what doesn't kill us.....blah blah blah

[RawHumor]

I could so pull off the look.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wNf9rEPoc8Q

 

[rida]

I could so pull off the look.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wNf9rEPoc8Q

We want proof!













Please?

 

[minx1]

I could so pull off the look.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wNf9rEPoc8Q

lol

We want proof!

uh huh. I need to see it with my own eyes.


anyway. I have resisted so far but really I think it's been a very large glass of red o'clock for the last few hours.

Am giving in I think

medicinal purposes and all that

 

[rida]

anyway. I have resisted so far but really I think it's been a very large glass of red o'clock for the last few hours.

Am giving in I think

medicinal purposes and all that

*pour a large red and hands the bottle off to minx*

hugs and good vibes and let us know!

(yes, I sneaked over the other thread ...)

Need to head to bed but will drink my glass first: KAMPAI! or CIN CIN! (and hear the Japanese cracking up ... lol)

 

[naxalite0906]

Just thought I would swing by and say hello.. Hope everything is ok hun

 

[RawHumor]

uh huh. I need to see it with my own eyes.

I think that would scare even the bravest among us. I'll spare you all.

Not that I have the option, since I don't own an outfit like that.

*hugs you tight*

I hope things start looking up for you, gorgeous.

 

[rida]

Hey minx sweet

I saw a couple of your posts around ... HUGS!

I'm in a mood for some heavier drink than wine ... do you care for some Vodka Tonic? With a lot of vodka and little tonic?




And hello to you too Raw-sama

 

[minx1]

Hey minx sweet

I saw a couple of your posts around ... HUGS!

I'm in a mood for some heavier drink than wine ... do you care for some Vodka Tonic? With a lot of vodka and little tonic?




And hello to you too Raw-sama

hey Rida

That would be pretty good...very easy on the tonic

So far I have had a glass of wine (large)and a scotch and am hoping that numb will kick in soon.

You know I have ups and downs and lots of them, but normally I am able to pick myself up, dust myself off and get on with things until the next lol

But I feel thoroughly down. Everything seems so hopeless and it feels like I have such little influence, or control over things that happen. The only thing I can manage to do at the moment is cry. Cry and not sleep

This weekend has been terrible and normally I would be thinking I can;t wait to go back to work lol...but I don't even want to go back to work. I just want to go to bed, pull my duvet over my head and wait for everything to go away

Yeah things are pretty good

Please tell me about your weekend...it will help take my mind off things

 

[minx1]

I think that would scare even the bravest among us. I'll spare you all.

Not that I have the option, since I don't own an outfit like that.

*hugs you tight*

I hope things start looking up for you, gorgeous.

yeah that would be good.

thanks Raw

hope you are ok.

 

[Bandit58]

minx, have you told your doctor how you are feeling?

I'm not sure, but it sounds like you are very depressed and have been for a while now. Self medicating with alcohol might help for a while, but it's a temporary fix at best and it sounds like you need some professional help.

*Hugs* and a flower plus a smooch cos I think you need it

 

[minx1]

minx, have you told your doctor how you are feeling?

I'm not sure, but it sounds like you are very depressed and have been for a while now. Self medicating with alcohol might help for a while, but it's a temporary fix at best and it sounds like you need some professional help.

*Hugs* and a flower plus a smooch cos I think you need it

thanks Bandit

Yes i am feeling pretty blue.

I am hoping that it will resolve itself before I need to do that. I think I have been under an enormous amount of pressure and not having any family or good friends here is difficult. I also loathe feeling like I am being swept along with things that i cannot control or at least influence.

I think getting a resolution to the breast lump thing is definitely one thing that will help ease things.

 

[Bandit58]

thanks Bandit

Yes i am feeling pretty blue.

I am hoping that it will resolve itself before I need to do that. I think I have been under an enormous amount of pressure and not having any family or good friends here is difficult. I also loathe feeling like I am being swept along with things that i cannot control or at least influence.

I think getting a resolution to the breast lump thing is definitely one thing that will help ease things.

As you know, I went through a very stressful time a few years ago (before I met Sir), and I know that feeling all too well. If you ever feel like you need an ear, I have a (relatively) empty PM box

On the subject of things medical, I've finally got a referral to a colo-rectal specialist for that colonoscopy, the appointment is in 4 weeks, and I guess I'll get booked in a few weeks after that. NOT looking forward to this AT ALL, but with my family history I guess it is a necessary evil and Sir says at least we will know if I am healthy or not....I have no nasty symptoms this is just for screening purposes.
Also need to make an appointment for that MRI to check for brain aneurysms. What with dialysis and Sir's medical stuff it's hard to fit everything in!

