loved life with me in it...I have all the cards and things he sent me over the years...I know your life is certainly far from perfect....and I feel for you too....and yes I'm still getting over losing my son and now my love....sometimes you wonder how much you can take
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Thanks Bug...that's the one thing I know ...he loved life with me in it...I have all the cards and things he sent me over the years...I know your life is certainly far from perfect....and I feel for you too....and yes I'm still getting over losing my son and now my love....sometimes you wonder how much you can take
Momma, you are an incredibly strong woman.. which is what attracted Charles to you.. your strength shows in your love,, your resilience and in your enthusiasm to make people feel alive...
It is awful to see you reeling from cruel blows.. but you have a lot left in you..
And we love you too and you love us.. I;'m crying to think of how u r hurting ..
I just hope the pain does not take too long to evolve into a throb of pleasant memories pulsing in the heart that we know will bet for your Charles
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Yes that was one of the things he loved about me...my giving and sharing....and yes he was babied for sure each time he came to see me...
and we both had said our memories are what kept us going...so that is what I will live with now...
I'm going to try and get some sleep...thanks for being here for me...
and we both had said our memories are what kept us going...so that is what I will live with now...
I'm going to try and get some sleep...thanks for being here for me...
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Yes that was one of the things he loved about me...my giving and sharing....and yes he was babied for sure each time he came to see me...
and we both had said our memories are what kept us going...so that is what I will live with now...
I'm going to try and get some sleep...thanks for being here for me...
Sleep well momma... and know you will never be alone...
I am certain it will be more than a dream when you sense him caressing you while you sleep... so don't hog the bed .. Charles is a big boy and needs plenty of room... hugs ya momma... I'll try to be here .. net permitting.. hugsss.
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Oh my Bug every time I think I'm not going to cry anymore I do...those pics were lovely and meant so much to me...been a hard day...Some of my friends called and of course each time I cried more...
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Momma,,, it's ok to cry and not try to bottle up sorrow.. relieving sadness thru tears is part of the grieving process.. it allows you to cope and accept the finality of a loss and yet irrigates the meadows of memories where you heart and mind will graze in peace...
I feel better knowing you were not alone but found friends over the phone and in church to talk to.. At times likes this you do need people around and I was worried a lot about you...
BTW, would like short time in IM.. need to ask something.. when you have time, of course.. no rush...
Today is Monday and so I will probably go to the office to check on some stuff..
But will be back and hopefully be able to get in touch with you...
Am glad you like the tribute to Charles and your love for each other...
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Wasn't that wonderful...of course it made me cry too and I have it on my desktop
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I am so sorry to hear that. You are in my thoughts a prayers.
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Awwww thanks sweetie...just trying to cope with it right now
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Awwww momma.. that's a very cute av you have there...
Cipha.. am glad you liked it.. I had tears for momma while I made it...
Kayte.. hello stranger.. long time no see..
lol.. looks like you have started kitchen hopping the way we go pub crawling...
I guess your flanks are still ripe for spanks.. lol..
Keep dropping by,, The cooks of the kitchen do get a good conversation going..
Right now we are a bit glum with the cloud of gloom but as soon as momma gathers her skirts.. we'll get the kitchen steaming..
right momma, cipha?
Cipha.. am glad you liked it.. I had tears for momma while I made it...
Kayte.. hello stranger.. long time no see..
lol.. looks like you have started kitchen hopping the way we go pub crawling...
I guess your flanks are still ripe for spanks.. lol..
Keep dropping by,, The cooks of the kitchen do get a good conversation going..
Right now we are a bit glum with the cloud of gloom but as soon as momma gathers her skirts.. we'll get the kitchen steaming..
right momma, cipha?
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Someday when my heart starts to heal...right now it's too hard to be funny or anything else....
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