Reflections of a straight guy who recently bottomed

[jabberwockyjon]

I have had to take a couple of days to contemplate what happened. Being tied down just put me at a disadvantage. I don't plan on doing it again, at least not in this manner. The tone just was different than before, the guys were using me pretty heavily for sex. I just feel I was over confident agreeing to do this.

That was my only real concern with this. I like the idea of being tied up, but only if there is a DEEP level of trust that just because I'm not in control, someone who is after my well being is in control. You can't really get that when the only other people there are the ones fucking you....their motivations are inevitably about their own pleasure. I'm glad it wasn't horrible, but bummed that it wasn't better.

If you want to share more details, I'm sure we're all ears.

 

[HCurious26]

Curious here. Would love to try either or.

 

[HCurious26]

Same here. Would like to try with someone who took their time.

 

[HCurious26]

Similar here.

 

[HCurious26]

curious to try here. Your location please?

 

[LauraWilling]

I have had to take a couple of days to contemplate what happened. Being tied down just put me at a disadvantage. I don't plan on doing it again, at least not in this manner. The tone just was different than before, the guys were using me pretty heavily for sex. I just feel I was over confident agreeing to do this.

As you know I and some others have had concerns about this experience for you and like Jabberwocky and Saintcero have metioned it possibly being and issue later in life. I am glad you have the attitude of live and learn, but I hope you have someone you know for sure you can trust to talk it out. Like your wife hopefully. It is easy to say "i'm fine, live and learn." but trust me there are things, and this is one for sure that stick in your mind and subconciouse and come out emotionally when you least expect it. I know it has for myself and a few things still do. I developd an over confidence about a number of sexual acts and experience and found they weren't always what I expected. Some times it is misplaced trust, other times it was more a physical thing and how my body reacted. There are more things, but for here my first thought based on your short respose is the trust issue and how you were used that was diferent from what you expected. Were there more guys than what was agreed on? was it rougher than you were told? All these are tust issues you placed with people you were sure you could trust. If so that is a big deal and will color how you feel and think about things in the future.

I really hope you can talk with your wife or someone and they support you. Hugs.

 

[28straightguy]

I was tied face down onto a footstool. My wrists and ankles tied to each corner. A pillow got placed under my stomach to help angle my ass up into a better position. This ball gag with a hollow center was placed in my mouth. From that point on it was guys front and back on me. As soon as 1 was finished another would replace them. The 6 of them just kept rotating turns. They were saying things about taking my married ass. I cant really claim to be a victim of it because I did agree to it up front. The whole experience just felt different to me than I thought it would. At least I know now from the experience that its really not my thing.

 

[saintcero]

I was tied face down onto a footstool. My wrists and ankles tied to each corner. A pillow got placed under my stomach to help angle my ass up into a better position. This ball gag with a hollow center was placed in my mouth. From that point on it was guys front and back on me. As soon as 1 was finished another would replace them. The 6 of them just kept rotating turns. They were saying things about taking my married ass. I cant really claim to be a victim of it because I did agree to it up front. The whole experience just felt different to me than I thought it would. At least I know now from the experience that its really not my thing.

Did you know about the ball gag with hollow center going in? I hope so and it was something you agreed to. If not, this would seem to add a degree of non consent and depersonalization to the scene. now that it is over, do you feel the same way about those that were present for both events or do you suspect your opinion of them will change? Were they supportive of you at the end of the event? did they thank you for playing and help you clean up?

 

[28straightguy]

Did you know about the ball gag with hollow center going in? I hope so and it was something you agreed to. If not, this would seem to add a degree of non consent and depersonalization to the scene. now that it is over, do you feel the same way about those that were present for both events or do you suspect your opinion of them will change? Were they supportive of you at the end of the event? did they thank you for playing and help you clean up?

I had no idea about the ball gag. I am not looking to place blame anywhere with this.

 

[LauraWilling]

I'm sorry, but to me the ball gag used without telling you before hand was a big violation of trust. I agree with Saitcero. Also thanking you, at least one of them for you agreeing to do it and follow threw with it. Being used for others pleasure is something I enjoy, but it require a lot of trust and when that trust is broken it makes it hard to trust other people as well as those who broke it in the first place. Especially since you are straight and married, this is a big violation in my book.

Blaming someone in this situation I can understand since you agreed to do it, but if that was done to me, it would also be the last time these guys were allowed to even be around me.
Have you discussed it with your wife and is she okay and supportive of you?

 

[jabberwockyjon]

Too bad they were more interested in getting off at your expense rather than trying to make it fun for you. Gagging you showed literally zero regard for you at all...not like you could tell them of you were uncomfortable or in pain or pleasure. I may want to take multiple cocks but I also want to be treated like a human and not a piece of meat.

