🍆❤️‍🩹🍆 Dicknations for Sassy! Updates & Get Well Wang 🍆❤️‍🩹🍆

[SassySheDevil]

aww that is so sweet! Glad you were able to enjoy yourself

Thank you.

 

[crashD]

Sassy

Dropping in to give you my continued best wishes!!

 

[SassySheDevil]

Well. The results of my CT scan didn't come back as I was hoping. There is a little spot on my lung. Currently right now it is too small to biopsy so they are going to send me in for a pet scan. This will give me a better idea as to what's going on in my body and I never understood why they didn't do that scan sooner.

As of right now we do not know if that is a worrisome spot or not. But either way I have cancer. My cancer markers are up. So that means that it's either the pancreatic cancer coming back or that new liver spot. I currently cannot do chemo because I am not healthy enough. They would really like me to be at least 100 lb and they have set a goal for me to try and Gain 1 lb a week.


This is honestly not a shock to me. But I can't be anything but numb right now. I've cried plenty. But most of me is just numb. They still can't figure out the cause of the pain and right now that still dictates my life. Mornings are the hardest for me pain wise. I'm not giving up yet. But I have also realized that I definitely need to accept the reality of this. Especially if it is a third cancer.

My friend made a wild lettuce tincture for me. It is a natural pain reliever and I think it's actually helping a little bit. I'm able to take some supplements again.

Those around me are really hurting as well. I know that my family is really struggling with this. But so are my friends. My best friend called last night just bawling. Wonky is really struggling as well. He is coming out in March again.

Until that pet scan I don't necessarily have many updates as far as what my plan will be. Obviously I would hope that I can get myself into good enough shape to do chemo radiation again.

 

[hotoldrguy]

Well. The results of my CT scan didn't come back as I was hoping. There is a little spot on my lung. Currently right now it is too small to biopsy so they are going to send me in for a pet scan. This will give me a better idea as to what's going on in my body and I never understood why they didn't do that scan sooner.

As of right now we do not know if that is a worrisome spot or not. But either way I have cancer. My cancer markers are up. So that means that it's either the pancreatic cancer coming back or that new liver spot. I currently cannot do chemo because I am not healthy enough. They would really like me to be at least 100 lb and they have set a goal for me to try and Gain 1 lb a week.


This is honestly not a shock to me. But I can't be anything but numb right now. I've cried plenty. But most of me is just numb. They still can't figure out the cause of the pain and right now that still dictates my life. Mornings are the hardest for me pain wise. I'm not giving up yet. But I have also realized that I definitely need to accept the reality of this. Especially if it is a third cancer.

My friend made a wild lettuce tincture for me. It is a natural pain reliever and I think it's actually helping a little bit. I'm able to take some supplements again.

Those around me are really hurting as well. I know that my family is really struggling with this. But so are my friends. My best friend called last night just bawling. Wonky is really struggling as well. He is coming out in March again.

Until that pet scan I don't necessarily have many updates as far as what my plan will be. Obviously I would hope that I can get myself into good enough shape to do chemo radiation again.

I am so sorry, Sassy. That is terrible news. I cannot begin to imagine how you and your family feel at this point after going through so much already. It seems crazy that they cannot at least figure out where you pain is coming from. I hope that the Pet scan can shed a light on everything that is going on and that the spot on you liver is not an additional problem

 

[pantyboidoe]

Well. The results of my CT scan didn't come back as I was hoping. There is a little spot on my lung. Currently right now it is too small to biopsy so they are going to send me in for a pet scan. This will give me a better idea as to what's going on in my body and I never understood why they didn't do that scan sooner.

As of right now we do not know if that is a worrisome spot or not. But either way I have cancer. My cancer markers are up. So that means that it's either the pancreatic cancer coming back or that new liver spot. I currently cannot do chemo because I am not healthy enough. They would really like me to be at least 100 lb and they have set a goal for me to try and Gain 1 lb a week.


This is honestly not a shock to me. But I can't be anything but numb right now. I've cried plenty. But most of me is just numb. They still can't figure out the cause of the pain and right now that still dictates my life. Mornings are the hardest for me pain wise. I'm not giving up yet. But I have also realized that I definitely need to accept the reality of this. Especially if it is a third cancer.

My friend made a wild lettuce tincture for me. It is a natural pain reliever and I think it's actually helping a little bit. I'm able to take some supplements again.

