What do you fear?

[Netzach]

The little jumping spiders can lay eggs in your vagina and you'll wake up one night covered with them. I saw it on the crocodile hunter.

I call BS. Because I had a jumping spider in my stove. That fucker wasn't little!

I like spiders so I forced my husband to relocate it into the trees rather than killing it. I still have photos of it, but I'll spare the spider haters.

 

[INSIDEYOURMIND]

Sir ended up with big black and blue areas on His stomach last time which took weeks to fade. He's been on warfarin ever since. We have no idea why it still clotted as He's been taking 8mg (a fairly high dose) religiously. [/COLOR]

bandit, I hope all turns out well, I take 15 mg of warfarin daily, and have for the last 5 years, my body has a high resistance to the drug. diet is a big factor when taking this med, green leafy vegetables, (spinach, etc.) affect it's potency.

I should add that I fear Lovenox, it is hard to express the pain from the shot itself, and then the bruising that affects my ability to sit, stand, or just lie down.

All that and staying cheery as yourstupidness leads us to believe will make it all go away.

 

[Netzach]

Lovenox is a bitch. I'll never forget looking back at the nurse as she handed me the needle and saying "get the --- outta here."

It cracked her up. Thus was born the need for M to come home from work in time to do shot 2, and I learned that I can stick a syringe in anyone but me.

I remember it being bee sting like, but every single person I've spoken too had a much harder time with the pain than I did. I must be ennervated really weird or something.

Bandit- I also had to be dosed much higher on the warfarin than anyone expected, even after cutting out spinach and greens, I think I was on 9mg. So it could be a dosing issue, even so. I hope things go better for you and he feels a bit better soon, regardless.

 

[graceanne]

I got shots of something in my stomach to keep me from getting blood clots in my legs last time I was in the hospital. I don't recall what it was, or it hurting that bad - I mean it hurt, and BRUISED, but not really bad. But I was getting both dilauded and morphine for pain - so it probably hurt like an SOB, and I didn't notice. lol

 

[blueyz22]

1. I fear that I may be too old to get pregnant (also have PCOS which may prevent me from getting pregnant).

2. If I do end up pregnant, I fear something will be wrong with the baby.

 

[Bandit58]

bandit, I hope all turns out well, I take 15 mg of warfarin daily, and have for the last 5 years, my body has a high resistance to the drug. diet is a big factor when taking this med, green leafy vegetables, (spinach, etc.) affect it's potency.

I should add that I fear Lovenox, it is hard to express the pain from the shot itself, and then the bruising that affects my ability to sit, stand, or just lie down.

All that and staying cheery as yourstupidness leads us to believe will make it all go away.

Pfft cheery HA! Broken sleep (I woke up several times with my heart pounding), worry and frustration with the medical profession (sometimes I want to tear my hair out and say why aren't you getting on with fixing this instead of sitting on your collective asses ). The nurses are fantastic though they are so overworked.

I am on my way to the hospital shortly will probably be back this evening sometime....thank you all for your support

 

[CurlyKat]

1. I fear that I may be too old to get pregnant (also have PCOS which may prevent me from getting pregnant).

2. If I do end up pregnant, I fear something will be wrong with the baby.

That's EXACTLY the reason for my fear of having/not having children. I know I've still got time left, but the unknowing part of PCOS really messes with my mind sometimes.

 

[Homburg]

I fear being helpless when the people I love are in need.

 

[MasterPhoenix]

My fears are something that are very real for me, and are great obsticles. They are a heavy weight that has fucked with me my entire life.

Fear of failure is a huge one. I have a massive complex about not being good enough.

I also have abandonment issues... too many times I have been cast aside like yesterday's stock reports...

 

[_kiana_]

Fear of failure is a huge one. I have a massive complex about not being good enough.

I have that, big time.

Starting my first full time job soon. Customer service combined with mild social anxiety and other issues = scary as hell. I don't know if I can do it.

I recently just got back together with a play partner for the first time in about 3 months. I was so afraid I wouldn't be good enough (even though I've never really done anything that wasn't to his liking) I was barely able to force myself to even be with him again.

Those fears have kept me from doing a lot in the last five years.

 

[chauderlos]

I was about to answer, like many others have, that I fear something bad happening to my loved ones, when I read this:

Fear of failure is a huge one. I have a massive complex about not being good enough.

(apologies, MP, for the truncated quote)

I have it too. Maybe not to the level of a complex, but still. The fear of not being able to react correctly when something happens.

Have you seen "Hostage", starring Bruce Willis? Do you remember the scene whan he was hancuffed in his car and saw his wife and kid held hostage? That's what I fear, too. Being helpless.

 

[INSIDEYOURMIND]

Large spiders. The small ones don't bother me unless they can jump, then I scream.

The little jumping spiders can lay eggs in your vagina and you'll wake up one night covered with them. I saw it on the crocodile hunter.

As the photos show, my little girl isn't afraid of spiders, especially the big ones! yes, that is really her painted from head to toe, with a few of our Tarantula pets.

I wonder if the Croc Hunter was afraid of Stingrays?

