ok you female subs

[Shadowsdream]

Ohhhh, as a big time chocolate lover I so agree with this statement.

When my Sir tells me that I am a “good girl,” it’s the best feeling I have ever known. I hear it or see him type the words and the first thing that happens is a pure smile of joy spreads across my face. I feel it in the pit of my stomach and my whole body gets light feeling. I know I sometimes blush when he gives me praise and I am so very happy to have pleased him. They are the words that I strive to have him say to me. The ones I want to hear forever.

Hello His_pita

I have a feeling that your Sir enjoys your blushes when He says "Good Girl" to you knowing that His praise is what causes you to express your pleasure even against your will.

Words are so powerful when they are spoken by O/one that is important in O/our lives.

May your hopes for forever be well deserved and assured.

 

[shy slave]

Ok all of you submissives and slave girls what emotions do you go through when you hear the words "Good Girl!"

I can so easily relate to bunny bondages response makes me feel like a shy virgin at her first dance.

I have never liked being called 'girl' it has always seemed to be demeaning in a negative way or attached to other issues like age play.

The first time he called me a good girl, I felt so proud that i had pleased him.

His tone was soft and quiet as though it carried weight and meaning. Something I had not associated with those words.

He now refers to me as 'girl', it sounds so intimate, using it as if it were my name.

It makes me feel special and complete as a person. As though i am important to him.

If someone had told me I would want to be referred to as 'girl' and be able to admit that I wanted to be called that i would have laughed so much and suggested they needed medication!

However writing this has made me wonder if he also uses it as gentle reminder of my place in life.



I would not be at all embarrassed if he used it public.

 

[shy slave]

The orgasm...do you crave this release or do you also enjoy edging up to orgasm and then being denied? If you are brought to the edge and then denied do you physically lose interest? Is your orgasm for your own pleasure or for the pleasure and amusement of your Dominant?

This Mistress is extremely nosey tonight!

Orgasms are an odd thing.

They are different at different times.

I like being brought to the edge as it intensifys the release, but if it hits the edge too often before release I really need pain to enable an orgasm to happen at all.

I find that strange as i really dislike pain at any other time.

I don't see my orgasm as something for his pleasure, nor do I always want or need an orgasm.

There have been times I have experienced intense pleasure, but not had a physical orgasm.

The pleasure comes from understanding that I have submitted to him, at a deep and personal level.

It is not a place I can find alone, his voice and actions take me there.

 

[Shadowsdream]

I can so easily relate to bunny bondages response makes me feel like a shy virgin at her first dance.

I have never liked being called 'girl' it has always seemed to be demeaning in a negative way or attached to other issues like age play.

The first time he called me a good girl, I felt so proud that i had pleased him.

His tone was soft and quiet as though it carried weight and meaning. Something I had not associated with those words.

He now refers to me as 'girl', it sounds so intimate, using it as if it were my name.

It makes me feel special and complete as a person. As though i am important to him.

If someone had told me I would want to be referred to as 'girl' and be able to admit that I wanted to be called that i would have laughed so much and suggested they needed medication!

However writing this has made me wonder if he also uses it as gentle reminder of my place in life.



I would not be at all embarrassed if he used it public.

Hello shy..nice to see you today!

Tone of voice with these simple words can show so much pride that it is not difficult to see a positive where once there was a negative. I think your post and the post of some others is a clear indication that what is today may not be tomorrow. Even words that may have been negative in another portion of ones life can, when used in the right way by ones Magic can bring contentment pride and joy.

 

[Shadowsdream]

Orgasms are an odd thing.

They are different at different times.

I like being brought to the edge as it intensifys the release, but if it hits the edge too often before release I really need pain to enable an orgasm to happen at all.

I find that strange as i really dislike pain at any other time.

I don't see my orgasm as something for his pleasure, nor do I always want or need an orgasm.

There have been times I have experienced intense pleasure, but not had a physical orgasm.

The pleasure comes from understanding that I have submitted to him, at a deep and personal level.

It is not a place I can find alone, his voice and actions take me there.