Those around me are really hurting as well. I know that my family is really struggling with this. But so are my friends. My best friend called last night just bawling. Wonky is really struggling as well. He is coming out in March again.

Until that pet scan I don't necessarily have many updates as far as what my plan will be. Obviously I would hope that I can get myself into good enough shape to do chemo radiation again.

All of my love to you, Sassy. We have a friend whose daughter is starting treatment next week, 20 years old--just the worst.

Thinking of you.

 

[SassySheDevil]

Thank you. The support in here has been so appreciated.

 

[StillRain]

Sassy, I haven’t been here at all but went looking for this thread when I came back to see where things were with you.

I’m so saddened by the latest update. I can’t even begin to imagine the emotions you, your family, and those closest to you are going through at this latest news. I have no wise words, just unending hope that at least in it all somehow you find some moments to treasure with them.

Might I suggest a day out at a smash room for all. Best emotional release ever.

Fuck cancer.
In the arse.
Without lube.
Or a warm-up.

 

[SassySheDevil]

Sassy, I haven’t been here at all but went looking for this thread when I came back to see where things were with you.

I’m so saddened by the latest update. I can’t even begin to imagine the emotions you, your family, and those closest to you are going through at this latest news. I have no wise words, just unending hope that at least in it all somehow you find some moments to treasure with them.

Might I suggest a day out at a smash room for all. Best emotional release ever.

Fuck cancer.
In the arse.
Without lube.
Or a warm-up.

Thank you Rain. I hope you have some idea of what that means to me. I had noticed your absence. But I still struggle with if I should reach out or not. It's funny because I really do appreciate you posting on my thread.
I have heard of these smash rooms. I do not know where a local one is. I would have to look that up. But hell I'm so weak I can barely open a bottle these days I can't even imagine picking up things to throw around and break. It might be a darn good idea for my family though.

pretty much how I feel about Cancer too.

 

[LadyLascivious1]

Oh, Sassy. I haven’t been around as much, but I wanted to see how you were doing. I’m so sad to hear the recent news and am heartbroken for you, your family, and closest friends. And I hate that things just got harder and more stressful for you.

I’m at a loss for anything helpful to say, but I’m thinking of you and sending you all the love and hugs I can offer

 

[hotwords229_A]

I'm not giving up yet. But I have also realized that I definitely need to accept the reality of this.

I’m not giving up on you at all.

 

[Saltfountain]

Well. The results of my CT scan didn't come back as I was hoping. There is a little spot on my lung. Currently right now it is too small to biopsy so they are going to send me in for a pet scan. This will give me a better idea as to what's going on in my body and I never understood why they didn't do that scan sooner.

As of right now we do not know if that is a worrisome spot or not. But either way I have cancer. My cancer markers are up. So that means that it's either the pancreatic cancer coming back or that new liver spot. I currently cannot do chemo because I am not healthy enough. They would really like me to be at least 100 lb and they have set a goal for me to try and Gain 1 lb a week.


This is honestly not a shock to me. But I can't be anything but numb right now. I've cried plenty. But most of me is just numb. They still can't figure out the cause of the pain and right now that still dictates my life. Mornings are the hardest for me pain wise. I'm not giving up yet. But I have also realized that I definitely need to accept the reality of this. Especially if it is a third cancer.

My friend made a wild lettuce tincture for me. It is a natural pain reliever and I think it's actually helping a little bit. I'm able to take some supplements again.

Those around me are really hurting as well. I know that my family is really struggling with this. But so are my friends. My best friend called last night just bawling. Wonky is really struggling as well. He is coming out in March again.

Until that pet scan I don't necessarily have many updates as far as what my plan will be. Obviously I would hope that I can get myself into good enough shape to do chemo radiation again.

Thank you for your honesty and openness in your updates. Cancer is or will be a reality for an awful lot of us, so removing the taboos around it is important.

The feelings of guilt for what we're putting out families through can be crippling, avd it's the last thing you need right now.

I'm crossing everything the next scans come back better

 

[Anastasia1999]

Thinking of you Sassy. What an awful lot you have had to deal with. I am so sorry and hope for an improvement and no more pain.

 

[Endless_Night]

 

[AngelicaS1780]

Well. The results of my CT scan didn't come back as I was hoping. There is a little spot on my lung. Currently right now it is too small to biopsy so they are going to send me in for a pet scan. This will give me a better idea as to what's going on in my body and I never understood why they didn't do that scan sooner.