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[SweetLissa]

my biggest fear is waking up one day and being alone... everyone having left because i was not enough to hold then there with me

 

[doveofserenity]

i personally do not fear death for myself, having gone there 3 times and by the grace of the Lord; He sent me back. The last time i passed was 4 days after losing my father. And i met my father in the "crossing" and the Vision behind my father told dad to tell me; that it was not yet my time, and that He was sending me back; for my kids.

And before anyone asks, yes this did really happen; and for those that believe, the Vision is Him.

Only three things i fear, in order are:

1. What happens to my kids when i do pass, as they both have autism and adhd. How they will handle the passing, and will they be able to go on with their lives without me to help lead them.

2. Never again finding that one special Man to give all of me to, that i can be there with Him; thru the good times and the bad; thru pain and pleasure, love and remorse.

3. Snakes, after being bitten by one; they are a true fear for me.

 

[LilyBart]

I worry about lots of things...too many things, I'm sure, but most having to do with my children and loved ones. Fear is another story, though. The only thing that can make me truly white-knuckled is driving over bridges, especially curving bridges, and most especially when someone else is doing the driving. Although my fear is only a teeny little bit mitigated by my having control of the car. Let me walk over the bridge and I'll meet you on the other side.


Hyperventilating as I type...

 

[paulthewetcd]

We haven't heard from you in a while. Are you okay?

 

[LittleJade]

abandonment... and yet I push and push and push and push, trying to make people leave.. hoping they won't, but knowing they will...

 

[FurryFury]

abandonment... and yet I push and push and push and push, trying to make people leave.. hoping they won't, but knowing they will...

That's a pattern for self fullfiling prophecy. You have to break that pattern.

*HUG*

 

[LittleJade]

That's a pattern for self fullfiling prophecy. You have to break that pattern.

*HUG*

I know.

I only recently became aware of it.

 

[FurryFury]

I know.

I only recently became aware of it.

I understand. Habits are simple but very difficult to break. I have faith in you.
You can do it.

 

[Tebazile]

I'm afraid that a childhood abuser will move back here, and I'll find myself powerless again.

I'm afraid that I'll never be able to conceive... that it'll just be one failed attempt after another until I'm an old lady.

I'm afraid that I'll never pluck up the courage to seriously talk to my Dad before he goes, like Mom did.

 

[phantom_goddess]

i'd have to say that one of my greatest fears is to be alone., completely and utterly alone. to be abandoned by the ones close to me.
also i'm afraid becoming like my mother. she's disabled, and in pain all the time, she's dying and it scares me that i'll lose her. many of the things she has i have, and so i'm already turning out like her and it scares me to death that i'll die sooner than the rest of my family. i'm afraid of never getting out of my depression, and trying to commit suicide again. i don't know if these are rational fears, but those are some of the things i'm afraid of.

 

[EmpressFi]

I fear that they will leave. I fear the day my 17 year old cat dies. I no longer fear being infertile, that's just a fact of life. I fear gaining back all the weight I've lost. I fear the house wont sell before the move. I fear having to file bankruptcy again when the house doesnt sell before the move. I fear losing my job before I move. I fear losing my job after we move. I fear letting my boss down. I fear other people not liking me. I fear this time, the depression wont go away.

 

[TeachMeSir]

I must be in one of my "deep moods"........

I have had people close to me die. My first love died before he even reached 21 after a long battle with cancerours brain tumors. My brother died of leukemia. He left a wife and 3 children before they had grown. My primary school best freind died of cancer when she was 16.

While I fear not seeing my child grow up & death, particularly a slow inevitable one this is not my greatest fear.

My deepest darkest fear is that if I should get sick, or have an accident, that I will let this become my defining character, that I will not live life to it's fullest. I fear that I would not be strong enogh to resign myself to the inevitable and fight futiley, instead of grabing what is left of life & shaking all the joy, closeness, understaning & memories from the time remaining.

I want to live life with no regrets. This does not mean no mistakes, but I can learn from mistakes and know that next time perhaps my decision making process will be different. I want to cram life full of experiences. Not chasing the rainbow, not searching for some elusive meaning of life, but appreciating every moment & memory. Travel the world, expereice different people, but not be so over reaching that I do not appreciate the quite times, the pople that make a small difference in my life every day.

Life is for living, not fearing.

 

[phantom_goddess]

i really liked your post, its touching in an odd way.

I must be in one of my "deep moods"........

I have had people close to me die. My first love died before he even reached 21 after a long battle with cancerours brain tumors. My brother died of leukemia. He left a wife and 3 children before they had grown. My primary school best freind died of cancer when she was 16.

While I fear not seeing my child grow up & death, particularly a slow inevitable one this is not my greatest fear.

My deepest darkest fear is that if I should get sick, or have an accident, that I will let this become my defining character, that I will not live life to it's fullest. I fear that I would not be strong enogh to resign myself to the inevitable and fight futiley, instead of grabing what is left of life & shaking all the joy, closeness, understaning & memories from the time remaining.

I want to live life with no regrets. This does not mean no mistakes, but I can learn from mistakes and know that next time perhaps my decision making process will be different. I want to cram life full of experiences. Not chasing the rainbow, not searching for some elusive meaning of life, but appreciating every moment & memory. Travel the world, expereice different people, but not be so over reaching that I do not appreciate the quite times, the pople that make a small difference in my life every day.

Life is for living, not fearing.