Thank you shy for this other look at how hitting the edge to often is not "always" desirable...unfortunately few speak about it but many experience it in the female persuasion. Not speaking about it gives the idea to Dominants that it is always a positive...females are more complex in this way than males in My experience.

 

[His_pita]

Hello His_pita

I have a feeling that your Sir enjoys your blushes when He says "Good Girl" to you knowing that His praise is what causes you to express your pleasure even against your will.

Words are so powerful when they are spoken by O/one that is important in O/our lives.

May your hopes for forever be well deserved and assured.

Thank you Shadowsdream, you are a very kind woman and I so appreciate this thread.

I agree that words are so powerful. Especially for us because we aren't in real life yet and we really only have our words to express our feelings to each other.

I do think that we will have a very good foundation for communicating when we are in real life because of all the talking we do now.

 

[curiousjen]

You have a way of consistently boiling difficult, vague issues down the simplest and most human of denominators. Thank you once again.

Thank you, softouch that was a really nice compliment that made my night after a rather hard day Sometimes I write these posts and get frustrated never quite getting to the heart of what i really mean- and I can get quite wound up. So I'm pleased to have helped you in some way

 

[Shadowsdream]

Thank you Shadowsdream, you are a very kind woman and I so appreciate this thread.

I agree that words are so powerful. Especially for us because we aren't in real life yet and we really only have our words to express our feelings to each other.

I do think that we will have a very good foundation for communicating when we are in real life because of all the talking we do now.

The very core of success is communication so Y/you are off to a very good start!

 

[curiousjen]

The orgasm...do you crave this release or do you also enjoy edging up to orgasm and then being denied? If you are brought to the edge and then denied do you physically lose interest? Is your orgasm for your own pleasure or for the pleasure and amusement of your Dominant?

This Mistress is extremely nosey tonight!

Orgasms orgasms orgasms. I love them. I think, in a lot of ways I am addicted to them. Even though I can and do orgasm through intercourse, for me, sexual adventure with Owen is not really about the "hit" for me-although thats a fun side effect- Its much more about his pleasure. Of course, thats not to say I don't scream and beg for him to let me come, or to please go harder or faster but I don't feel the absolute primal desperation that I feel when I masturbate for an orgasm.

For a woman, and certainly compared to a lot of my female friends I masturbate a lot, for them masturbation seems to be a guilty occasional indulgence, whereas for me my solo sessions are the bread and butter of my daily happiness! Not only self indulgence either- I need an orgasm to sleep, without it there is no chance of rest. It is the release I crave, the wave of chemicals that flood my brain, and relax my muscles and bring me peace.

Now I mention masturbation and my love of it because this is one of the areas he is talking about beginning to control. To forbid me my pleasure for a day,or maybe day after day and to let me cum by his cock alone, when he sees fit. This terrifies and excites me in equal amounts. Terrifies me, because like i say, its almost an addiction and when I crave that release it's going to be very hard to be obedient and deny myself. Excites me because, well, its another area of my life that I give over to him, put myself at his mercy. For so many years I have felt totally sexually satisfied whenever I want...and often bragged about it....I guess I should have seen this coming. In relinquishing this control I will travel another step further along the path of my submission, and by this denial of desire I hope will bring me one step closer to the inner freedom I seek.

 

[Softouch911]

Now I mention masturbation and my love of it because this is one of the areas he is talking about beginning to control. To forbid me my pleasure for a day,or maybe day after day and to let me cum by his cock alone, when he sees fit. This terrifies and excites me in equal amounts. Terrifies me, because like i say, its almost an addiction and when I crave that release it's going to be very hard to be obedient and deny myself. Excites me because, well, its another area of my life that I give over to him, put myself at his mercy. For so many years I have felt totally sexually satisfied whenever I want...and often bragged about it....I guess I should have seen this coming. In relinquishing this control I will travel another step further along the path of my submission, and by this denial of desire I hope will bring me one step closer to the inner freedom I seek.