 

[minx1]

As you know, I went through a very stressful time a few years ago (before I met Sir), and I know that feeling all too well. If you ever feel like you need an ear, I have a (relatively) empty PM box

On the subject of things medical, I've finally got a referral to a colo-rectal specialist for that colonoscopy, the appointment is in 4 weeks, and I guess I'll get booked in a few weeks after that. NOT looking forward to this AT ALL, but with my family history I guess it is a necessary evil and Sir says at least we will know if I am healthy or not....I have no nasty symptoms this is just for screening purposes.
Also need to make an appointment for that MRI to check for brain aneurysms. What with dialysis and Sir's medical stuff it's hard to fit everything in!

Thankyou Bandit. Yeah I know you have had more than your share of stress!

I usually bounce back....and I am hoping that in the next day or so my spring will return and enable me to do that unaided.

My boss always used to remind me donlt be too hard on yourself....you got divorced, your dad died, you moved to another country aay from everyone, started a new job, got burgled and bought a house lol. That was minus an awful lot of other crappy stuff that he didn't know about

The health stuff sucks. Honestly it does. I thought I was handling the breast stuff ok...but freaked when I discovered a second lump. Even then when I went for the procedure I even found myself giggling with the doctor. It was really only Friday and result day that it hit me I think. Not having a definite diagnosis has thrown me and pissed me off beyond belief. I was hoping to tick them off the list lol and now I have other tests to go for.

I think screening is imperative though and your Sir is right at least it will throw up any potential problem areas and if not give you a clean bill of health in that department.

Do get the MRI done...have had a couple of them over the last few years myself lol.

Its crappy when everything becomes about health eh. I hope you and your Sir manage to have fun inbetween appointments! though it sounds like you do

 

[Bandit58]

LOL....there's plenty of fun and laughter around here despite all the health crap, even though Sir says I keep posting all the bad shit in my "bitch and moan thread" He calls it

Right now *fingers crossed* *touch wood* all seems to be going along quite well in the dialysis department I still stress a bit about getting the needles in though, most of the time it's ok but this is my beloved Sir I'm causing pain to....wrong way round if you ask me!

 

[rida]

hey Rida

*snip*

Please tell me about your weekend...it will help take my mind off things

More hugs and quick resolution vibes for your lump!

Week-end was calm, nothing to complain about.
And yes, as Badit says, it sounds a bit like depression. Don't let it get out of hand! No need to rush to medications but too much self-medicating is also not good. I know it is easier said than done, but just take good care of yourself, 'K?

I need to start seriously downsizing thou AKA throwing stuff away. And hopefully Hubby is over the worst of the reaction to his latest medication (for Bipolar Type 2 ... trust me, I'm learning more than I ever cared about all this mood-disorder and medications).

More hugs!
And never forget that you have a lot of friend routing for you here on Lit!
We are just a few pixels and clicks away.

 

[minx1]

LOL....there's plenty of fun and laughter around here despite all the health crap, even though Sir says I keep posting all the bad shit in my "bitch and moan thread" He calls it

Right now *fingers crossed* *touch wood* all seems to be going along quite well in the dialysis department I still stress a bit about getting the needles in though, most of the time it's ok but this is my beloved Sir I'm causing pain to....wrong way round if you ask me!

lmao I think thats what this thread is...though if a gal can't be depressed in her own thread where on earth can she be?

It must be really tough doing the needle thing...but you are doing it to keep him well not cause him pain. He knows that

More hugs and quick resolution vibes for your lump!

Week-end was calm, nothing to complain about.
And yes, as Badit says, it sounds a bit like depression. Don't let it get out of hand! No need to rush to medications but too much self-medicating is also not good. I know it is easier said than done, but just take good care of yourself, 'K?

I need to start seriously downsizing thou AKA throwing stuff away. And hopefully Hubby is over the worst of the reaction to his latest medication (for Bipolar Type 2 ... trust me, I'm learning more than I ever cared about all this mood-disorder and medications).

More hugs!
And never forget that you have a lot of friend routing for you here on Lit!
We are just a few pixels and clicks away.

aww thanks hon. Yeah I will look after myself. I'm the only bleeder who is going to lol. I learnt that a long time ago

And yes, I know I am feeling a bit depressed so will definitely keep an eye on it. I am determined to try and kick it into touch before it needs a trip to the doctors. I am hoping some resilience will kick in sometime in the next couple of days. I recognise it...so its just dealing with it before it consumes I think.

if I take control of my problems i think it will feel better. That or relinquish control over all of them.

Its this no mans land that I can't deal with.

