Daddy's Little Girl - Fourth Edition

I'm out of sorts every damn spring, that's normal. This time snow began melting in mid-February, which is still supposed to be winter, which means the period will be 3 months (when ideally it could be only 2 months) and it makes me extra whiny.

It's hard to not have the mental side affected as well, when my body won't wind down or sleep well, I wake tired every morning. In a few weeks asthma will go crazy, too. Never mind hibernation over winter, I'd like to hibernate through spring.
 
Sounds like he knew exactly what to do 😊

I've had a relationship before where, if he'd arrived to find me in that kind of state, he'd berate or ignore me or tell me to get a grip. Withholding attention or affection until I behaved in a manner he approved of.
It's made me extremely over sensitive now to the point where I don't easily let anyone see me show emotion. I just hide away instead so I don't get rejected for it
 
Sounds like he knew exactly what to do😊
He did. He does. He doesn't always catch my mood very well in messages, but irl... He even automatically knew how to handle my meltdown last summer - something my exes have not been able to do even with explicit instructions.

I've had a relationship before where, if he'd arrived to find me in that kind of state, he'd berate or ignore me or tell me to get a grip. Withholding attention or affection until I behaved in a manner he approved of.
Ouch. That's outright toxic!
It's made me extremely over sensitive now to the point where I don't easily let anyone see me show emotion. I just hide away instead so I don't get rejected for it
No wonder. As a kid I got the impression that being sensitive is bad, and crying too, and as a result I had to relearn crying and allowing myself to be sensitive as an adult.

I'm still learning, really. Part of my mind is trying to say it's not ok, not allowed to need such amount of support. That it's not ok to be needy.

But damn was it a relief to be held safe and be taken care of, he even explicitly said that I could (or was it "should"?) just be little now.
 
Sounds like he knew exactly what to do 😊

I've had a relationship before where, if he'd arrived to find me in that kind of state, he'd berate or ignore me or tell me to get a grip. Withholding attention or affection until I behaved in a manner he approved of.
It's made me extremely over sensitive now to the point where I don't easily let anyone see me show emotion. I just hide away instead so I don't get rejected for it
But there are good things too.
I'm free of him and I'm slowly healing.

Daddy is so patient with me too.
He called me the other day to explain he was going to be busy. He didn't want me to worry that I'd been ditched (which, I'm ashamed to say, is where I would have spiralled to) and also wanted to quickly check on how my day was.

Such a small gesture and probably unremarkable to anyone else but it meant the world to me. I felt cared for and safe
 
But there are good things too.
I'm free of him and I'm slowly healing.

Daddy is so patient with me too.
He called me the other day to explain he was going to be busy. He didn't want me to worry that I'd been ditched (which, I'm ashamed to say, is where I would have spiralled to) and also wanted to quickly check on how my day was.

Such a small gesture and probably unremarkable to anyone else but it meant the world to me. I felt cared for and safe
Sounds like he, too, knows exactly what to do ❤️
 
Back
Top