I have to say this: orgasm control or deprivation with you would be the absolute sweetest of pleasures! Best wishes --

When it begins, and if He approves, I would love to follow your (very articulate) passions and struggles in a thread here. I'll even join all those who will cheer you on, smiling!

 

[snowy ciara]

Ok all of you submissives and slave girls what emotions do you go through when you hear the words "Good Girl!"

I don't know; I've never heard it from a lover or a Dom/me. My parents give praise sparingly. I know they love me, I know they're proud of me, they know I know and seem to feel that it's unnecessary to tell me. When I do hear that I've done well, or gotten a "good girl", (or similar words, I don't actually remember hearing those particular words) usually it's because I've exceeded expectations; not because I've simply done well. In that case, it's a thrill. I would expect it would be different from a Dom/me; still a thrill, but with a slightly different thrill, dealing with the more intimate interactions.

The orgasm...do you crave this release or do you also enjoy edging up to orgasm and then being denied? If you are brought to the edge and then denied do you physically lose interest? Is your orgasm for your own pleasure or for the pleasure and amusement of your Dominant?

This Mistress is extremely nosey tonight!

Your nosiness is cool, Ma'am.

Orgasm denial is something else I've not experienced. I wish I had a little more experience to draw from here; I feel sometimes like I'm blindfolded in a room full of people who can all see. I'd like to take my blindfold off, please. I do notice that sometimes I can't come, when I'm masturbating (mutual orgasms with the Evil Ex were somewhat unusual.). Sometimes for days at a time, or even weeks. After this time period, when things finally come together, if you pardon the pun, it's a bigger relief, not necessarily a bigger O physically, but emotionally and mentally. I hope I'm making sense here.

 

[Esclava]

MShadowsDream,

I have been away for a while, peeked into the forum and this thread begs a response. Please forgive my responses all coming at the same time. (and you are NOT nosey ...)

To address the coldness, I have to say that I still share a relationship with an online Dom and I cannot "see" the coldness in His eyes, but when he "shouts" at me, "GO NOW!" - or asks me a question where I sense he does not have time to deal with me (i.e.: I'm bothering Him); I feel as though I've been stabbed and my life blood is pumping from the wound with every beat of the heart that loves Him.

You should also know that I have spent the last 3 months under the real, physical hands of a Dom/Domme team. The first time I was disobedient and came without permission, I heard the words, "You know there is punishment in store for that, don't you?" I was crushed - even in the midst of arousal, I felt a physical manifestation of disappointment. It didn't last long because as soon as I said, "Yes, Sir, as you desire", then heard the words, "Good girl" - I knew everything would be fine. Turns out the "punishment" received was a 15 minute belting I had to lay completely still for. MV is a strong man and wields a belt strongly, but my arousal was so high, each stroke was like a caress - and in the end He rewarded me with 3 orgasms.

The r/l couple takes great pleasure in spanking and edging me to orgasm and then denying it until they are ready. And sometimes it takes a couple of hours for them to be ready to allow me release. But if this one has been obedient, the orgasms are some of the most mind-bending I have ever experienced! I had no idea what submitting my entire being to the hands of a CARING Dom/me was - until I met MV and ML.

So, yes, I've experienced crushing disappointment in disobedience and the ultimate praise an obedient sub can receive: "Well done, obedient pet. You have pleased Me." I believe there is an actual, physical glow you can see that comes over me ...

Thank you, MShadowsDream -
Esclava

 

[YinandYang]

Good morning YinandYang

you have brought up a very good point about the redemption after the look...(BUT....afterwards the closeness we felt was amazing. The realisation that an argument wasn't left to fester and turn into resentment stored up for future issues was good.)
The cold eyes used in disappointment must be followed up at some point with the ability for redemption either through punishment or punishment and communication or communication but must also be tempered with forgiveness on both sides of the whip when not simply used just to bolster a scene.

