Lil_Jenni's Adventures, Past and Present...

[lil_jenni]

Sorry to hear that you're going through all this. I too struggle with anxiety that seems to stem from feeling other people expect things from me that I can't live up to, so I have some idea how you might feel. Also, all psych drugs can be finicky, especially when there are interactions and changes going on. I hope you hear from your doctor and I hope things settle down soon. Lots of hugs, and snuggles and cuddles if that helps!

Thank you!

 

[lil_jenni]

I'm feeling kinda needy today, so I thought I'd post the link to the poem I published here a few days back. Be nice. It's my first poem posted here, other than a couple BDSM haikus in the thread for them...

https://www.literotica.com/p/pleasures-1

 

[petes478]

As I posted in a different thread, I've been feeling off the last several days. It was suggested to me by a friend in real life that my anxiety meds may be affecting me differently as the Depo-Provera works its way out of my system. I put in a call to my psychiatrist and I'm hoping he gets back to me soon.

My moods have been very volatile. I sat and cried yesterday for no discernable reason. I've been alternatively cranky and needy. My sex drive is all over the place from almost nothing to extreme horniness, even for me. And my anxiety is out of control. I kept waking up last night thinking there were people all around expecting something from me. No dreams I can remember, but just that feeling of pressure and expectation.

This didn't happen last time I quit the Depo, but I was on different anti-anxiety meds then.

I’m no doctor but have some experience with one of my partners (yes, baby, I am poly too) and odds are the moods you are describing are related to depoprovera

 

[petes478]

I'm feeling kinda needy today, so I thought I'd post the link to the poem I published here a few days back. Be nice. It's my first poem posted here, other than a couple BDSM haikus in the thread for them...

https://www.literotica.com/p/pleasures-1

Very sexy Jenn!!

 

[lil_jenni]

I’m no doctor but have some experience with one of my partners (yes, baby, I am poly too) and odds are the moods you are describing are related to depoprovera

Poly proud! We need our own sign. Or do we have one? I'm not new to the behavior (it's how I spent all my sexual life before I met Hubby), but I'm fairly new to overtly identifying as Poly (on here and some in private... I'm a teacher, so I can't openly identify as such in real life).

And yeah, it makes sense the changes may be causing me issues. I'm hoping it sorts out soon. I do not like these mood swings.

 

[lil_jenni]

Very sexy Jenn!!

Thank you!

 

[13Fantasies]

I'm sorry that you have been feeling out of sorts. Sounds like it could definitely be your meds.

But sometimes you just feel out of sorts. I've been that way lately too. Really had to focus on being present a few times.

I'm sure you will overcome. You always seem to.

 

[lil_jenni]

I'm sorry that you have been feeling out of sorts. Sounds like it could definitely be your meds.

But sometimes you just feel out of sorts. I've been that way lately too. Really had to focus on being present a few times.

I'm sure you will overcome. You always seem to.

Thank you!

 

[petes478]

Poly proud! We need our own sign. Or do we have one? I'm not new to the behavior (it's how I spent all my sexual life before I met Hubby), but I'm fairly new to overtly identifying as Poly (on here and some in private... I'm a teacher, so I can't openly identify as such in real life).

And yeah, it makes sense the changes may be causing me issues. I'm hoping it sorts out soon. I do not like these mood swings.

Yeah I understand. I hold it clears up soon

 

[SexyVita]

I'm feeling kinda needy today, so I thought I'd post the link to the poem I published here a few days back. Be nice. It's my first poem posted here, other than a couple BDSM haikus in the thread for them...

https://www.literotica.com/p/pleasures-1

Jenni, I especially liked this part:

Her scent,
World filling,
Envelopes me,
Embraces me,
Infuses me.

I love the smell of another woman, and usually not in a sexual way. Women (many of them, anyway) just smell so good! I sometime wish we were more like dogs, so that social sniffing was acceptable. I can tell you how many times I've been close to another woman and wanted to "snarffle" her. (That's my word for rubbing my nose against someone while inhaling the smell of them.)

 

[SexyVita]

Poly proud! We need our own sign. Or do we have one?

Well there is a poly flag. which I'm not fond of really:


And then there is the Infinity Heart, which is at least a bit better:

 

[lil_jenni]

Well there is a poly flag. which I'm not fond of really:
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And then there is the Infinity Heart, which is at least a bit better:

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Oooh... I like the infinity heart!

 

[petes478]

Jenni, I especially liked this part:

Her scent,
World filling,
Envelopes me,
Embraces me,
Infuses me.

I love the smell of another woman, and usually not in a sexual way. Women (many of them, anyway) just smell so good! I sometime wish we were more like dogs, so that social sniffing was acceptable. I can tell you how many times I've been close to another woman and wanted to "snarffle" her. (That's my word for rubbing my nose against someone while inhaling the smell of them.)

I love the Smell of a woman as well. For me I respond real primitively. It’s as if I’m hardwired to the caveman brain. I love all her scents. Not just one or two. For me it seems to drive me to seduce conquer fuck new women. We all come in with our eyes wide open. I think monogamy must have developed at a much later time and sometimes I feel as you talking about your partner. How devoted you both are to each other. Most of the time that’s the residing feeling however I do feel the need to take a new girl and fuck her brains out. Especially if I get a vibe from her that she’s needing it too. The human being is complex. For sure.