Hey I did all my throwing out! Yay. It felt great

 

[Bandit58]

Well we have dialysis tomorrow and I've lost an hour somewhere because of daylight saving so I will say good night and chin up hun you have friends here even tho we are pixels on a screen we do care

 

[minx1]

Well we have dialysis tomorrow and I've lost an hour somewhere because of daylight saving so I will say good night and chin up hun you have friends here even tho we are pixels on a screen we do care

awww thanks so much hon

Hope everything goes well tomorrow. Pass my best onto Gil

 

[rida]

aww thanks hon. Yeah I will look after myself. I'm the only bleeder who is going to lol. I learnt that a long time ago

And yes, I know I am feeling a bit depressed so will definitely keep an eye on it. I am determined to try and kick it into touch before it needs a trip to the doctors. I am hoping some resilience will kick in sometime in the next couple of days. I recognise it...so its just dealing with it before it consumes I think.

if I take control of my problems i think it will feel better. That or relinquish control over all of them.

Its this no mans land that I can't deal with.

Hey I did all my throwing out! Yay. It felt great

Want to come and help?

And you know, sometime nobody takes care of us because we do not let them. I have a Hubby, and I still do all the taking care. But the reality is that I would not know how to handle being taken care of and I make sure to never look in need of help or a hand. It is the curse of us strong intelligent resilient resourceful women.

It is hard to believe that nobody around you in rl can see what we can so clearly see through your words, that you are a beautiful and full of love woman. Don't be shy to show your true self.

 

[naxalite0906]

Thankyou Bandit. Yeah I know you have had more than your share of stress!

I usually bounce back....and I am hoping that in the next day or so my spring will return and enable me to do that unaided.

My boss always used to remind me donlt be too hard on yourself....you got divorced, your dad died, you moved to another country aay from everyone, started a new job, got burgled and bought a house lol. That was minus an awful lot of other crappy stuff that he didn't know about

The health stuff sucks. Honestly it does. I thought I was handling the breast stuff ok...but freaked when I discovered a second lump. Even then when I went for the procedure I even found myself giggling with the doctor. It was really only Friday and result day that it hit me I think. Not having a definite diagnosis has thrown me and pissed me off beyond belief. I was hoping to tick them off the list lol and now I have other tests to go for.

I think screening is imperative though and your Sir is right at least it will throw up any potential problem areas and if not give you a clean bill of health in that department.

Do get the MRI done...have had a couple of them over the last few years myself lol.

Its crappy when everything becomes about health eh. I hope you and your Sir manage to have fun inbetween appointments! though it sounds like you do

Sending my best wishes

 

[minx1]

somehow I need to start putting my life back together

and I'm not sure where to start.....

 

[RawHumor]

I hear you, hon.

Oh, btw, last weekend we went to the local pumpkin patch. It's sort of a Halloween tradition around here.

I took this picture with you in mind.

It's my youngest daughter and an animal that I know you'll love, but try not to get too excited.

I now present you: Lea with a llama... (or should that be Llama?)

 

[minx1]

I hear you, hon.

Oh, btw, last weekend we went to the local pumpkin patch. It's sort of a Halloween tradition around here.

I took this picture with you in mind.

It's my youngest daughter and an animal that I know you'll love, but try not to get too excited.

I now present you: Lea with a llama... (or should that be Llama?)

*beams* and you shared that with me... (ok and whoever else tunes in here)

but you shared that with me. not only that...you thoight of me when you took it

Thankyou Raw.

Are you ok?

 

[RawHumor]

*beams* and you shared that with me... (ok and whoever else tunes in here)

but you shared that with me. not only that...you thoight of me when you took it

Thankyou Raw.

Are you ok?

I did think of you as I took it. I was sort of chuckling for no apparent reason.

I'm doing mostly okay. Had a bit of a LDR that burned intensely for a few weeks but burned out not long ago. So now I'm back to trying to salvage, or at least survive, the rest of 2009.

I thought of removing that pic now that you've seen it, but it's pretty anonymous, so I'll probably leave it, at least for a while.

And you're quite welcome, sunshine.

 

[minx1]

I did think of you as I took it. I was sort of chuckling for no apparent reason.

I'm doing mostly okay. Had a bit of a LDR that burned intensely for a few weeks but burned out not long ago. So now I'm back to trying to salvage, or at least survive, the rest of 2009.

I thought of removing that pic now that you've seen it, but it's pretty anonymous, so I'll probably leave it, at least for a while.

And you're quite welcome, sunshine.

awww sorry to hear about the LDR Mr...that sucks

As for 2009...not so long to go..tell you what, I'll survive it if you do .....pact?

and yeah the pic doesnt give too much away...but I understand if you want to delete...I dont care lol, cos I got to see it!