Thankyou Shadowsdream for your reply. I find this aspect of our lifestyle helps us to keep the fairly petty stuff at a level where it belongs. Talking, communication, redemtion and punishment all lend a hand in maintaining a healthy relationship I believe

 

[sophia jane]

For a woman, and certainly compared to a lot of my female friends I masturbate a lot, for them masturbation seems to be a guilty occasional indulgence, whereas for me my solo sessions are the bread and butter of my daily happiness! Not only self indulgence either- I need an orgasm to sleep, without it there is no chance of rest. It is the release I crave, the wave of chemicals that flood my brain, and relax my muscles and bring me peace.

I don't usually post here (I lurk alot!), but I have to respond to this. I could have written that paragraph. I love to masturbate, and I was the same way- needed to masturbate to help me sleep, felt like I "had" to masturbate every day.
Then I entered a long-distance D/s relationship. I gave him control over my masturbation. I've gone from masturbating every day to a few times a week. It was a difficult adjustment (especially the sleep aspect), but it's been worth it. My orgasms and my masturbation play have gone from fun to amazing. Following his instructions for masturbation, knowing that I am doing it for him and not for myself, has completely changed the experience for me.

So I understand where you're coming from- good luck! If your experience is like mine, it'll be worth it to give him this control.

SJ

 

[serijules]

Not only self indulgence either- I need an orgasm to sleep, without it there is no chance of rest. It is the release I crave, the wave of chemicals that flood my brain, and relax my muscles and bring me peace.

Ohhh I miss that. I used to be the same way, I could not sleep without an orgasm first to take me into that blissful sleepy state. When D decided that my orgasms were only allowed at her whim (and not very often at that), I had to force myself out of this habit and let me tell you, that was very hard. I think quitting smoking was easier LOL. I still rest a lot better if I am allowed to orgasm first.

 

[Shadowsdream]

Orgasms orgasms orgasms. I love them. I think, in a lot of ways I am addicted to them. Even though I can and do orgasm through intercourse, for me, sexual adventure with Owen is not really about the "hit" for me-although thats a fun side effect- Its much more about his pleasure. Of course, thats not to say I don't scream and beg for him to let me come, or to please go harder or faster but I don't feel the absolute primal desperation that I feel when I masturbate for an orgasm.

For a woman, and certainly compared to a lot of my female friends I masturbate a lot, for them masturbation seems to be a guilty occasional indulgence, whereas for me my solo sessions are the bread and butter of my daily happiness! Not only self indulgence either- I need an orgasm to sleep, without it there is no chance of rest. It is the release I crave, the wave of chemicals that flood my brain, and relax my muscles and bring me peace.

Now I mention masturbation and my love of it because this is one of the areas he is talking about beginning to control. To forbid me my pleasure for a day,or maybe day after day and to let me cum by his cock alone, when he sees fit. This terrifies and excites me in equal amounts. Terrifies me, because like i say, its almost an addiction and when I crave that release it's going to be very hard to be obedient and deny myself. Excites me because, well, its another area of my life that I give over to him, put myself at his mercy. For so many years I have felt totally sexually satisfied whenever I want...and often bragged about it....I guess I should have seen this coming. In relinquishing this control I will travel another step further along the path of my submission, and by this denial of desire I hope will bring me one step closer to the inner freedom I seek.

Ah what a delightful time Owen is going to have controlling your orgasms! It will be a very interesting journey giving up the control to your masterbation but you just might find it to be the gateway to an even deeper submission...eventually ~~grin~~

Thank you for sharing the reasons why this will be complex from the stand point of your regular routine and desires. It is helpful when trying to understand the differences in submissives.

 

[Shadowsdream]

I don't know; I've never heard it from a lover or a Dom/me. My parents give praise sparingly. I know they love me, I know they're proud of me, they know I know and seem to feel that it's unnecessary to tell me. When I do hear that I've done well, or gotten a "good girl", (or similar words, I don't actually remember hearing those particular words) usually it's because I've exceeded expectations; not because I've simply done well. In that case, it's a thrill. I would expect it would be different from a Dom/me; still a thrill, but with a slightly different thrill, dealing with the more intimate interactions.





Your nosiness is cool, Ma'am.