 

[txfuncouple]

I was tied face down onto a footstool. My wrists and ankles tied to each corner. A pillow got placed under my stomach to help angle my ass up into a better position. This ball gag with a hollow center was placed in my mouth. From that point on it was guys front and back on me. As soon as 1 was finished another would replace them. The 6 of them just kept rotating turns. They were saying things about taking my married ass. I cant really claim to be a victim of it because I did agree to it up front. The whole experience just felt different to me than I thought it would. At least I know now from the experience that its really not my thing.

Interested in a couple things if you don’t mind. Was your wife there the whole time? Did she participate? Did you enjoy any of it or find it pleasurable in any way? What did you enjoy? Anything you took away that you want to share? Will you ever go big again with or without your wife?

Just curious. You’ve been quite open about sharing the experience and wondering about some things.

 

[saintcero]

I had no idea about the ball gag. I am not looking to place blame anywhere with this.

I will be curious to see if any of the six approach you individually to see if you are interested in being a bottom sub for them.

 

[28straightguy]

I will be curious to see if any of the six approach you individually to see if you are interested in being a bottom sub for them.

I am not open to playing at this point

 

[28straightguy]

Too bad they were more interested in getting off at your expense rather than trying to make it fun for you. Gagging you showed literally zero regard for you at all...not like you could tell them of you were uncomfortable or in pain or pleasure. I may want to take multiple cocks but I also want to be treated like a human and not a piece of meat.

This was opposite of the 1st time. No one was asking how I was doing during it.

 

[saintcero]

I am not open to playing at this point

My thinking was about what their intentions might be and not what your inclination would be. If one or more of them want an abusive Don/sub situation they may seek you out.

 

[Dreamer110]

I am not open to playing at this point

Ah you know you'll be right back there when they call.

 

[Misshotndeep]

I was tied face down onto a footstool. My wrists and ankles tied to each corner. A pillow got placed under my stomach to help angle my ass up into a better position. This ball gag with a hollow center was placed in my mouth. From that point on it was guys front and back on me. As soon as 1 was finished another would replace them. The 6 of them just kept rotating turns. They were saying things about taking my married ass. I cant really claim to be a victim of it because I did agree to it up front. The whole experience just felt different to me than I thought it would. At least I know now from the experience that its really not my thing.

Wtf? That is a gang rape, not a gang bang. You asked the wrong people to help with your fantasy. I am so sorry for you. Talk about horrible.

 

[jabberwockyjon]

This was opposite of the 1st time. No one was asking how I was doing during it.

I know. I'm actually pissed off at them (like REALLY pissed) and I don't even know you. This is literally the reason I've never had a gangbang, it's so hard to find guys in that scene that are respectful, willing to play by the rules, or generally sane.

 

[jabberwockyjon]

Wtf? That is a gang rape, not a gang bang. You asked the wrong people to help with your fantasy. I am so sorry for you. Talk about horrible.

I don't think it was really his fantasy, it started out as a favor to some people at their swing club, and he was willing to give it a second shot since the first time wasn't terrible. Then they were spreading the word about a "straight married" guy they could take advantage of, tried to talk him into taking a dozen, talked him into letting them tie him up, and generally abused the chance they were given to have ongoing play with a fun bottom.

 

[Misshotndeep]

I don't think it was really his fantasy, it started out as a favor to some people at their swing club, and he was willing to give it a second shot since the first time wasn't terrible. Then they were spreading the word about a "straight married" guy they could take advantage of, tried to talk him into taking a dozen, talked him into letting them tie him up, and generally abused the chance they were given to have ongoing play with a fun bottom.

I could not agree more. This is a case of abuse of a nookie. I am angry about it to
It should not have gone anything like it did.

 

[jabberwockyjon]

I could not agree more. This is a case of abuse of a nookie. I am angry about it to
It should not have gone anything like it did.

I'd love to do the same thing, just not the same way.

 

[Misshotndeep]

I'd love to do the same thing, just not the same way.

Well obviously!

 

[jabberwockyjon]

Well obviously!

Touche. lol

 

[subliminalmassage]

I couldn't agree more... I'm not really attracted to men, but I melt when I see a cock. A gym membership became a bit difficult because I went into the men's sauna and ended up getting some rather angry looks because of my raging hard-on.

I have fantasized about bottoming, and tried a dildo a couple times (makes me cum so fast, but even after I cum I keep fucking myself with it for a long time), but I've never had the pleasure or opportunity... much less four at once! I can't imagine... must be a great way to discover! I'm sorry it wasn't better for you.

Having spent 25 years behind enemy lines, undercover so deep even I didn't know I was queer, I can confirm this is part of the official 'no homo' guidance issued to all straight men: it's not gay to stare at a cock as long as you look angry about it.