 

[lil_jenni]

Jenni, I especially liked this part:

Her scent,
World filling,
Envelopes me,
Embraces me,
Infuses me.

I love the smell of another woman, and usually not in a sexual way. Women (many of them, anyway) just smell so good! I sometime wish we were more like dogs, so that social sniffing was acceptable. I can tell you how many times I've been close to another woman and wanted to "snarffle" her. (That's my word for rubbing my nose against someone while inhaling the smell of them.)

In my first draft, that stanza was first. I them decided to end with the variation on what had been the second stanza, and realized it would work as the first...

 

[SexyVita]

I love the Smell of a woman as well. For me I respond real primitively. It’s as if I’m hardwired to the caveman brain. I love all her scents. Not just one or two. For me it seems to drive me to seduce conquer fuck new women. We all come in with our eyes wide open. I think monogamy must have developed at a much later time and sometimes I feel as you talking about your partner. How devoted you both are to each other. Most of the time that’s the residing feeling however I do feel the need to take a new girl and fuck her brains out. Especially if I get a vibe from her that she’s needing it too. The human being is complex. For sure.

Usually for me it just makes me want to snuggle and cuddle with her, sort of "Netflix and chill" on a cold winter day under a big fuzzy pink blanket on the couch with my head in her lap. And lots of snarffling!

 

[SexyVita]

In my first draft, that stanza was first. I them decided to end with the variation on what had been the second stanza, and realized it would work as the first...

Yes, that was nice bracketing with the first and last stanzas.

 

[lil_jenni]

Yes, that was nice bracketing with the first and last stanzas.

Thanks.

 

[SexyVita]

Thanks.

You're welcome sweetie.

 

[lil_jenni]

I posted a new poem:

https://www.literotica.com/p/exhibitionist-blues

It's about my conflicted feelings toward being a bit of an exhibitionist when I go to the store...

I used to write a lot of poetry. In college (and before ) a lot of it tended toward explicit/raunchy... I was not a romantic type girl...

They were also almost all on paper, because... Well, in some not sexually related ways, perhaps I was a bit of a romantic...

Anyway, I threw them all out during one of my 'I need to not be so sexually driven' self-discovery/-recovery phases. I wish I had them now.

 

[base10]

I posted a new poem:

https://www.literotica.com/p/exhibitionist-blues

It's about my conflicted feelings toward being a bit of an exhibitionist when I go to the store...

I used to write a lot of poetry. In college (and before ) a lot of it tended toward explicit/raunchy... I was not a romantic type girl...

They were also almost all on paper, because... Well, in some not sexually related ways, perhaps I was a bit of a romantic...

Anyway, I threw them all out during one of my 'I need to not be so sexually driven' self-discovery/-recovery phases. I wish I had them now.

This is wonderful, and I love the dynamic of the debate of you showing off for you or for them

Thank you for sharing

 

[lil_jenni]

This is wonderful, and I love the dynamic of the debate of you showing off for you or for them

Thank you for sharing

Thank you!

 

[SexyVita]

I posted a new poem:

https://www.literotica.com/p/exhibitionist-blues

It's about my conflicted feelings toward being a bit of an exhibitionist when I go to the store...

Loved it! I love how almost the same sentence at the beginning and end convey such different messages, although I do think you could actually omit the word "really" in the last line, and it would still carry the same message and then mirror the first line. I say this because it's obvious by the end of the poem that people "see you" in the sense the openning line implies, so repeating that line at the end must carry a different meaning, and adding the word "really" might imply you don't trust the reader to pick up on that. Not saying you should change it, I still love it the way it is, just my inner critic popping out.

And now here's my inner editor:

I think the line "Tightness revelaing," was intended to be "Tightness, revealing,"

 

[lil_jenni]

Loved it! I love how almost the same sentence at the beginning and end convey such different messages, although I do think you could actually omit the word "really" in the last line, and it would still carry the same message and then mirror the first line. I say this because it's obvious by the end of the poem that people "see you" in the sense the openning line implies, so repeating that line at the end must carry a different meaning, and adding the word "really" might imply you don't trust the reader to pick up on that. Not saying you should change it, I still love it the way it is, just my inner critic popping out.

And now here's my inner editor:

I think the line "Tightness revelaing," was intended to be "Tightness, revealing,"

Thanks for the feedback!

I thought the 'really' was a little heavy handed, but I was worried. So, I kept it. But yeah, you are right that I should have trusted myself and the reader to get what I meant...

As for the comma, yeah, I like your edit better.

 

[SexyVita]

As for the comma, yeah, I like your edit better.

LOL, freaky the way my inner editor works, I was concentrating consciously on the spelling of the word revealing. I didn't even realize I put in an extra comma until you mentioned it! My inner editor has a fetish for commas. Read any of my writing and you'll find tons of commas. When I go through a final edit, I nearly always add more commas!

 

[lil_jenni]

LOL, freaky the way my inner editor works, I was concentrating consciously on the spelling of the word revealing. I didn't even realize I put in an extra comma until you mentioned it! My inner editor has a fetish for commas. Read any of my writing and you'll find tons of commas. When I go through a final edit, I nearly always add more commas!

And my eyes missed the typo until you just pointed it out, because I kept reading it as the word I meant it to be.