Orgasm denial is something else I've not experienced. I wish I had a little more experience to draw from here; I feel sometimes like I'm blindfolded in a room full of people who can all see. I'd like to take my blindfold off, please. I do notice that sometimes I can't come, when I'm masturbating (mutual orgasms with the Evil Ex were somewhat unusual.). Sometimes for days at a time, or even weeks. After this time period, when things finally come together, if you pardon the pun, it's a bigger relief, not necessarily a bigger O physically, but emotionally and mentally. I hope I'm making sense here.

Hello ciara and please do not think your opinions and perceptions are any less valid because of your inexperience. There are many at the same cross road as you are at today who will understand and nod their heads to your words.

It is the consideration of scenerios that begin to help U/us grow and without a first step there cannot be a second.

your posts always make sense to Me and I see them as thought provoking.One day you will be advising or commenting from a vast experience and much of your information will be founded from the days of inexperience.

I thank you for consistently putting yourself out there.

 

[Shadowsdream]

MShadowsDream,

I have been away for a while, peeked into the forum and this thread begs a response. Please forgive my responses all coming at the same time. (and you are NOT nosey ...)

To address the coldness, I have to say that I still share a relationship with an online Dom and I cannot "see" the coldness in His eyes, but when he "shouts" at me, "GO NOW!" - or asks me a question where I sense he does not have time to deal with me (i.e.: I'm bothering Him); I feel as though I've been stabbed and my life blood is pumping from the wound with every beat of the heart that loves Him.

You should also know that I have spent the last 3 months under the real, physical hands of a Dom/Domme team. The first time I was disobedient and came without permission, I heard the words, "You know there is punishment in store for that, don't you?" I was crushed - even in the midst of arousal, I felt a physical manifestation of disappointment. It didn't last long because as soon as I said, "Yes, Sir, as you desire", then heard the words, "Good girl" - I knew everything would be fine. Turns out the "punishment" received was a 15 minute belting I had to lay completely still for. MV is a strong man and wields a belt strongly, but my arousal was so high, each stroke was like a caress - and in the end He rewarded me with 3 orgasms.

The r/l couple takes great pleasure in spanking and edging me to orgasm and then denying it until they are ready. And sometimes it takes a couple of hours for them to be ready to allow me release. But if this one has been obedient, the orgasms are some of the most mind-bending I have ever experienced! I had no idea what submitting my entire being to the hands of a CARING Dom/me was - until I met MV and ML.

So, yes, I've experienced crushing disappointment in disobedience and the ultimate praise an obedient sub can receive: "Well done, obedient pet. You have pleased Me." I believe there is an actual, physical glow you can see that comes over me ...

Thank you, MShadowsDream -
Esclava

Welcome to this thread Esclava I have missed your voice amongst U/us and am pleased to see you here today!

WOW! What an amazing journey you are on with both a Domme and a Dom. How lucky can one girl get!

I will be very interested in hearing now and then about the dynamics of such a union from you as it would appear that you are in a relationship that is satisfying and respectful. This dynamic is not spoken of often enough for most to realize that it can be as successfully fulfilling to the submissive as it is to the Dom/mes involved.

Thank you for bringing this extra twist into the conversation ~~smile~~

 

[snowy ciara]

Hello ciara and please do not think your opinions and perceptions are any less valid because of your inexperience. There are many at the same cross road as you are at today who will understand and nod their heads to your words.

It is the consideration of scenerios that begin to help U/us grow and without a first step there cannot be a second.

your posts always make sense to Me and I see them as thought provoking.One day you will be advising or commenting from a vast experience and much of your information will be founded from the days of inexperience.

I thank you for consistently putting yourself out there.

Thank You

 

[Esclava]

Welcome to this thread Esclava I have missed your voice amongst U/us and am pleased to see you here today!

WOW! What an amazing journey you are on with both a Domme and a Dom. How lucky can one girl get!

I will be very interested in hearing now and then about the dynamics of such a union from you as it would appear that you are in a relationship that is satisfying and respectful. This dynamic is not spoken of often enough for most to realize that it can be as successfully fulfilling to the submissive as it is to the Dom/mes involved.

