Being autistic, adhd and random stuff

[stickygirl]

I can hear my blood move in my neck.

When I was a kid I used to think it was soldiers marching as I was trying to get to sleep, which frightened me so I called out for my Mum. When I described, she looked totally baffled. She already knew she had a weird kid

 

[Noor]

On tense days I can hear my pulse when laying down but never had that happen. I've heard of similar though.

Maybe this is the universe telling you that you were meant to be a biathlete? How are you in the cold?

I live in Minnesota and very rarely zip my jackets.

 

[PMarky3]

Did my party piece today... and had a hugely productive day. I was at it with interruptions from 7am until about 11:45pm. Yesterday failed to ignite. Went through the motions, answered the phone, tried not to ignore email, whilst waiting for the inspiration that never came. Worked frantically today, to the extent that the rest of the week can now be dialed in, though I will keep my fingers crossed that I have a semi-productive day Friday or Saturday. I'll need to recoup tomorrow. Good old AuDHD!

 

[liliput1]

Tomorrow I have to start busting ass because I've been procrastinating on something for the city for over two weeks.

Why am I like this.

 

[Strixaluco]

Tomorrow I have to start busting ass because I've been procrastinating on something for the city for over two weeks.

Why am I like this.

Starting things is difficult. So is stopping them, if they are not finished.

And if you're not totally sure how it all is or should be done, the uncertainty is a bitch.

 

[juliexcd]

you just need that manic phase to kick in.

 

[PMarky3]

Yesterday actually turned out to be semi-productive until I

[a.] Ran out of paper in the office, and
[b.] Attempted to get a haircut. Took my chances on a walk-in, thinking I could make an appointment if that failed. Plan failed because they only take appointments via an app.

After that I was stuffed because I had lost my flow.

 

[Strixaluco]

Yesterday actually turned out to be semi-productive until I

[a.] Ran out of paper in the office, and
[b.] Attempted to get a haircut.

After that I was stuffed because I had lost the flow.

So... You didn't even get the haircut? How frustrating.

 

[PMarky3]

So... You didn't even get the haircut? How frustrating.

No haircut - and I am overdue!

It's a bit of a story...

My old barber was a woman who had a little shop down by Kroger (supermarket) which was within walking distance. She retired suddenly just before Easter and no-one took over. There's a barber's by the Post Office, also walking distance, which is where I tried yesterday, but they are just weird - don't really do walk-ins but say that they do, and the app thing. It is beginning to look like I'll be borrowing the dog clippers.

 

[PMarky3]

Update: On the plus side... I found the barber's I vaguely remembered as being at the back of CVS. Turned out to be an Hispanic place but between his limited English and my three words of Spanish we managed, and I now have a summer haircut!

On the negative side... the phone company updated their system and now my passcode won't work on the voicemail system.

 

[stickygirl]

Update: On the plus side... I found the barber's I vaguely remembered as being at the back of CVS. Turned out to be an Hispanic place but between his limited English and my three words of Spanish we managed, and I now have a summer haircut!

On the negative side... the phone company updated their system and now my passcode won't work on the voicemail system.

My bf has male pattern baldness and opted to go broke/go home and shaved his head. I wasn't over the moon, but I've mow got used to velcro in the bedroom... I miss wrapping hair round my fingers

 

[PMarky3]

My bf has male pattern baldness and opted to go broke/go home and shaved his head. I wasn't over the moon, but I've mow got used to velcro in the bedroom... I miss wrapping hair round my fingers

I'm on the same boat as your bf, but I am at the stage where there is just enough hair left to for me still want to make the most of it. Give it another 3 to 6 months it'll will be time for the buzz. It'll be all-over no.4 for me, rather than shaved. I don't fancy the Buster Bloodvessel look!

I'll deal with the bleep-bleep phone company on Monday.

 

[Strixaluco]

My bf has male pattern baldness and opted to go broke/go home and shaved his head. I wasn't over the moon, but I've mow got used to velcro in the bedroom...

My late husband had the same situation. His scalp didn't agree with shaving with 0mm (he got acne there), so I had to talk him to leaving a few millimetres. It's the combing over that is embarrassing, not having 3-10 mm around the bald spot. And it makes a huge difference for the scalp health.

