🎵 Monthly Song Challenge 🎵

[curious_slut]

I used to be so good at HTML coding for my page. Embedding hidden songs so you couldn’t turn them off

Oh that was evil! Respect.

 

[Wonderer67]

Day 20: A song about a toxic relationship

its been on hell of a schedule today, so hopefully this one hasn’t been picked yet. It’s a song about recovering from a toxic relationship.

 

[Anastasia1999]

Day 19: A cover song by the opposite gender of the original.

 

[summer_reine]

Day 20: A song about a toxic relationship
Clumsy - Our Lady Peace
While maybe not directly about a toxic relationship, I think this song speaks of how you don't need to be cruel to be toxic. Being clumsy with feelings and thoughts can be damaging to others even when no malice is intended.
Seeing the music video for the first time in.. 20 years... Holey Carp they're young to have been writing lyrics like these.

 

[The_Quiet_Man]

Day 20: A song about a toxic relationship

 

[Grant55]

Day 20: Song About a Toxic Relationship

Phantom of the Opera

 

[Mr_bogey]

Day 20: Song About a Toxic Relationship

Multiple choices from this artist. The Blood and Chocolate album seemed full of them.

Elvis Costello - I Want You

 

[PassionatePanther]

Day 20: Song About a Toxic Relationship
Set Out Running - Neko Case

Want to get it all behind me
You know everything reminds me
I can't be myself without you
Want to crawl down deep inside
The springs inside the mattress
Where I cry my dirty secrets
'Cause I just can't shake this feeling
That I'm nothing in your eyes

 

[MindYaBitness]

Day 20: Song About a Toxic Relationship

the ballad of a woman whose give a shit has broken

Then I'll use that voice that you find annoyin'
And say something like, "Yeah, intelligent input darlin'
Why don't you just have another beer then?"
Then you'll call me a bitch
And everyone we're with will be embarrassed
And I won't give a shit

Foundations-Kate Nash

 

[ny_m_teacher]

Day 19: A cover song by the opposite gender of the original

Lake Street Dive cover of Rich Girl by Hall and Oates.

 

[ny_m_teacher]

Day 20: A song about a toxic relationship

 

[NeonSubtlety]

 

[aussiegeekygal]

1337 haxor skillz!

I bought my house with my 1337 check from my check book

 

[UnquietDreams]

I bought my house with my 1337 check from my check book

One of my favorite Roller Derby names from the Rose City Rollers was The 1337- Speaking Missile.

 

[MandaPandaa]

Day 20: A song about toxic relationships

 

[aussiegeekygal]

Day 20: A song about a toxic relationship

Never There - Cake

 

[TXRafe]

Day 20: A song about a toxic relationship

Never There - Cake

on the phone long long distance, always thru such strong resistance

 

[MandaPandaa]

Day 20: A song about a toxic relationship

This may get long, so go to the song if you don't want to read it. It's Hozier. You like Hozier.

I was in an abusive relationship for a very long time. It was mostly emotionally abusive -- when I had a depressive reaction to being laid off a job I loved, she saw it as just another failure in my life. One of many, as she saw it. My depression expresses itself by me losing energy and focus, and when I didn't immediately jump up after getting knocked down, she lost what respect she had for me. I didn't react the way her father would have, so I wasn't reacting like a man should. And when someone feels contempt, it is hard to go back. So she would become angry at something I did, or didn't do, or she thought I did, and tear into me. Viciously. Though we went to counseling, multiple times, and she knew how to keep an argument on topic, she rarely did, instead ranging up and down our time together to find any way to hurt me. And I took it, usually just standing there silently. Partly because I didn't necessarily disagree-- self-worth his not my strongest personality trait. Partly because I was so fucking tired. But mostly, this was how I paid The Rent, this was the cost for keeping my daughter in a "stable" household -- because apart from that, things stayed stable. Apart from that. And allowing her that pressure release kept her focused on me. She never turned this on my daughter. So, I told myself, it was worth it. It didn't happen all the time, so it was worth it. Change may have been worse, and I want to keep things the way they were. I was willing to compromise so much to get along. I stayed in situations -- jobs, other relationships -- that I should have left because I didn't want to lose what I had. (This, unfortunately, hasn't changed much, anywhere.)