Thank you for bringing this extra twist into the conversation ~~smile~~

Thank you, Ma'am! Although tinged with trepidation, it is with a sense of pleasure that I step back into this medium of expression.

Yes, it is an amazing journey! One I never thought I would undertake - ever - much less be fortunate enough to happen into the place where I met MV and ML. I will keep you apprised of how the tag-team Domm/eing works. For now, it does seem to fulfill several needs I have.

And you are astute, this relationship is incredibly respectful. I have stories to tell of the journey I have been on since stepping away from these boards and I will be glad to share them with you - as you offered advice that I considered seriously enough - and found sound enough - to put into action.

I will be around more ...

Esclava

 

[Shadowsdream]

Thank you, Ma'am! Although tinged with trepidation, it is with a sense of pleasure that I step back into this medium of expression.

Yes, it is an amazing journey! One I never thought I would undertake - ever - much less be fortunate enough to happen into the place where I met MV and ML. I will keep you apprised of how the tag-team Domm/eing works. For now, it does seem to fulfill several needs I have.

And you are astute, this relationship is incredibly respectful. I have stories to tell of the journey I have been on since stepping away from these boards and I will be glad to share them with you - as you offered advice that I considered seriously enough - and found sound enough - to put into action.

I will be around more ...

Esclava

Good evening Esclava

I am excited about this journey you have begun because I feel confident that you are seeing clearly, feeling intensely and not conning yourself. When the eyes are wide open no shadows cloud the common sense.

~~smile~~

 

[flowerchilde]

Wow, this is my first post here! So many deep and thought provoking questions to answer. Well, here it goes, first cold eyes. Thankfully this has been a rare ocurance in my relationship with my Dom, he is very kind and rarely finds fault with what I do. That is not to say I don't displease him, but he reserves his wrath for more serious mistakes. In the beginning I was often a willfull slave and would talk back, this caused me to recieve cold eyes from him. Everytime that happened I felt crushed, like my world was falling apart, it is what made me the obidient slave I am today.

I love to hear the words "good girl", it makes me quiver with excitment to know I have pleased Him so! I blush and squirm and try even harder to please him with whatever I am doing! And if he stokes my head, I practically melt!

My orgasms are most definantly for his pleasure, I am not allowed to orgasm unless he tells me too. Although at the same time they are for my pleasure too as it pleases me to please him.

You are not too nosey, I love these questions, they really make me think which I love to do!
Thanks so much,
Flowerchild

 

[curiousjen]

I don't usually post here (I lurk alot!), but I have to respond to this. I could have written that paragraph. I love to masturbate, and I was the same way- needed to masturbate to help me sleep, felt like I "had" to masturbate every day.
Then I entered a long-distance D/s relationship. I gave him control over my masturbation. I've gone from masturbating every day to a few times a week. It was a difficult adjustment (especially the sleep aspect), but it's been worth it. My orgasms and my masturbation play have gone from fun to amazing. Following his instructions for masturbation, knowing that I am doing it for him and not for myself, has completely changed the experience for me.

So I understand where you're coming from- good luck! If your experience is like mine, it'll be worth it to give him this control.

SJ

Thanks for coming out of lurkdom to share your experiences Sophiajane I found your comments reassuring and its great to see the positives of orgasm denial have outweighed the negatives for you. Fingers crossed it will for me too! I liked what you said about knowing its for him, as I always look for ways to make sex more about him. Thank you.

Ohhh I miss that. I used to be the same way, I could not sleep without an orgasm first to take me into that blissful sleepy state. When D decided that my orgasms were only allowed at her whim (and not very often at that), I had to force myself out of this habit and let me tell you, that was very hard. I think quitting smoking was easier LOL. I still rest a lot better if I am allowed to orgasm first.

I quit smoking a year ago so I know how hard it is! Oh man, am I in for a bumpy ride. Yes, I think the sleep thing is going to be very hard indeed as it is a habit I have had since i was around twelve years old or so. Mmmmmmmmm blissful sleepy state! Its going to be tough without it.