I'm considering learning to cut mine. I've yet to find myself a hairdresser since moving back to the city, and it's been 4 years since last cut. My hair has grown from mid-shoulderblades to almost long enough to be sat on. Hairdressers cost a lot of money, good specific scissors for the job cost less than one haircut.

 

[PMarky3]

I'm struggling today. I sort of know why - too darn much to do with a high probability the work will be ignored/rejected - but the clincher is something I thought I was over. I did not see my Closest Autistic Friend yesterday as she was elsewhere pushing her book, so I am really missing our usual 5 to 20 minute check-in that I didn't get yesterday.

 

[liliput1]

Listening to audiobooks while doing chores isn't quite body doubling but it's better than nothing.

But the nice thing about listening to an audiobook you've already been through a few times is that you no longer need to pay close attention, like leaving reruns of a TV show running in the background. If you space out or doze off and you miss a bit and you pretty much know what it is, and don't need to play the game of trying to back up to the last part you remember hearing and playing it again.

Music might be better for tempo but not for endurance.

 

[PMarky3]

Listening to audiobooks while doing chores isn't quite body doubling but it's better than nothing.

But the nice thing about listening to an audiobook you've already been through a few times is that you no longer need to pay close attention, like leaving reruns of a TV show running in the background. If you space out or doze off and you miss a bit and you pretty much know what it is, and don't need to play the game of trying to back up to the last part you remember hearing and playing it again.

Music might be better for tempo but not for endurance.

I tend to do chores when I need to either (a) release tension, or (b) do something where I can see where I have been. Loud music helps in those circumstances.

In my world audio books are for long boring journeys in the car.

 

[PMarky3]

I'm struggling today. I sort of know why - too darn much to do with a high probability the work will be ignored/rejected - but the clincher is something I thought I was over. I did not see my Closest Autistic Friend yesterday as she was elsewhere pushing her book, so I am really missing our usual 5 to 20 minute check-in that I didn't get yesterday.

I'm quietly dreading tomorrow in case she is away again... just need to see her and check in.

 

[liliput1]

I tend to do chores when I need to either (a) release tension, or (b) do something where I can see where I have been. Loud music helps in those circumstances.

That's a distinction between *DHD and straight autism. Making chores into a meditation takes years and years of practice and even then it's not automatic. I can zen out doing chores. I rarely do, because the initial investment is high.

In my world audio books are for long boring journeys in the car.

That's how I started with audiobooks. Used it for classics I hadn't managed to get through on paper.

 

[Underscore_2]

That's a distinction between *DHD and straight autism. Making chores into a meditation takes years and years of practice and even then it's not automatic. I can zen out doing chores. I rarely do, because the initial investment is high.


That's how I started with audiobooks. Used it for classics I hadn't managed to get through on paper.

Many years ago during my extended misguided youth I self medicated in extreme ways that I wouldn't recommend. Sometimes I would feel a serious lack of control and I would then resort to the simplest of household tasks just to maintain some semblance of stability.

 

[Strixaluco]

That's a distinction between *DHD and straight autism. Making chores into a meditation takes years and years of practice and even then it's not automatic. I can zen out doing chores. I rarely do, because the initial investment is high.

And with AuDHD or ADHD mind can start to resist immediately when it's starting to be an actual routine.

 

[Underscore_2]

And with AuDHD or ADHD mind can start to resist immediately when it's starting to be an actual routine.

And even the simplest of routine can become a real challenge demanding disturbing levels of concentration

 

[liliput1]

And even the simplest of routine can become a real challenge demanding disturbing levels of concentration

Most of my rituals are about not fucking things up rather than getting them done.

 

[Underscore_2]

Most of my rituals are about not fucking things up rather than getting them done.

Mine are about retaining control and not dropping over the edge

 

[PMarky3]

And even the simplest of routine can become a real challenge demanding disturbing levels of concentration

I'm AuDHD, so it can be interesting how I am going to react to the routine. It is very much a case of get up, wiggle the key, turn it, and see what is going to work today, if anything. It depends whether ASD is in control or inattentive ADHD, or whether they're having a little dance with one another.