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My Transgender Awakening

*excerpt from a letter I wrote, it look like it would be appropriate here.:)

My therapist says that such a strategy is how many "girls" get into trouble, *by ignoring the necessary psychological changes they find themselves unprepared mentally. * Ideally we all evolve our ego, our self and it is intergrated and anchored, firmly within a frame work of reality that is to some degree real. *A transgendered mind is mismatched to the body from the beginning, *the ego evolved is created to deal with a body that does not match, *it is a fascade, a fabrication, *it is not real.....the innate self is buried in this...in this case a female mind....it is only after *this fabrication is given up that the innate self can step forward....the real person.... In this most fail, *it is why most therapists say that almost all fail in transition, *young transgendered have a greater than 51 percent mortality rate. * I can believe it is equally almost as high in the older transgendered given my own experiences. * *Regardless giving up old habitual ways of thought and behaviours is not an easy task, it means releasing your sense of self even if it is false...where are you without it? * What are your views? Who are you? My therapist says that people experiencing this become radically different from who they have been, *many times their tastes and thoughts really do become a totally different personality.
Lol *have you fallen asleep yet? * So my own experience is a great sense of relief to give up the male role, it is comfortable and feels right, * the pattern is usually one tries to be female....which is also no more real than the male fabrication......all *part of the old pattern, just an extension in a different way. *In this comes the obsession with feminization that most transgendered consume themselves with......it still does not allow the innate self to be...... * So it is all very passive really, *and ridiculously easy......(she says to herself.) * It is just being, *because the mind is female, *it will be female when allowed to be......now why is that hard? * Each moment is a fresh page to write on. *All thought is transitory and subject to change. Ephemeral we change and evolve as our perception of the world does....Reality is only in the moment.:rose:
 
Simply said, don't be who you are because you are "supposed" to be that, be who you are because you are "WANT" to be that.
 
Strangely enough I am feeling more drawn towards intimate interaction towards men lately, I have always thought myself a lesbian, some of the men I have met lately have warmed me, getting my heart thumping,
One in particular is a monitor of a transgender chat room, he and I were both scared that we would chase each other off....lol how sweet he was..!
My description is that he made me....mushy....and breathless. Strangely enough he is attracted to me.....how can this be? Okay tonight talking to two male friends and they both say yes! I am feminine and I have always been.....is it they can see me? the real me?:rose:
 
i have been dealing with ideas of being into men now to gianna. we will both just have to see where things go won't we?
 
Nimbikarana said:
I've been meaning to ask GI, what has happened about your voice?
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Hi Rana *hugs*:heart: I am starting to practice, I fall within a womens range in pitch, I just need to learn to project my voice without resonance...not easy....sort of like projecting your voice out of your head instead of the throat and chest.... I have heard t-girls who can do this quite successfully sounding like a natural female....now I need too....yup little boy still says I sound like Mickey Mouse, but is getting used to the idea that I will be talking in a higher pitch than I used too.... it is something that means practice, practice practice....when I am alone driving in the car I talk endlessly in an altered voice.....sigh.
 
Tymeless said:
i have been dealing with ideas of being into men now to gianna. we will both just have to see where things go won't we?
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You got me thinking the other day with your post, it is different, I think we are used to thinking in a different context, now that barriers are gone......where do we go? Really until recently I did not think of men in an intimate fashion, in the past I would not let myself, but some are so sweet and gentle to me.
 
Gi_Venus said:
You got me thinking the other day with your post, it is different, I think we are used to thinking in a different context, now that barriers are gone......where do we go? Really until recently I did not think of men in an intimate fashion, in the past I would not let myself, but some are so sweet and gentle to me.
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I really think it comes to my views on sex in general. I found heterosexual sex interesting before and I found Lesbian sex interesting before but not gay male sex. I think its simply that because of the sexual reasons I would never see male as someone I could be in a relationship with. Well now that i've accepted that I'm a woman the though of being with a male if it got intimate isn't icky anymore its natural.

Not that I have a problem with gay men its just not something I find appealing in any way.

Least thats my reasoning behind it all.
 
I get distressed when engaging in sexual activities because the equipment is wrong, and so are some of the urges that my -wrong- hormones give me.

in b4 see a shrink... i already do
 
I'm honestly getting a bit confused in that area. Some of them ARE actually pretty nice.

I do think I still strongly prefer girls though.
 