As of right now we do not know if that is a worrisome spot or not. But either way I have cancer. My cancer markers are up. So that means that it's either the pancreatic cancer coming back or that new liver spot. I currently cannot do chemo because I am not healthy enough. They would really like me to be at least 100 lb and they have set a goal for me to try and Gain 1 lb a week.


This is honestly not a shock to me. But I can't be anything but numb right now. I've cried plenty. But most of me is just numb. They still can't figure out the cause of the pain and right now that still dictates my life. Mornings are the hardest for me pain wise. I'm not giving up yet. But I have also realized that I definitely need to accept the reality of this. Especially if it is a third cancer.

My friend made a wild lettuce tincture for me. It is a natural pain reliever and I think it's actually helping a little bit. I'm able to take some supplements again.

Those around me are really hurting as well. I know that my family is really struggling with this. But so are my friends. My best friend called last night just bawling. Wonky is really struggling as well. He is coming out in March again.

Until that pet scan I don't necessarily have many updates as far as what my plan will be. Obviously I would hope that I can get myself into good enough shape to do chemo radiation again.

Sassy ~ I am so sorry to hear that the CT scan found another area of concern. And that the doctors still haven’t been able to alleviate your pain. This news must be incredibly frustrating and scary for you and your loved ones. You all will be in my thoughts and my heart.

 

[Love_Is_Blonde]

I’m sorry to hear this, Sassy. Thinking of you, and sending you strength hoping you get good news on the pet scan.

 

[Neanderthal247]

Well. The results of my CT scan didn't come back as I was hoping. There is a little spot on my lung. Currently right now it is too small to biopsy so they are going to send me in for a pet scan. This will give me a better idea as to what's going on in my body and I never understood why they didn't do that scan sooner.

As of right now we do not know if that is a worrisome spot or not. But either way I have cancer. My cancer markers are up. So that means that it's either the pancreatic cancer coming back or that new liver spot. I currently cannot do chemo because I am not healthy enough. They would really like me to be at least 100 lb and they have set a goal for me to try and Gain 1 lb a week.


This is honestly not a shock to me. But I can't be anything but numb right now. I've cried plenty. But most of me is just numb. They still can't figure out the cause of the pain and right now that still dictates my life. Mornings are the hardest for me pain wise. I'm not giving up yet. But I have also realized that I definitely need to accept the reality of this. Especially if it is a third cancer.

My friend made a wild lettuce tincture for me. It is a natural pain reliever and I think it's actually helping a little bit. I'm able to take some supplements again.

Those around me are really hurting as well. I know that my family is really struggling with this. But so are my friends. My best friend called last night just bawling. Wonky is really struggling as well. He is coming out in March again.

Until that pet scan I don't necessarily have many updates as far as what my plan will be. Obviously I would hope that I can get myself into good enough shape to do chemo radiation again.

Hoping you get some good news, you have been dealing with a lot. I'm proud of you and rooting for you.

 

[SassySheDevil]

My best friend has been coming over each week to spend time with me and today my old roommate came over. We used to work together. He was a newish employee and I overheard him telling another Co worker that he was living in his car.
I stick my nose in and asked why. He had gotten in trouble a couple years prior. Growing weed. And served 2 years for it.
When he was released, he asked to come to Washington since his mom lived here.

He moved in with her for a couple months and then she kicked him out because she didn't like the fact that his parole officer could come by anytime he wanted. Unannounced. I went home and told my husband. He laughed and reminded me that my mom had told him all the stray animals were his problem now. Not the stray people. But said of course.

My daughter was still living at home so our guest bedroom was pretty tiny. But I figured better than his car.

So that weekend he moved in and became family. He lived with us for 2 years and we were determined to keep him. but he finally met the right woman and got married. I tried to get her to move in too. But they wanted more space.

Him and his wife have been family now for about 12 years. Him longer.

He walked into the house today and immediately started bawling. I have him a hug and he just stayed there crying. It broke my heart. He begged me to forgive him for taking so long to come and see me. He literally sat on my couch beating himself up. It hurt so much to see his pain.

It's hard enough going through all this myself. But seeing others pain kills me even more.

 

[MischiefMakerAlways]

My best friend has been coming over each week to spend time with me and today my old roommate came over. We used to work together. He was a newish employee and I overheard him telling another Co worker that he was living in his car.
I stick my nose in and asked why. He had gotten in trouble a couple years prior. Growing weed. And served 2 years for it.
When he was released, he asked to come to Washington since his mom lived here.

