Rambling Rosie's Retreat

[UnquietDreams]

Ribbit
Hope you're not getting sick

https://voca.ro/1Jj8Gmlq3hxB

 

[Deadfreak]

"Fucksake Rosie, get off your arse and go outside then!" Easier said than done.

Things get too much.
People start conversations and I get flustered, can't make eye contact and give short replies. I even get anxious on here where I can take my time and process my thoughts before replying.

I overthink or downplay any possibility that someone might be doing more than just being friendly or kind partly because I honestly can't tell and partly because deep down I'm still the shy, awkward girl that people pretended to ask out just to make their friends laugh. True story.

Even now I look in the mirror and can't see any redeemable qualities. I know I'm a nice person. But that isn't enough to make anyone want to stay. I can't magic wand myself into someone people would want and personality alone isn't enough.

Something has to give. I need to make real changes and that is terrifying. But not as much as doing nothing.

I've tried dating apps and they're all horrible. I did meet a couple of nice people but they didn't want anything serious and I still don't really know what I want, other than to not be alone anymore.

I'm writing not for sympathy or to fish for compliments or to invite randos to my inbox (please don't, you will not be replied to) but to just process my thoughts. They're much easier to figure out in front of me than rattling around in my brain.

Thank you for your openness.
I have similar feeling and super grateful and surprised someone found me, I say that not to brag but to encourage you to keep hope and helps me count that blessing.
I hope you have a beautiful day.

 

[Deadfreak]

Probably. I've been on a waiting list for well over a year to be assessed. Can't afford to do it privately unfortunately.
And I know a diagnosis doesn't come with a magical scroll that will give me the power to function like I want to but I'll still feel better knowing one way or another I guess.

Care emoji

 

[Secretintoelderly]

Probably. I've been on a waiting list for well over a year to be assessed. Can't afford to do it privately unfortunately.
And I know a diagnosis doesn't come with a magical scroll that will give me the power to function like I want to but I'll still feel better knowing one way or another I guess.

Getting a diagnosis can give a sense of understanding yourself. But I have a feeling that you understand yourself quite well, if I watch your posts. Most difficult thing we have to do in life (in my perspective), is to see ourself as we are.
I think you are on the right track with this, just watching your posts here. You have a laugh about your anxiety and all, but are also serious about it. And that's the way to cope with it.
Be proud of yourself about that.

 

[Secretintoelderly]

I use a light therapy lamp every morning.


One of my favorites.


Truth


d) All of the above

Thank you for the tip. By coincidence (or not) I read an article about daylight-glasses with certain spectrum of light, which might help. I'm gonna dive into it, just to survive winter

 

[RosewoodTulip]

She is!
She got me through covid with her chatty videos and by being the poster girl for England women's footie. I have a massive crush and even wrote a story that included her.
Never been to a game yet though because it'd mean huge crowds, noise, unfamiliar places, trains and all those things I dread.

Oh I will give it a read.
I find that once I'm in the venue and I'm sat down I'm not too bad because I can focus on what I want to see. I was in Glasgow earlier this year for the Foo Fighters and it was a lot of noise and people and travelling etc but the actual gig was great. It's not something I can do often though. Can't bloody afford it for one thing.

 

[RosewoodTulip]

I started an autie thread at Lit - nothing erotic, just a place to swap tales and stuff. Lit is thick with spectrum folks

Oh I actually remember posting there once and then immediately forgetting to go back

 

[RosewoodTulip]

https://voca.ro/1Jj8Gmlq3hxB

Oh that's a relief.
Oh god some mornings I have a full baritone which is obviously very attractive

 

[RosewoodTulip]

Thank you for your openness.
I have similar feeling and super grateful and surprised someone found me, I say that not to brag but to encourage you to keep hope and helps me count that blessing.
I hope you have a beautiful day.

Thank you. I'm glad you found your person. Or that they found you I should say.

 

[RosewoodTulip]

Getting a diagnosis can give a sense of understanding yourself. But I have a feeling that you understand yourself quite well, if I watch your posts. Most difficult thing we have to do in life (in my perspective), is to see ourself as we are.
I think you are on the right track with this, just watching your posts here. You have a laugh about your anxiety and all, but are also serious about it. And that's the way to cope with it.
Be proud of yourself about that.

I appreciate this. Thank you.

 

[UnquietDreams]

Oh that's a relief.
Oh god some mornings I have a full baritone which is obviously very attractive

Now I really want to hear that...

 

[RosewoodTulip]

Now I really want to hear that...

Words you may come to regret

 

[AWonkyDonkey]

Oh that's a relief.
Oh god some mornings I have a full baritone which is obviously very attractive

*Has a fleeting image of Rosie dressed as Pavarotti...*

 

[RosewoodTulip]

*Has a fleeting image of Rosie dressed as Pavarotti...*

It's the beard that makes it work so well isn't it?

 

[AWonkyDonkey]

It's the beard that makes it work so well isn't it?

If you don't stop, I swear I'll explode. Phwoarrr.

 

[Kat0069]

Getting a diagnosis can give a sense of understanding yourself. But I have a feeling that you understand yourself quite well, if I watch your posts. Most difficult thing we have to do in life (in my perspective), is to see ourself as we are.
I think you are on the right track with this, just watching your posts here. You have a laugh about your anxiety and all, but are also serious about it. And that's the way to cope with it.
Be proud of yourself about that.

Ditto this Rosie. Couldn’t say it better.

 

[Secretintoelderly]

Ditto this Rosie. Couldn’t say it better.

Gosh I'm starting to blush a little...

 

[RosewoodTulip]

Morning everyone

 

[Biggalute]

Morning, it's Sunday! Don't know about anyone else but it always feels the same as any other day, but I somehow feel it shouldn't.

 

[Addam829]

Morning everyone

lol this is hilarious and exactly how I feel when I wake heading into work everyday!

 

[Wriggle]

Morning everyone

Samesies

 

[RosewoodTulip]

Morning, it's Sunday! Don't know about anyone else but it always feels the same as any other day, but I somehow feel it shouldn't.

You don't get residual "I haven't done my homework" panic on a Sunday? That fear is soaked into my bones

 

[Wriggle]

I worked the previous 6 days and I'm working the next 6 days.

I only have today to chill and I have to do loads of bollocks I don't want to do.

 

[Wriggle]

So fuck it.

If I have to go to Tesco I'm deliberately showing my rock lobster off for the housewives.

 

[Deadfreak]

You don't get residual "I haven't done my homework" panic on a Sunday? That fear is soaked into my bones

I forgot my locker combination!!!??!!
Whew just a flashback