My real birth name is Herman . can you imagine anything more male than that? I was waiting for my oil change today in a room full of other women, when my car was ready the woman came in and stopped for a second....then called me by my last name. When we were out of the room she leans over and whispers to me.... "I saw your first name and thought that you would prefer me to use the other, did I do good?" I gave her a big warm smile. Yes you did. ....How sweet! She figured out I was transgendered and did not want to embarrass me in front of all those women. Okay next week I am going to start the name change process....finger prints...fill out paperwork and make an appointment to stand before the judge....in the not too distant future..Herman will no longer exist. :)
 
Gi_Venus said:
My real birth name is Herman . can you imagine anything more male than that? I was waiting for my oil change today in a room full of other women, when my car was ready the woman came in and stopped for a second....then called me by my last name. When we were out of the room she leans over and whispers to me.... "I saw your first name and thought that you would prefer me to use the other, did I do good?" I gave her a big warm smile. Yes you did. ....How sweet! She figured out I was transgendered and did not want to embarrass me in front of all those women. Okay next week I am going to start the name change process....finger prints...fill out paperwork and make an appointment to stand before the judge....in the not too distant future..Herman will no longer exist. :)
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You go girl!
 
Gi_Venus said:
My real birth name is Herman . can you imagine anything more male than that? I was waiting for my oil change today in a room full of other women, when my car was ready the woman came in and stopped for a second....then called me by my last name. When we were out of the room she leans over and whispers to me.... "I saw your first name and thought that you would prefer me to use the other, did I do good?" I gave her a big warm smile. Yes you did. ....How sweet! She figured out I was transgendered and did not want to embarrass me in front of all those women. Okay next week I am going to start the name change process....finger prints...fill out paperwork and make an appointment to stand before the judge....in the not too distant future..Herman will no longer exist. :)
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Isn't it nice to meet people who are openminded and can think like that? Must give you a bit of a feeling of hope. Not everyone's going to be an ass about it. :)

The sad thing is me, two years ago, would've been. I don't know. I kind of like myself better this way. I still consider myself a conservative (though this test I took about relationships ranked me as a liberal looking for a conservative to marry... how odd) but I accept that there's some sort of interesting reality to transgenderism or however you'd put it. It's facinating. I've never found one to talk to and consider it quite depressing, actually. I love knowing.

Since I've read through this entire thread, I feel it might be polite to offer a bit about myself. I'm female, born female, born girly-girly, and I've slowly come to hate being female. Transgender? Not really. I go through moments where I'd love to trade with you guys--I'll take the penis, you can have my vagina, anything to get rid of the PMS and whole mindset of being a woman... XP Sometimes, I'd rather be a guy. I'll take the facial hair. I'll live with the horny-every-five-seconds. Anything to get out of the SQUEEILOVESHOPPING I MUST SHAVE MY LEGS EVERY DAY IMUSTBEPRETTY I MUST WEAR MAKEUP AND GIRLY CLOTHES AAHAHHHHHHHHH (ohandyoucan'tplayvideogamesLEGASP!) stereotype of a woman. Oh well. I'll stick with being transstereotype, though. ^_^

I consider myself very female. I've got boobs, a vagina, PMS, and the mindset of a woman: which I consider to be the emotional attachment to those around me, the nurturing, the whole 'mommy' nature (even if I'm only 18). It's there. I'm very female. I just deny the stereotype of a woman. I own dresses, but those are the only female clothes I own (besides my underwear/bras). And every once in a while, I look at my wardrobe of men's clothes... and...

I feel SAD.

Not for me. I'm happy with me even if I hate me sometimes.

I feel sad because I can live this way and no one bats their eyes. I can like video games and cars and violent sports and dueling and wear clothes with no shape. I can even be hairy and wear no makeup and have greasy skin and run towards the book store and the video game store, ignoring the shoe store and the clothes store.

I can be exactly what I want to be. And no one goes and yells at me for being some sort of demonic creature shattering the bounds of reality and OMG I AM DAMNED FOR LIKING... boy things.

No one does that. No one cares. I feel a BIT weird when, clothes shopping, I usually angle towards the mens stuff (and this is only because I've worn out the rest of my clothes and absolutely need pants). But no one cares. No one gives a damn if I come to the counter carrying a pair of boxers and men's teeshirts.