He moved in with her for a couple months and then she kicked him out because she didn't like the fact that his parole officer could come by anytime he wanted. Unannounced. I went home and told my husband. He laughed and reminded me that my mom had told him all the stray animals were his problem now. Not the stray people. But said of course.

My daughter was still living at home so our guest bedroom was pretty tiny. But I figured better than his car.

So that weekend he moved in and became family. He lived with us for 2 years and we were determined to keep him. but he finally met the right woman and got married. I tried to get her to move in too. But they wanted more space.

Him and his wife have been family now for about 12 years. Him longer.

He walked into the house today and immediately started bawling. I have him a hug and he just stayed there crying. It broke my heart. He begged me to forgive him for taking so long to come and see me. He literally sat on my couch beating himself up. It hurt so much to see his pain.

It's hard enough going through all this myself. But seeing others pain kills me even more.

It just goes to show how incredibly important you are to do many people and how much of a positive impact you have made, still make, and will make in other's lives.

 

[Deleted member 6592667]

Sending love and good vibes your way, @SassySheDevil

 

[ccs29745]

Sassy, you'll always mean more to people than you know or understand. A rare feat in today's world. Hugs to you and well wishes to your family and friends.

 

[SassySheDevil]

It just goes to show how incredibly important you are to do many people and how much of a positive impact you have made, still make, and will make in other's lives.

I had mentioned that my son is really struggling with my weight loss and I knew this was the first time he'd seen me since losing all the weight. But he's too darn nice to say anything but "you are still beautiful"

But he also said. "It amazes me with all your going through that you are more concerned about how everyone else is doing. You will forever be a caretaker" it was sweet.
But yes. I am grateful for all the love. I know that's why I was put on this planet. To take care of others.

 

[SassySheDevil]

Sassy, you'll always mean more to people than you know or understand. A rare feat in today's world. Hugs to you and well wishes to your family and friends.

Thank you.

 

[ccs29745]

Thank you.

Always welcomed princess.

 

[LadyLascivious1]

My best friend has been coming over each week to spend time with me and today my old roommate came over. We used to work together. He was a newish employee and I overheard him telling another Co worker that he was living in his car.
I stick my nose in and asked why. He had gotten in trouble a couple years prior. Growing weed. And served 2 years for it.
When he was released, he asked to come to Washington since his mom lived here.

He moved in with her for a couple months and then she kicked him out because she didn't like the fact that his parole officer could come by anytime he wanted. Unannounced. I went home and told my husband. He laughed and reminded me that my mom had told him all the stray animals were his problem now. Not the stray people. But said of course.

My daughter was still living at home so our guest bedroom was pretty tiny. But I figured better than his car.

So that weekend he moved in and became family. He lived with us for 2 years and we were determined to keep him. but he finally met the right woman and got married. I tried to get her to move in too. But they wanted more space.

Him and his wife have been family now for about 12 years. Him longer.

He walked into the house today and immediately started bawling. I have him a hug and he just stayed there crying. It broke my heart. He begged me to forgive him for taking so long to come and see me. He literally sat on my couch beating himself up. It hurt so much to see his pain.

It's hard enough going through all this myself. But seeing others pain kills me even more.

I can relate as other people’s pain and treatment hurt me more than anything thrown at me personally.

As awful as it is to see him hurt, it’s the kind of pain that requires being fortunate in order to experience. Meaning if you hadn’t meddled in the best way and taken him in, he wouldn’t have been lucky enough to become part of your family and love you so much. It’s such a remarkable thing to be chosen as someone’s family especially when your own isn’t there for you.

You gave him something so special that can’t ever be taken away. Even if it comes with hardships and some pain. You made a permanent difference in his life which is one of the reasons you’re so wonderful

 

[SassySheDevil]

I can relate as other people’s pain and treatment hurt me more than anything thrown at me personally.

As awful as it is to see him hurt, it’s the kind of pain that requires being fortunate in order to experience. Meaning if you hadn’t meddled in the best way and taken him in, he wouldn’t have been lucky enough to become part of your family and love you so much. It’s such a remarkable thing to be chosen as someone’s family especially when your own isn’t there for you.

You gave him something so special that can’t ever be taken away. Even if it comes with hardships and some pain. You made a permanent difference in his life which is one of the reasons you’re so wonderful

That's truly the sweetest thing I could possibly hear right now.
Thank you so much! if my family has little to give. Love it is.