When it begins, and if He approves, I would love to follow your (very articulate) passions and struggles in a thread here. I'll even join all those who will cheer you on, smiling!

I will think about this And I will ask him. Whether I start a thread or not I will certainly keep you updated. I'm sure when I'm frustrated and gnashing my teeth you will hear all about it

Ah what a delightful time Owen is going to have controlling your orgasms! It will be a very interesting journey giving up the control to your masterbation but you just might find it to be the gateway to an even deeper submission...eventually ~~grin~~

Thank you for sharing the reasons why this will be complex from the stand point of your regular routine and desires. It is helpful when trying to understand the differences in submissives.

Thank you for your kind words Shadowsdream. I think from the glint in his eye that Owen is indeed looking forward to an "interesting journey". I hope what you say about it deepening my submission is true I just hope I behave honestly and faithfully and am up to the mental challenge of having my limits stretched. We're rather new at this (as you've no doubt gathered) and my submission although it feels natural is also an almost daily struggle for me- does that make sense? and so this foray into orgasm denial will almost be a test as to how I react under the weight of new rules (rules are something I struggle with a lot). Sigh. I love to serve, but its the regimentation I find hard, even though we have very few rules compared to a lot of people.

The more I wrestle with it, the more I think that its a funny old path we've chosen to walk down, isn't it?

 

[Cherrysweetdeal]

Thank you for your kind words Shadowsdream. I think from the glint in his eye that Owen is indeed looking forward to an "interesting journey". I hope what you say about it deepening my submission is true I just hope I behave honestly and faithfully and am up to the mental challenge of having my limits stretched. We're rather new at this (as you've no doubt gathered) and my submission although it feels natural is also an almost daily struggle for me- does that make sense? and so this foray into orgasm denial will almost be a test as to how I react under the weight of new rules (rules are something I struggle with a lot). Sigh. I love to serve, but its the regimentation I find hard, even though we have very few rules compared to a lot of people.

The more I wrestle with it, the more I think that its a funny old path we've chosen to walk down, isn't it?

I think that if you try to behave and accept what Owen does in the orgasm denial and control that you will experience wonderful pleasures. It is understandable that you feel it is a struggle to submit. I have so much willpower and fight myself that I can understand how much of a struggle it is.

The thoughts going through my head include one that no matter how much of a struggle you have you will always have Owen to go to. With the right training you will experience great pleasures and trust in Owen and he will make sure you both get through as well as you can.

I hope I get to see this journey of yours atleast partially. It is a journey I wish I could take and I wish you luck and the greatest pleasure.

cherry*dabs at my eyes as i hold back my own thoughts*

 

[Shadowsdream]

Wow, this is my first post here! So many deep and thought provoking questions to answer. Well, here it goes, first cold eyes. Thankfully this has been a rare ocurance in my relationship with my Dom, he is very kind and rarely finds fault with what I do. That is not to say I don't displease him, but he reserves his wrath for more serious mistakes. In the beginning I was often a willfull slave and would talk back, this caused me to recieve cold eyes from him. Everytime that happened I felt crushed, like my world was falling apart, it is what made me the obidient slave I am today.

I love to hear the words "good girl", it makes me quiver with excitment to know I have pleased Him so! I blush and squirm and try even harder to please him with whatever I am doing! And if he stokes my head, I practically melt!

My orgasms are most definantly for his pleasure, I am not allowed to orgasm unless he tells me too. Although at the same time they are for my pleasure too as it pleases me to please him.

You are not too nosey, I love these questions, they really make me think which I love to do!
Thanks so much,
Flowerchild

Hello Flowerchild and thank you for adding your voice to this conversation. New voices are wonderful to give new perspectives or confirm existing ideas.

It would appear that you are on an interesting and fulfilling journey with your Dom and I suspect that you will have much to add to stimulate thought provoking conversations. I look forward to getting to know you here at Lit! ~~smile~~