So why do they care when someone with a male body comes up with panties and a skirt? What makes being a guy, wanting girly things, so horrible? Two thousand years ago we all wore robes anyway, dangnabit! I've yet to figure this one out... why does society freak out when a man wants to be 'pretty'? Why is my dad bothered that one of my brothers would rather play piano and draw pretty pictures than jump in a mud puddle? There's a girly stereotype of pink and frills and makeup (and admittedly I like pink... but... yeah...) but girls aren't shot down as some sort of freak of nature for (le gasp!) not immediately falling into that stereotype. Heck, a lot of guys find it hot that I'll scream at the football games and play shooter games with them...

...So what's wrong with a 'man' wanting to be more female? I'm allowed to be more male. I can be as rough and tough as I want and no one's going to bloody CARE.

Anyway. I read your entire thread. I support you guys. What you're going through is hard and really not something I'd want to go through myself. Emotionally distressing... I'm female enough to know what it's like to feel that way, hating yourself and every fragment of your body, wanting to wake up and be different, wanting to be able to love yourself (and needing it, too, to love someone else...)

Hey. You have the right to be what you want to be. And if you ever need another gal to hug because you're depressed and want to talk, I'm always happy to listen and talk. And give out e-hugs. :) You guys have certainly had your ups and downs, by this thread. And here, have some support. It might just be one person, but you're a person too. All of you guys... gals, heh.

(hugs)

Sorry for the ranting post. This is just one thing that weights down on me. Every time I see a guy who crossdresses or a woman in a man's body or whatever shot down so much, as if they're some alien scum... you shouldn't be.

Even by those so-called religious people. Because guess what... I am one. And I don't think they/we have the right to shoot you down so much. It makes me sad. To see people mistreating other people like that. (I guess that's one of my girly traits, come to bear. Heh.)

(Which brings to mind a question--you don't have to answer, of course... but why do I never see transgender tomboys? You're always girly-girls. Is this making up for lost time? Do all transgenders take an extreme? Or do you finally settle somewhere in the middle? Being stuck in a stereotype has to be awful. Heaven knows I've been there. But I'm happy where I am now...)

Sorry if any of this seemed offensive. I love all of you guys. :heart: It's great to see people so open about what they're going through. Definately food for thought. :heart:

And (hugs) Nimbikarana. I have to lose weight too. Just for my health. We can do it. :)
 
Noira said:
So why do they care when someone with a male body comes up with panties and a skirt? What makes being a guy, wanting girly things, so horrible? Two thousand years ago we all wore robes anyway, dangnabit! I've yet to figure this one out... why does society freak out when a man wants to be 'pretty'? Why is my dad bothered that one of my brothers would rather play piano and draw pretty pictures than jump in a mud puddle? There's a girly stereotype of pink and frills and makeup (and admittedly I like pink... but... yeah...) but girls aren't shot down as some sort of freak of nature for (le gasp!) not immediately falling into that stereotype. Heck, a lot of guys find it hot that I'll scream at the football games and play shooter games with them...

...So what's wrong with a 'man' wanting to be more female? I'm allowed to be more male. I can be as rough and tough as I want and no one's going to bloody CARE.
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To your average male tomboy= possible hotness whereas girlyboy= omg that's so gay.
 
Noira,

Yeah, I know how you feel. *grins* I play video games (WoW addict along with a few other things) and watch baseball, yelling at my team to do better. I'm not 'butch' but I'm not 'femme' either.

Stereotypes happen in either gender, either path of life (lesbian/straight). I hate stereotypes actually. They set up a lot for bigotry and stupidity.

You see a lot of it in Transgendered too. People stop and think negative things because they don't know about it and follow the stereotypes. It wasn't until I met Gia and Tiffany that I started to learn more about it. It's really helped to rip off the blinders.

I was a supporter for TG but was more quiet until I learned about it. *grins* Now Gia can't get me out of cheerleader mode! LOL
 
Well, the thing is, that transgendered people almost always have to worry about "being read", so they often try to push as far into feminine territory in an attempt to minimize that happening.

"Being Read" is a term for someone seeing through the illusion. (Seeing you as a man in a frock, as some people put it.)

There might be a few "hidden females" in the male group, who would still act like guys, but it is kinda rare, cause usually if they want to "act like guys" they just do it.

There's also another interesting fact, that transsexual girls often "look better" than natural girls. The reason being that "we" often put a LOT more effort into looking feminine than many natural girls do, hence, we end up being more attractive. We also have far more to compensate for on average.
 
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