It was mostly emotional. Mostly. But she would also get mad and throw things, not always careful of where they landed, and thus broke some of her own things. That would be my fault. And she would slap. And she would punch. Those were my fault as well. If I hadn't done what I did, right? So it was my fault she had to get that mad. She knew hitting me was safe, because she knew I wouldn't hit back. I wouldn't even block -- in boxing, I was a counter-puncher, blocking to hit you back harder and better. If I tried to block, there was a possibility I would automatically hit back by muscle memory. So I would take the blow, every fucking time. There are hundreds of reasons I could give why I wouldn't hit a person I still, god help me, loved. But also? If she hit me, and I hit back in self defense, I would be the one behind bars, and where would my kid be then? Our society is fucked up on violence in general, but female on male violence even more so. It is seen as a joke. I was bigger, stronger. I boxed, wrestled, played football. How was I in danger from this little woman? How could I call myself a man if I admitted she physically abused me? I brought it up in counseling once. The councilor, a man, told me I should just avoid her when she got mad. How the fuck was I going to take this to anyone? My friends? My family? The cops? I didn't. I paid the Rent. I took the hit, paid the cost. And she was abused by her mom, who was mentally ill and had violence issues, hit her daughter too. So it really wasn't entirely my wife's fault -- that was what I thought. And maybe, I would think, maybe I was shit. Worthless. I thought, "maybe I deserved it." So I was willing to take it for the sake of the relationship. And I am not the only one to make this choice.

"I walk my life on a wire."

Oh, fuck, I feel that line. Still.

"The way she tells me I'm hers and she is mine
Open hand or closed fist would be fine
The blood is rare and sweet as cherry wine."

This is a beautiful, horrible song.

"Her fight and fury is fiery
Oh but she loves
Like sleep to the freezing"

If you are freezing, and you sleep, you die, quietly. But it looks so appealing, that peace. So fucking accurate. Your soul, your mind, your you, slowly going.

This song encapsulates the justifications I made, the feelings I felt. I love it and hate it.

"Cherry Wine (live)," Hozier.

When we divorced, mandatory anger counseling was in the decree. I demanded it.

I went long. I'm sorry.

I'm so sorry. No one should ever be made to feel that.

I love this song. And I hope you never ever have to feel that again.

 

[DannieB]

Day 20: A song about a toxic relationship
This prompt and these songs! I was working on backtracking and listening since I’ve fallen behind before I posted tonight but, after reading @UnquietDreams post (that hit straight to the heart! ) I can’t listen anymore tonight.

This is turning into a tldr:
Billie Eilish - Happier Than Ever

I sat still and quiet while I put up with emotional and mental abuse and silly lies for over 10 years. He yelled, threw things (breaking my things), called me names and constantly put me down. Most of the time he was drunk and whenever I brought up the things he said the night before he would give me the “I was drunk and I didn’t mean it” excuse. He’s the only person I’ve been with and I stupidly chose to believe that.

Name calling shouldn’t bother me because I’m not in fourth grade anymore. So what if I got “diddled” as a kid and can’t do morning sex... “Get the fuck over it!” as I’m scrubbing myself clean under the hot shower spray after getting woke up that way.

My whole family are a bunch of weak bitches and they don’t handle their problems the right way. This man has an opinion about everyone and everything! I took it and internalized it and still smiled for my kids while losing a bit of myself every day.

I tried therapy and he gave up on that quick. But it was my fault because my vows obviously meant nothing and I was just giving up. I’ve heard that one a lot over the last few months.

We have two children and unfortunately, his anger did seep into them. I thought staying together was better for them until he started pulling them out of their beds this summer so he could unload all of his feelings about me on them. I’ve been called stupid, retarded and so much more and through all of it he “cared more than me”.

I do feel weak because it took me seeing my son crying to the point of almost getting sick because his dad called him “a fagotty ass bitch” among other things, for not handling his emotions at 9 years old and my daughter telling me that she doesn’t like hanging out with her dad because all he does is say bad things about me.

I’ll talk shit now.

 

[vagrantx]

Day 21: A song from a musical

Greatest musical in the world, you ask? The Sound of Music? No. Wizard of Oz, Singing in the Rain, Fiddler on the Roof? Get out of here. Little Shop of Horrors? Rocky Horror? Mmmh, closer, but still naw.

It's the chronicles of the fourth most popular folk-pop-parody-duo of New Zealand (another band just passed them, "Like off the Conchords", they're a cover-band), of course! Nothing makes me laugh as hard, no other friendship touches me as deeply, I think I even cried once but that might have just been a little bit of dust in my eye.

Flight of the Conchords - Carol Brown

 

[TXRafe]

Day 21: A song from a musical

Before she was Elsa (Idina Menzel), she was Elphaba...with the Wicked Movie opening tomorrow, there is no other choice for me...such an amazing voice and when you combine it with Kristin Chenoweth's voice it doesn't get better...I only wish they had made the movie 10-15 years ago when they could have used the original cast.

 

[lingus60]

Day 21: A song from a musical

The bitch of living: From the musical Spring Awakening

 

[Whiskeyjack]

Day 21: A song from a musical
Fuck... I'm gonna need about 30 extra song choices for this category.
One that I really like is this version of "Seventeen" from Heathers: The Musical. Carrie Hope Fletcher's and Jamie Muscato's voices just blend beautifully together.

 

[Masters_slutpussy]

Day 21: A song from a musical

 

[Mr_bogey]

Day 21: A song from a musical

Pink Floyd - Comfortably Numb from the musical The Wall